Removing My Attachment of Fear

Master said, 

“I also want to tell you that your nature in the past was actually based on egotism and selfishness. From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism.” (“Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature,” Essentials For Further Advancement)

I looked inside and found that the root of my attachment to fear is to defend myself: I was scared of being hurt, scared of being arrested and imprisoned. This sort of selfishness puts my safety first and the salvation of people second. Therefore, I am unwilling to distribute truth-clarification materials and expose the persecution to people. Because of this, I have naturally missed opportunities to save people. I know that this is the selfishness that I want to rectify in myself: First of all, by changing my thinking, I should put saving people first, instead of my own safety. 

Master said: 

“When you are truly able to let go of the thought of life and death, you can truly go there. This is the difference between a human and a God. If you can let go of life and death, you’re a God; if you can’t let go of life and death, you’re a human—this is the difference. We cultivate and cultivate and let go of all attachments—won’t you have let go of even life and death? If someone can let go of life and death all at once, what other attachments could there be? “Having obtained the Fa, I’m not even afraid of life and death and can even give up my life.” Then what could he still be attached to? That’s the idea.” (“Teaching the Fa in New York City,” Lectures in the United States)

When I am unable to overcome difficulties and tribulations, I will ask myself, “Why can’t I reach the standard of the Fa? Have I let go of life and death?” This way, I have quickly seen through my own attachments. By realizing this, I have made a huge improvement in my xinxing. Because of this, I was able to consistently validate the Fa during the time that I was in prison.

If I want to get rid of my selfishness to protect myself, I have to put aside my thoughts of life and death and leave everything to Master to arrange. Then, when clearing my own dimensional field, I specifically clean up fearful thoughts and evil factors that interfere with my thoughts. Later on, I have very few things to be afraid of, but I also pay attention to my safety rationally.

Eliminating Negative Thoughts

I originally thought that once the evil and people influenced by the evil learned that I practice Dafa, they might come to arrest and persecute me if I defended the Fa, clarified the truth, or rescued fellow practitioners by sending forth righteous thoughts near a prison. These are all negative concepts and thought karma. If I don’t clean them up, it’s equivalent to me acknowledging the old forces’ arrangements. So when I clean up my own field, I have to clean up these negative thoughts and concepts in a targeted manner. Once I’ve cleaned them up, my righteous thoughts are strengthened.

When facing the judicial office (the local 610 Office), street and neighborhood committee personnel, and local police, I am an upright Dafa practitioner. On the day I was released from prison, I clarified the truth to these people which moved the local police. One of them began to speak to me. Now people from the judicial office dare not come to my home to harass me, so they send the police and the neighborhood committee staff to see me.

The first time they came, I was demonstrating how I was persecuted and tortured in prison for 53 days in front of the law enforcement recorder (video recorder). When these people saw me, they were very polite, saying that my complexion was now much better since I was released from prison. I said, “Of course, I can do the exercises now, and my physical pain will naturally be reduced a lot.” 

The second time they came, I asked them to solve a difficult issue of mine as soon as possible, putting pressure on them, and at the same time I also denied the old forces’ persecution of my financial situation.

Letting Go of Sentimentality and Exposing the Evil

When I met with my younger brother while being illegally detained in November 2017, I exposed the evil and asked the outside world for help through my younger brother. The guards and evildoers in the prison threatened me, saying that the police threatened my brother many times. They said that if my brother would continue to support me, they would mistreat my brother. I realized that if I had the thought that my brother would be persecuted because he supported me, it would be an arrangement of the old forces and I would absolutely not accept it.

Dafa practitioners should rectify all wrongs, so I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate the old forces’ arrangements and disintegrate all evil spirits, dark minions, and rotten ghosts. I firmly believed that as long as I followed the requirements of the Fa and exposed the evil persecution, my younger brother would also be protected by Master. I should let go of sentimentality and get rid of fear and leave everything to Master to arrange.

My younger brother told the prison guard, “My sister suffered so much in prison last time. If I know what you have done to her this time, I will definitely not let you go!” Then my brother also went to the Provincial Prison Bureau to file a complaint, telling kind-hearted people about my call for help. Some people posted my story on the Minghui website, the Epoch Times and other media, which greatly deterred the prison and reduced the evil’s persecution of me. 

After I got home from prison, I found out that the authorities hadn’t threatened my brother at all.

My personal understanding is this: We are consummating Dafa as long as we follow the requirements of the Fa and expose the evil persecution. Dafa practitioners inside and outside prison do not retreat, and do not cooperate with the perpetrators and the arrangements of the old forces. When we act righteously, the evil will be weakened.