Improving in Cultivation While Memorizing Hong Yin V
It wasn't easy in the beginning. It took quite a long time to memorize each poem. As time went on, however, memorizing each poem became easier and easier.
To date, I have copied all of Hong Yin V, and memorized more than 60 poems from it. Although we may have forgotten some of the earlier poems as we memorized the later ones, our group collectively made a decision that after finishing Hong Yin V, we would memorize Hong Yin IV, III, II and I.
As I memorized Hong Yin V, I could feel the improvement of my xinxing and wisdom.
It became clear to me that atheism and evolution are the ultimate lies which are brought forth as a means to destroy mankind. I felt more urgency to save the people who have been brainwashed by the red devil (Chinese Communist Party). In the past, when I was out clarifying the truth, I would often meet people who would proclaim, “I am an atheist. You are educated too. How could you believe this nonsense?” I knew that atheism deceives the world. But I didn't say this outright, since I was afraid that people would not take it well.
Now I realize that I could and should openly say that atheism and evolution are lies and that mankind should feel insulted by them. Most people I said this to were quite shocked. But I would just continue to clarify the truth. I have even received questions like, “Does Falun Gong pay you?” When I said Falun Gong gave me a kind heart and a healthy body, they just sneered and said that they would only believe in Falun Gong if they got paid.
Recently, an old man asked me the same question. Without a second thought, I said, “Did Jesus pay money to his followers?” He was stunned and went quiet. I then explained, “We are cultivating Buddhahood. We don't have enemies. I wish it was universally known that treating cultivators of Buddhahood kindly leads to blessings. I wish you peace.” The man was very touched.
I told an old man who was a Communist Party member, “Withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party is withdrawing from atheism. You will obtain Buddha's blessing!” He responded, “I like this idea!” and subsequently withdrew from the CCP.
While clarifying the truth about Falun Gong, I often met people who believed in Jesus. Some of them disliked Falun Gong due to the CCP's propaganda. They thought Falun Gong practitioners were unkind and opposed to the Chinese government. For these people, I would first praise them for believing in God, then tell them they can only choose one: God or atheism. The CCP does not allow people to believe in God, and so I advised them to withdraw from any and all atheistic organizations. Most people would accept this line of reasoning.
Memorizing Hong Yin V also allowed me to understand more about my cultivation. Master has shown us through many poems that every Dafa disciple signed a contract with the Creator before coming to this earth. We have a holy duty to save sentient beings!
Like Master said:
“Clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings are what you need to accomplish. There is nothing else for you to accomplish. There is nothing else in this world that you need to accomplish.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2015 New York Fa Conference”)
This feeling has become stronger and stronger for me: I came down from a high place, and I came to save sentient beings!
For a long time, I would wake up at 3:00 a.m. and do all five sets of exercises. I was busy with my work during the day, and I would go to my Fa study group to read Fa in the evenings. Each week, I would spend two half-days taking care of my elderly father. On weekends, I would go out to clarify the truth to people. I was tense and busy. I did everything I was supposed to do. Yet somehow, many times I did these things reluctantly and unwillingly. I did them because I felt that I had to. I was often barely awake while sending righteous thoughts at midnight. Often I wished I could take a few days’ vacation and relax.
Around the time I was memorizing the 50th poem in Hong Yin V, one morning, I got up to do the exercises. I suddenly felt a shock, and a thought came into my mind: “Who am I? Aren’t I a Dafa disciple during the Fa-rectification? Master has asked us to do the three things. Am I doing them well? Or reluctantly and unwillingly; and why? I came to this world for these things. What else am I doing if not these things?!”
I realized that for a long time, there was a thought hidden deep in my heart, “Okay, I am doing the three things; one day it will end. Let me bear it one more day, one more day...”
In the past, after doing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m., I was so tired that I would go to sleep for another hour. I didn't even realize that I was waiting and hoping for this to end. It was painful for me to do the three things. Was I truly cultivating at all? This was cheating! I was cheating Master and cheating myself! I was so selfish!
I suddenly woke up. I wanted to expose these dirty thoughts of mine and eliminate them completely! I directly confronted my wrong attitude towards doing the three things. I was determined to be a true Dafa disciple.
Now, I have found that my fear of going out to clarify the truth is significantly reduced. I know that Master is protecting me. I am happier and more relaxed when I clarify the truth to people.
I have recently found that I am no longer sleepy after morning exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m.
Nowadays, I am doing the three things, and I am doing them consciously, naturally, and willingly. I no longer think of when this is going to end. I no longer feel the need for a vacation. I believe this is a healthy mindset for a Dafa disciple.
Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!