(Minghui.org) For a while, my body felt heavy and my stomach felt unsettled. I was also dizzy when I used a computer. Even when I did some light work I was short of breath and my heart raced.
When I recently read, “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun) I suddenly had a deeper understanding of these teachings.
I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1995. From the Fa I understood that Master cleaned out the things that caused illness - I could actually feel the difference. I also knew that Master divided up our remaining karma and placed it at different levels of our cultivation. This gives us opportunities to improve our xinxing, elevate our levels and transform our karma into virtue.
So when I began feeling heavy and unwell I realized it must have something to do with my cultivation state. I felt it was a hint that I needed to improve. Apparently, my xinxing was stuck at a certain level for too long, so my body appeared to be unhealthy.
Master said,
“Once you improve your xinxing, your body will undergo a great change. Upon xinxing improvement, the matter in your body is guaranteed to transform.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
So what was my issue? I did the three things every day, but when I examined how I went about doing them I knew I had some omissions in my cultivation. It seemed my biggest problem was my state of mind when I read the teachings.
I've been part of an online Fa-study group for a long time. But when it was my turn to read I usually just went through the motions. When the others read I didn't pay attention.
Master said,
“It is thus primarily students who haven’t been very diligent, who don’t study the Fa frequently, or whose minds are elsewhere while studying Fa who have been interfered with the most and persecuted the worst. That’s always the case.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference”, Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XI)
I realized that my cultivation state was exactly like Master mentioned: “...whose minds are elsewhere while studying the Fa.” I realized that I had been in this state for a very long time.
Since I'd set aside time to study the Fa, I needed to take it seriously and focus. As soon as my thoughts began to wander, I immediately reminded myself to focus on every word.
After I adjusted myself I once again felt enveloped by the solemnity and sacredness of Master’s Fa. The teachings reached my soul, and I could feel my cultivation state improving and elevating. My body also underwent a significant change.
After I passed this test and re-read Master's words: “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master”, I had a new understanding: When we change our incorrect state, make a breakthrough during a tribulation and rectify ourselves, our energy that was bestowed upon by Master will display its power and we'll be able to save more people.
Category: Improving Oneself
