Passing a Xinxing Test
(Minghui.org) I am 78 years old, and lucky that I obtained the Falun Dafa book Zhuan Falun in 1997. I was very excited when I first read this book, and the more I read it, the more I felt that it was a book from heaven. I have never stopped reading it during the past 20 years. I believe in Master and in Dafa.
I participated in the sacred mission of clarifying the truth to the public from the moment Master asked his disciples to do so. Whether it is windy, rainy, or freezing cold, I clarify the facts in the morning and study the Dafa teachings in the afternoon. I distribute brochures about the truth of Dafa and quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and post stickers. I have not procrastinated for a single day.
There is bitterness and joy in the process of clarifying the truth. Sometimes, when I am tired and about to relax, Master’s words wake me up – dedicated practitioners will eventually go out. The tribulations and sufferings could be a good thing as they help you improve. Saving people is fundamental. We should walk on the path that Master arranged.
Encountering a Major Test
I encountered a major test during the Chinese New Year this year. I was living at my son’s house, as my husband had passed away. One day, my son told me that going out to clarify the truth was dangerous, and he would not let me go out again. He left home after saying those words.
My jealous and resentful mind raised up, in a way not befitting of a cultivator. The old forces took advantage of me. When my son came back he shouted at me angrily, “If you don’t listen to me, please take all your belongings and find a hotel. I will pay for you.”
My daughter-in-law tried to calm him down, but he pushed her away. My daughter-in-law said, “Mom, please don’t go.” I didn’t go, but I felt aggrieved, and my face was covered with tears. I thought that I should find a place to live by myself, not live with them.
When I came to live with my son, I handed him 200,000 yuan that my husband left. I also cooked for them every day. I did not live or eat free. The more I thought about this injustice, the more I felt upset. I didn’t take myself as a cultivator.
I realized that I was a cultivator the next day.
“Whatever you experience during your cultivation—whether good or bad—is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating.” (“To the Chicago Fa Conference,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol. III)
I calmed down, studied the Fa, sent righteous thoughts, read articles written by fellow practitioners on the Internet, and looked for gaps in my cultivation. I gradually let go of my resentment.
One day my granddaughter called to tell me that she dreamed that I was dead. I immediately denied what she said and thought, “I must go to the end with Master!” However, it was still in my mind. It made me think about what Master said,
“...the appearance stems from the mind.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. X)
“... for with something as significant as saving sentient beings you should just do what you are supposed to do, going about it in a composed manner. When you encounter things that don’t sound so good or that aren’t what you hoped for, don’t take it to heart, and just nobly and confidently do what you are supposed to. If you don’t let the evil’s interference sway you, bad factors won’t arise from you, the evil will become trivial, you will become towering and massive, and your righteous thoughts will be ample.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. X)
I was very moved by Master’s teachings. Master gives his disciples this Dafa and lifts them up.
My son was still angry with me, which meant that my compassion was not strong enough.
I no longer think about what my son said. I let go of all my grievances and hatred towards him. My son never mentioned pushing me away again.
I suddenly saw Master one morning (through my third eye). Master was wearing a cassock, and looked at me with a smile. I was very excited and began to cry. I knew that I had done the right thing and Master was encouraging me. I subsequently treated my son as before. I know that I need to be more diligent the closer the Fa-rectification gets to the end.