Going Through a Trial of Sickness Karma
(Minghui.org) I would like to share how I made a breakthrough during a major sickness karma ordeal earlier this year.
My family and I went back to our hometown for the Chinese New Year holiday. I started to have a severe stomachache and was vomiting on New Year’s Day. A few practitioners came over to help me send forth righteous thoughts and the pain lessened.
The next day, I felt a sudden chill going through my spine and my stomachache worsened. I started to have a high fever.
My children wanted to take me to the hospital, but I refused. On the third day after the New Year, we returned to our home in town.
I was in and out of consciousness due to very high fever. My children and my sister brought me to the hospital. After a series of tests, no diagnosis was made. My mind became very clear and I asked my family to bring me home.
The fever and stomachache persisted. I told my children, “I will not go to the hospital again as it will not help. I am a [Falun Gong] practitioner; I am not sick and I will be fine.”
My sister came to visit me again. At first, she thought that I did not want to go to the hospital because of money. I said to her, “It is not because of the money; I am a cultivator and I am not sick. What do I need to go to the hospital for? Master is watching over me.”
She got upset, “Are you out of your mind? Do you want to die? We aren’t against your practice [Falun Gong], but this is serious.”
To get rid of her misunderstanding of Falun Gong, I urged her not to believe any of the fabricated news reports made by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), especially the “1,400 Alleged Deaths” and the “Self-Immolation Hoax at Tiananmen Square.” They were made to stir up public anger and destroy the reputation of Falun Gong.
I also told her that several retired officials from the central government reported that Falun Gong is a blessing to the country and its people.
Before she left, my sister said, “You need to get some treatment, since nobody can make you go. It's up to you now.”
I knew this was part of my cultivation and a test. I believe in Master and Dafa; what should I fear? Even though I seemed unwell, I knew my condition was an illusion. I would not accept it!
Practitioners in the area took turns to visit my every day. We studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts and shared our understandings of my situation. To encourage me, they told me many stories about how other practitioners went through sickness karma. Albeit gradually, my xinxing was improving every day.
The stomachache persisted. My grandson is very close to me. He massaged my shoulder and rubbed my belly when I was in pain. One day, he noticed a large lump the size of a large dumpling on my right side. He was very scared, “Grandma, why didn’t you say anything?” I replied, “Why would I? You would bring me to the hospital again.”
The lump was hard and firmly rooted under my skin. The lump hurt when my stomach pain started. It was excruciating. I could not eat for two weeks.
The pain alternated between stabbing and burning sensations. There were times when I could not bear it anymore; I felt like I would die if I did not hold on to the last thread of my life.
However, I am a Dafa practitioner; I did not made a sound. I remembered Master’s poem “True Nature Revealed” in Essentials for Further Advancement II:
“Steadfastly cultivate Dafa, the will unflinchingThe raising of levels is what’s fundamentalIn the face of tests one’s true nature is revealedAchieve Consummation, becoming a Buddha, Dao, or God”
I firmly believed what was torturing me was interference and illusion!
“As a Dafa disciple, in order to do Fa-rectification things well and to consummate everything of yours well, you need to study the Fa a lot. No matter how busy you are, you cannot skip Fa-study.” (“A Message,” Essentials for Further Advancement II )
Therefore, I kept up with my daily Fa study. Other practitioners visited me every day to encourage me. My righteous thoughts became stronger and stronger.
One day, a practitioner said to me, “Why don’t you use the magical power Master bestowed upon us? Let’s see its power on a Dafa disciple!”
I felt as if someone had just slapped me on the back: true, we are Dafa practitioners! We don’t suffer like ordinary people.
Master told us:
“For instance, while doing Fa-rectification, when the righteous thoughts are very pure, their supernormal abilities are comprehensively utilized. Moreover, with righteous thoughts many disciples are able to use them at will—whatever they want to use, they almost always have it.” (“What Are Supernormal Abilities,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
“Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos’s Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciples’ rock-solid, Diamond-Like Bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings’ thoughts disintegrate. However strong the righteous thoughts are, that’s how great the power is.” (“Also in a Few Words,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I thought: Why don’t I send forth righteous thoughts to destroy the big lump on my side? I cannot let it control me!
When I sent forth righteous thoughts again, I pointed at the lump and said, “Mie!” which is Mandarin for “eliminate.” I traced the word “mie” on the lump with my finger. The lump moved. I kept pointing at it. I also used my hand to grab the invisible evil element nested inside the lump and threw it on the floor. I repeated:
“Fa zheng qian kun, xie e quan mie, fa zheng tian di, xian shi xian bao” (“The Two Hand Positions for Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
The lump became smaller and smaller. It disappeared on day twelve, root and all. The pain was also gone.
Looking back, believing in Master and Dafa is what allowed me overcome this sickness karma. I maintained my righteous thoughts when I was about to pass out from pain. Master's help and compassion, together with other practitioners’ support, are also vital. I would like to thank Master for his compassion and those practitioners who selflessly helped me during this difficult time.