Overcoming a Life or Death Tribulation
(Minghui.org) Before I began to practice Falun Dafa, I had all kinds of health problems, such as mitral stenosis, palpitations, atrial fibrillation, stomachaches, irregular menstruation, and skin problems. I suffered tremendously and wanted to end my life.
A month after I started practicing in April 1997, I had a really heavy menstrual period that lasted over three weeks. My skin problem and stomachaches, which had plagued me for 15 years, went away shortly thereafter.
I kept having to burp when I was doing the exercises but understood this was Master Li cleansing my body. It then subsided and finally stopped.
All my ailments went away, and I began to feel very much at ease. I did the exercises for an hour in the mornings and studied the Fa at night. I was not afraid of being cold or hot anymore. After work, I rode my bicycle home, going uphill all the way for more than 10 miles and didn’t feel tired.
I often asked myself why I had suffered so much. It must have been because I was eliminating karma to obtain the Fa to fulfill my vow and return to my true home.
Walking on My Cultivation Path Righteously
Since the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched its persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999, it has defamed and slandered Dafa to deceive people. As practitioners, we truly know how precious Dafa is. So we wanted to step forward and let people know the truth through our personal accounts.
At that time, my mom was in her 70s and was bedridden from a stoke. My husband also had reduced mobility from a stroke, as well as high blood pressure and a heart problem. My daughter was fairly young.
In this stressful situation, I wondered what I should do. Master’s words echoed in my mind:
“If you are a true cultivator, our Falun will safeguard you. I am rooted in the universe. If anyone could harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I thought, “With Master by my side, I will step forward to validate Dafa.” So I decided to go out and tell people the truth about the persecution.
A Tribulation That Tested My Faith in Master and Dafa
I was hit by a van on the afternoon of April 23, 2007. Back home, I saw the skin on my arm was broken.
Two days later, I noticed that my mouth and eyes were lopsided. I also lost my voice and couldn’t eat. I knew it was the old forces persecuting me, so I began to send forth righteous thoughts. I studied the Fa and did the exercises until I couldn’t do them anymore.
Even though I didn’t feel hungry, I felt a bit insecure and wondered whether one could go without eating for very long. Would I starve to death? I then recalled what Master said:
“Everyone may have heard of Bodhidharma, who sat facing a wall for nine years. In the past, there were many monks who would sit for decades. In history, the record for the longest sitting time is over ninety years. Some even sat longer than this. Even with a thick layer of dust on their eyelids and grass growing on their bodies, they would continue sitting there.” (Lecture Eight, Zhuan Falun)
Then I was able to calm down. Those cultivators had been sat there for decades without eating and drinking, so I had nothing to worry about!
One week later, my mouth and eyes started to look more normal. I could also speak a little. But I still had difficulty drinking. I felt suffocated to the point where I sweat profusely and had to kneel down by my bed. I then began to vomit blood and felt like a balloon that was about to explode.
My husband asked to take me to the hospital. I told him that I was fine because I had Master and Dafa. Regardless of how hard it was to endure, I’d still try.
My daughter said, “Mom, why don’t you recite Lunyu?” But I was in extreme pain and couldn’t recall anything. All I could remember was the formula for sending righteous thoughts and “Falun Dafa is wonderful! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is wonderful!”
Then my daughter read to me:
“A Great Enlightened One fears no hardshipHaving forged an adamantine willFree of attachment to living or dyingHe walks the path of Fa-rectificationconfident and poised” (“Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions,” Hong Yin Vol. II)
I then recited this along with her repeatedly.
I was a little better in the daytime. One night, after I had just improved and could sleep for a little while, I saw several men in black standing by my bed. The leader said, “As long as you do not participate in the Falun Dafa brochure production center, we will not harm you.” I told him very firmly, “No way.” They turned away and left.
I clearly knew that it was the old forces who wanted to take away my life. But I was determined to break through this persecution and return to my true home with Master.
“Life is passing by, so I must take charge with my heart” (“Life Is Passing By,” Hong Yin IV)
“Myriad Gods came down to the world, enduring hardship” (“True Words,” Hong Yin IV )
Master’s words strengthened my willpower. I made up my mind to pass this trial, whatever hardship or difficulty I had to endure.
When I got a bit better, I began to do the exercises sitting in a chair and taking breaks between each exercise. When I did the wheel holding posture, I couldn’t raise my left arm, so I used my right hand to help lift it up. After a while, I could do all the exercises while standing. I could also study the Fa.
In the midst of the tribulation, under Master’s protection, I made a breakthrough. It was just like Master said:
“Each and every barrier must be broken through,And everywhere does evil lurk.” (“Tempering the Will,” Hong Yin)
When my husband saw that I was getting much better, he proclaimed, “You have improved a lot. You must work hard. If others do the exercises once a day, you should do them more. I suggest you do them one more time in the afternoon.” He said he would remind me. So from that day on, he made sure I did the exercises at 4 p.m. every day.
That’s how I managed to get through this great tribulation.
Master let me see that a whole array of blood vessels in my chest were torn open, and black blood was dripping from them. I then understood why I had spit out blood and felt suffocated.
It also felt a bit awkward using my left leg. Then Master had me see the reason: It turned out that a blood vessel at the bottom of my foot was broken, with an opening as wide as an index finger.
I truly appreciate Master for safeguarding me time after time. I will for sure cultivate myself well, follow more closely my cultivation path, and repay His saving grace.
I’d like to conclude by sharing Master’s poem:
“In the chaotic world, like pure lotus flowers—plum blossoms, a hundred millionCold winds only accentuate their beautyThe interminable snowfall and rainare the tears of gods,Who look longingly for the plum blossoms’ returnNever, ever get preoccupied with worldly thingsSteel your righteous thoughtsFor all [that you have gone through] since ancient times,Was for none other than this time around.” (“Plum Blossoms,” Hong Yin Vol. II)