The Highs and Lows of My 20-Year-Long Cultivation Journey
(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1997 at the recommendation of a work colleague. I had many ailments that had pained me since childhood. I had hepatitis and jaundice when I was in elementary school and rheumatoid arthritis when I was a teenager.
I got married in my 20s and couldn't get on with my mother-in-law. If I complained to my husband, he became infuriated. I didn't understand at first, but I later realized that he was afraid of his mother and was incapable of dealing with conflicts.
I was plagued with all kinds of health problems by the time I was 30. I had no energy and easily caught whatever was going around. I tried all types of treatment but nothing helped.
I lost interest in life.
My work colleague suggested that I try Falun Dafa. The first time I read Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa, I was so impressed that I knew I had found something precious.
After practicing the exercises for just a month, all my ailments disappeared. I not only got my health back, but I also gained confidence.
In the past, I would avoid people that I knew when I walked down the street, but now I greeted them from afar. I told everyone about Falun Dafa and how it had improved my health.
Master's teachings took root in my heart, and the longstanding grudges against my mother-in-law melted away.
Clarifying the Truth and Resisting the Persecution
I was very happy with this practice, so I couldn't understand it when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched the persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999.
Pressured from all sides, I stopped practicing. I didn't realize that this was a test to see how firm my faith was.
Luckily, the practitioner at work who had introduced Falun Dafa to me came to look for me when she was released from prison.
We began studying the Fa teachings together, and a few more practitioners soon joined us. We read Zhuan Falun, Master's lectures, and articles written by other practitioners. My xinxing improved and, encouraged and assisted by other practitioners, I began going out to clarify the truth.
We distributed truth-clarifying materials wherever we could, sliding them under the doors in apartment buildings, placing them in bicycle baskets, or posting them on lampposts and walls.
When I had days off from work, we went to the countryside to distribute materials and help people to quit the CCP.
One time, we took Falun Dafa desktop calendars and stood outside the school gates. I handed a calendar to a parent waiting for her child. She asked if she needed to pay. When I told her that she didn’t, other parents came over and asked for some. They were all gone in no time.
A few days later, my doorbell rang. A woman in a police uniform and a man and a woman in plainclothes were standing outside my door. They said that they had come for the census and demanded that I open the door.
I quickly hid all my Falun Dafa materials; did heshi, a gesture of respect, in front of Master' portrait; and said, “No one can interfere with us or persecute us. Master is in control.”
When they came in, they kept commenting on how clean my home was and that it felt good. They asked how many people were living in my home and wanted to know their contact numbers. They then left.
The next day the property manager asked if the police had visited me. I told him that they had come for the census. He corrected me and said, “They came to see you because you practice Falun Dafa.” I knew that Master had protected me.
My Daughter Is Rewarded for Believing Falun Dafa Is Good
My daughter doesn't practice Falun Dafa, but she's seen the positive changes in me and knows that Falun Dafa is good.
The persecution started when she was in junior high. She came out with me every weekend when I distributed truth-clarification materials and also helped me with some Dafa-related projects.
When she went to university, she always wore the little Falun Dafa keepsake. When her classmates saw it, she would tell them how good Falun Dafa is. She would often say, “Dafa is being persecuted. It's not like what the CCP says about it on TV. Practitioners follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.”
When she graduated from university, she told me that she wanted to take the civil servants' exams. I didn't take it seriously and thought that, even if she passed the exams, she wouldn't pass the interview.
Before her exam, I cautioned her, “If there are questions that smear Falun Dafa, don't answer them.”
She passed the exam and told me I would have to accompany her for the interview. I was worried and my human attachments surfaced. The interview was to be held in a different city. I prepared some truth-clarification materials, keepsakes, and two copies of Zhuan Falun to take with us.
It was a long ride on the bus, and I fell asleep. I had a very clear dream that Master was by my side and said, “You passed.”
I woke up with tears of gratitude to Master. I did heshi to Master and knew that he was encouraging me.
My daughter started to study for the interview in the hotel room, while I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts.
She went for the interview the following day, while I stayed in the hotel lobby with many of the other parents who were there.
I sat down and asked Master to bring predestined people to me to hear the truth. A woman soon sat down beside me and asked what I was reading. I replied, “It's Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa.
“I thought that was banned,” she said in surprise.
I told her that it was a practice that teaches people to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. It was not like the CCP portrayed it on TV.
She said that she would like to look at the book but didn't have her reading glasses, so I read aloud to her instead. I had only read a few pages when she said, “I want to learn how to practice.”
I told her about the CCP's criminal history and the persecution and asked if she would like to quit the CCP for her own peace of mind and safety. In the end, three members of her family quit the Party.
When we returned home the following day, the woman I had spoken to in the hotel lobby phoned me to tell me that her son had passed the interview and been accepted. She recommended that we check online to see about my daughter.
We did and saw that my daughter had also been accepted. My daughter and I were so excited and shouted, “Thank you, Master! Thank you, Dafa.”
When I told the woman on the phone, “We've both been rewarded,” she agreed
Studying the Fa Well Is Key to Cultivation
I've been doing the three things that practitioners are supposed to do for a long time, but felt that I’d stopped improving. I felt lost.
I looked inward and found that I wasn't focused on what I was reading when I studied the teachings. Instead, it had become a routine. I wasn't serious about doing the exercises and was absent-minded when sending righteous thoughts.
When I examined myself, I realized that I had some warped notions, many desires, and human thoughts. So whenever I had time, I would send righteous thoughts to clear out these deeply rooted attachments.
Learning to Type
A fellow practitioner asked me if my daughter could help type up some experience-sharing articles. I asked my daughter, and she said that she would do it the next day at work.
However, when she came home she said that she was too busy and didn't have time. She said that she would try again the next day, but I thought, “This can't wait. I will do it myself. Maybe it's to eliminate my desire to depend on others.”
Although I did not know how to type, I knew Master would give me wisdom as long as I had the wish to help. So I sat down after dinner and began typing. I started typing with one finger. I felt restless after an hour, so I got up, took a break, and went back to it. Then I got restless again later.
I thought that I must be experiencing interference so I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate it: “No one can interfere with my Dafa work. I will disintegrate it and eliminate it.”
The interference lessened.
It took me four hours to type two pages the first night. By the following night, my back had stopped hurting and I wasn't feeling restless, even after typing ten pages.
Looking back on my 20 years of cultivation, Dafa has given my family so much happiness and joy. Our entire family is grateful for Master’s merciful salvation.
Thank you, Master!