(Minghui.org) I was forced to file for a divorce when I was 30 years old, because my husband wanted to have a son and remarry. I became a single parent, taking care of my 6-year-old daughter. The divorce was peaceful as we didn't fight, but I was full of anger and hatred. I hated him for betraying me, and hiding money. My daughter's alimony was one dollar a day, and our house was under his name. What I hated the most was I paid everything to save him from prison, and after all the hardships, he abandoned me and our daughter within less than a year after being released from prison.
For the past 20 some years, we moved 9 times. When my daughter had a high fever, I had to carry her on my back to the doctor. In order to save money, we ate steamed buns with fillings made out of scrapped vegetables that I picked up from the market. We didn’t have heat in the winter so I held her in my arms when we slept on the concrete floor. It still felt very cold. Her father never visited her. Once she was studying at school on a snowy day, and she couldn't ride the bike home. I called and asked him to pick her up. But, he claimed that his car was broken. I was outraged for a long time.
I struggled to survive, and was on the verge of collapse. My heart was functioning well but my hands and feet became numb. When I rode a bike, I would constantly need to take a break; otherwise I would fall down. Walking was also difficult. I often needed to make frequent stops to catch my breath, and reduce my rapid heartbeat.
Once I passed out at work, and the doctor at the medical clinic said I was about to die. In the end, I couldn't work anymore. I blamed my former husband who was responsible for all these problems. I cursed him every day.
Master Saves Me from Suffering
The turning point of my life was in spring 1999. Because I often stayed home, my landlord was afraid that I might die, so she lent me a book to read. I made a comment like, “What book in the world can change your destiny?” Immediately, she said, “You asked the right question! This book can!” I took a look at the title. It was Zhuan Falun. I decided totake a look.”
As I was reading it, I broke out in tears. The more I read, the more I learned. I realized that all suffering is caused by karma accumulated through past lives, and suffering is to eliminate karma. I also learned how loss and gain are related. I read until two o’clock that night. Zhuan Falun helped me step out of confusion.
I figured out why I had a problem with my ex-husband. I once said that even if a god came to persuade me, I wouldn’t forgive him! For years, I felt like I was crushed by a boulder.
What kind of book is this? The language used in the book is quite plain but the principles given in it are things I never heard of. Is it a book from heaven? A divine book? Finally, I knew that it was Falun Dafa. When I finished reading Master’s Fa teachings, I understood that it is Master that helps me escape from the abyss of suffering. All the sufferings from the past were to get me prepared for obtaining the Fa today.
Persisting in Cultivation Despite the Persecution
About half a year after I began practicing cultivation, the Chinese Communist Party launched the persecution of Falun Dafa. I made arrangements for someone to take care of my child, and went to Beijing with two female practitioners to petition for the right to practice Falun Dafa. When we got to the station, the ticket agent said the bus just took off. Should we go? That was to test us. We decided to take a taxi to catch up with the bus because the long-distance bus had to stop on its way. We asked the taxi driver to take us to the next stop. When we got on the bus, there was only one passenger.
As soon as we got on the bus, Master Li was cleansing my body. I coughed and spat all the way, and a large roll of tissues ran out overnight. After we arrived in Tianjin in the middle of the night, we decided to take the train to Beijing the next day. We didn't have our identification card, but no one stopped us.
The three of us had never traveled far, so we asked people for directions to Tienanmen Square. At Tienanmen Square, we were touched by the scene. Dafa practitioners were everywhere. They shouted, “Falun Dafa is good!” “Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance is good!” Police arrested practitioners and put them into police vans.
Before we got to the square. We were stopped by plainclothes officers who asked us if we practiced Falun Dafa. I answered, “Everyone can come to the square, why can't we?” Immediately, a group of officers arrested us and put us into the police van. There were other practitioners, and one of them said, “Just now I did the holding-the-wheel exercise, and I saw the square was covered with a red light!”
We were taken to a police station and I was asked, “Why did you come to Beijing?” I said, “I came to say a fair word for Dafa. Without Dafa and Master, there would be no me today.” We were searched and they confiscated our money. I was handcuffed, and then taken home the next day.
After returning home, the police ransacked my house before I was taken to the police station. It was summer and I was wearing short sleeves. There were many mosquitoes. They handcuffed me to an iron bed, and the mosquitoes attacked my arm, leaving a large patch of mosquito bites, puffy and severely itchy. Yet I couldn't move. If I did, the handcuffs made a noise. I would get scolded because it woke up the police who slept under the mosquito net. This officer experienced retribution -- he died at the age of 42.
Once I was taken to a 610 Office prison. They handcuffed me to an iron chair for an entire day. They wanted to find out who gave me the Falun Dafa truth clarification materials. But I didn't answer. Two men who wore large leather boots kicked my shoulders. Yet, I didn't feel any pain. I knew that Master protected me.
I didn't want to stay in prison. So, I asked Master for help, and sent righteous thoughts constantly. Soon my body was in a bad state. They checked my heart, and didn't detect a pulse. So, I was taken to a hospital, where I was given oxygen and a blood transfusion. I just couldn't move. In the end I was taken home with the approval of the 610 Office. After they left, I got out of bed and went to see practitioners.
Twice I was taken to a detention center and released on the second day. I was taken to trial and sentenced to one-and-a-half years in prison. Of course I didn’t accept it. As I was walking out of prison, I met a 610 Office staff. He wondered how come I was walking out after being just sentenced to prison.
The very last time when I was persecuted was when the police and people from the 610 Office broke into my house. They videotaped everything as they ransacked my house. As they saw on a piece of paper the words “Falun Dafa is good” written by my daughter, they demanded that I go to the police station. I said, “You're still persecuting practitioners! Did you know that the former communist regime head Jiang Zemin has been brought to the International Court of Justice? Persecuting Dafa will get punished!” The policeman banged on the table and yelled, “Say it again!” I looked in his eyes. He lowered his head and left.
Master said,
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide”
(“The Master-Disciple Bond,”
Hong Yin Vol II, Translation Version A)
Sadness Turned to Joy
I have persisted in cultivating for 20 years. In the early years, my daughter and I and some practitioners distributed pasted truth-clarification information in different areas. During the winter our hands were cold and numb but our hearts were warm.
As the years went by Master constantly cleansed my body. Recently when I went through a tribulation, my body was as hot as glowing embers, and I was dizzy and nauseous. My muscles and bones were in severe pain. I also sweated and had diarrhea. It was like ordinary people having a serious illness. Yet these symptoms only lasted between three to five days.
My entire body underwent fundamental changes, and my skin became soft and fair. I am cheerful and feel like I am being bathed in the majestic Buddha’s grace every day. As my character changes, I held no more anger and no more hatred. I am quite settled now with a pension. My daughter finished school overseas, returned, and now works for an international company in Beijing. We are blessed to learn Dafa.
Before closing I want to share one paragraph of Master's teachings.
“Never since the dawn of time have massive and magnificent changes in the cosmos taken place as they are now with the Fa rectification, and nor were there ever Dafa disciples. Master created this glorious opportunity and has led you to this historical epoch. Strive to spiritually perfect yourselves, do your utmost to show what you are made of as you strive to save all lives, and try to do even better!” (“ Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference,” Team Yellow Translation)
