From a Young Non-Practitioner: Gratitude to Falun Dafa and an Apology for My Wrongdoings
(Minghui.org) I am not a practitioner. It took me a long time to decide whether to write this article, but in the end, I knew that I had to do this—it would save myself. More importantly, I am obliged—because of my own experience—to let people know about the wonderfulness of Falun Dafa.
I live in mainland China. I agree with democratic and Western values, so I dislike the totalitarian Chinese Communist Party (CCP) regime. Yet, up until last year, I was a firm atheist.
I hardly knew anything about Falun Dafa except for the defamatory propaganda, and I even said many negative things about Falun Dafa. But now, I have understood what Dafa is and just how much innocent practitioners have suffered for upholding their belief. So I am really ashamed of my earlier remarks and regret them very much.
I have always believed in traditional values. Because of that, I often felt isolated at school, which was a painful, depressing experience. As my viewpoints of mankind and society seemed to face a dead end, I wondered if I should give in and lead a confused life just like everyone else.
Fortunately, around that time I came across Falun Dafa and the Minghui website.
After learning the facts of Dafa, I regained the courage to become a good person. Whenever I felt sad or lost, I would browse Minghui, watch videos from the Shen Yun website, and read Dafa books. Doing so would give me strength and hope. I will always be indebted to Dafa for the light it has brought me; it is truly miraculous.
Even now, I have not yet begun to practice Falun Dafa, but I have a feeling that I will become a practitioner someday. Despite various voices struggling in my mind, I can nonetheless feel that Dafa is leading me towards becoming a better person. From time to time, I am also able to experience a profound calmness and happiness from the bottom of my heart.
Today, I would like to share some miracles that happened to me after I began to recite “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
Since the beginning of this year, I had been bothered by depression and problems with my voice. Ever since childhood, I've had a superb, gifted voice. Due to my own stubbornness, however, I did not follow my teacher’s advice and my throat developed some serious problems. The doctors said they did not know how to help me heal.
Before that, I had always had a positive attitude towards school and life. With this setback, however, I could hardly continue my studies. In fact, this situation was almost like a death sentence to me. I could no longer sing.
I had previously heard about miraculous experiences of people who recited the phrases “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” but I simply dismissed them.
As my condition worsened, I decided to start reciting the phrases together while I sat in meditation. The surprises came before I noticed them: within several days, the acne on my face that medicine had failed to cure disappeared completely. Moreover, my depression lessened, which allowed me to focus on my studies again. I am so happy for these blessings.
What came next was even more astonishing.
Several days after I recited “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” I had a dream: I opened my mouth and saw my vocal cords—they were intact and healthy. Upon waking up, I sighed while sitting in bed: how I wish this was real!
A few days passed, and it was time for my throat check-up at the hospital. Saddened in my heart, I nonetheless took the laryngoscopy as usual.
The result was thrilling: the problems I had earlier were gone and everything was normal. Although a close look showed that the edges of my vocal cords were still not perfect, they were way better than before. Furthermore, my voice was even stronger than before.
With such a sudden change, I could hardly believe myself—could this be a mistake? But comparing the pictures taken now and earlier, one can see a significant improvement. Thinking back to the dream I had, I knew that this was not a coincidence––it must be another miracle for me.
Also, I didn’t know earlier that one could see one’s vocal cords simply by opening one’s mouth. But on the day of the examination, it was exactly like that, just as I had seen in my dream.
I was very thankful. I also made up my mind to stop singing any lust-filled songs. Instead, I would use my voice to praise the righteous and bring people hope. I also decided not to pursue fame and fortune anymore. After all, since my voice was given to me by Dafa—something so precious and dignified––how could I possibly abuse it and pursue anything that filthy?
I am grateful to the founder of Falun Dafa. This is because I was not a good person. I had done many things that harmed others, and I even said many things against Dafa in the past.
To be honest, I did not know why I did those things back then against my conscience––it was probably due to the education I'd received since childhood. But Dafa has saved a foolish and stubborn person like me. I know from now on, I will strive to be a better person, gain more insights from the Dafa teachings, and keep in mind the two phrases that saved my life.
Once again, I want to thank the founder of Falun Dafa along with its many practitioners. Without them, I would not know about any of this and still be a sad, selfish, and lost young woman.