Awakening after Practicing Falun Dafa
(Minghui.org) Mr. Shishun Huang, 39 years old, was born in Malaysia, and now teaches Chinese in London. He began practicing Falun Dafa (also called Falun Gong) two years ago. He has read Master Li Hongzhi's lectures, and has a good understanding of what Falun Dafa cultivation practice is all about.
Feeling Disconnected With Life
Shishun grew up in a family that believed in Buddhism. Thus, he was no stranger to the theories of the Buddha School.
His father was a businessman who worked in interior design. Shishun has two sisters and one brother. He received a Bachelor’s Degree in Computer Science in Malaysia, and a Master’s Degree in the same field in England in 2004. He also has a diploma in English Literature.
After graduating, Shishun worked for a media company in London. He got married and had a family. However, he never found inner peace.
He wasn't interested in climbing up the career ladder, as his greatest interest was literature – he wanted to be a writer.
“When studying literature,” he said, “I realized that I must be a good person. What I write must come from the heart and must be truthful. Otherwise I wouldn't write.”
Life wasn't as easy Shishun imagined it would be, as pressures at work and marital problems seemed to overwhelm him.
He found that people are selfish – a human notion that he recognized and wanted to abandon in himself. But he didn't know how. With the desire to escape selfishness, and ease his dilemma, he began to read Tao Te Ching, a Chinese classic text traditionally credited to the 6th-century BC sage Laozi, and started practicing Tai Chi in 2011.
In Search of Answers to Life
When Shishun woke up one morning in 2014, he thought that disassociating himself from society would help him in his quest to find inner peace. He stopped working, and lived on his savings. He immersed himself in reading qigong books and religious books. He read the Bible, books on Taoism, Buddhist books and a number of others.
He recalled, “At the time, I was very sensitive to invisible pressures and disturbances in the environment. I became even more sensitive after I started practicing Tai Chi.”
When his mother called, he told her that he was not an ordinary person, and was on a mission – yet he didn’t know what he meant by that. His mother thought that he had a mental problem.
Experiencing the Power of Falun Dafa
Shishun was handed a Falun Dafa flier one day, which spurred him to visit the website www.falundafa.org. He started to learn the Dafa exercises, following along with the online demonstration. When he was doing the third exercise, his hands seemed to float gracefully though the air. Then they automatically turned to be in the Lotus Palm position. He thought that Dafa was very powerful.
He recounted, “One day when I started to do the second set of exercises, I immediately became tranquil, and my entire body was relaxed. I couldn’t believe that I could reach such as state.”
However, Shishun was still practicing Tai Chi and was experiencing inference from other dimensions. Out of fear and concern, he stopped practicing Dafa, but stayed with Tai Chi.
His sister from Malaysia visited him in July 2016. When he showed her around, he met Falun Dafa practitioners who were holding an event in front of the British Parliament building. The practitioners were doing the second exercise, which reminded him of his experience of being in deep tranquility.
Interference Disappears After Practicing Dafa
Shishun had been practicing Tai Chi for two years, but didn’t attain what he had hoped for. Then he thought of Falun Dafa. That was in November 2016.
When doing the Dafa sitting meditation, he experienced the tranquility and positive energy that he he been longing for. The Dafa meditation calmed him down, but he still did not give up Tai Chi. He practiced Tai Chi in the morning, and did the Dafa sitting meditation at night.
While doing the Dafa meditation, the words, “One good can overcome a hundred evils” entered his mind. He held no fear when doing the exercise, even though he saw eyes in other dimensions. He wasn't afraid at seeing anything, but he was frightened of everything when he did Tai Chi.
“When I started practicing Tai Chi,” Shishun said, “I felt something invisible attacking me. Although I didn’t see anything, I knew that they were there. They came when I went to sleep, so I tried to stay awake. This affected me, and although I asked for help, no one understood what I was talking about.”
After three years of this, the interference disappeared. Shishun realized that by practicing Falun Dafa, someone from a high level was protecting him. He was aware that he was looking for a Master who would teach him how to cultivate.
When Shishun continued to do the Dafa meditation, he felt as if he'd been awakened from a dream. “One day when meditating,” he said, “I felt my legs disappear, then my arms disappeared. Several days later I felt my head disappear when meditating, and only my thoughts were left. I felt truly awake. I had been living in a foggy dream for the past 30 years, but I finally woke up after practicing the Falun Dafa meditation exercise. It was then that I knew Falun Dafa was not an ordinary practice.”
One day when he was meditating and in deep tranquility, the three Chinese characters for “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” kept appearing in his mind. He hadn’t started to read Zhuan Falun at that point, but he knew that these words were very righteous. So, he decided to use them to guide his behavior.
Shishun’s appearance began to change. He gained about 10 kilos within three months. He became energetic and his thin face became wider, making him look much healthier.
He rejoined society to live a normal life. “I felt as if there was a shield protecting me after I started practicing Dafa. Before that I felt trapped, but now I could rejoin society.”
Truly Embracing Dafa
Shishun moved in with a friend for five weeks before returning to Penang, Malaysia in April 2017 to tell his parents about Falun Dafa.
“Originally, I had only learned the exercises,” he said, “so that I could teach them to my parents. But while in Malaysia I also read the entire book Zhuan Falun within two days. I saw Master purifying my body in a dream. Master sent out a Falun that entered my body. This was really when I started practicing Falun Dafa.”
When surfing the Malaysian Falun Dafa website, he found a practice site near his home. He took his parents there, and the assistant lent him and his parents two copies of Zhuan Falun in Chinese.
Shishun said, “I read Zhuan Falun a lot during that time, and went to the practice site with my parents to do the exercises for an hour every night.”
When he did the fourth exercise, he felt something spinning when he closed his eyes – it started out slow, and then increased in speed. Even now, he can still feel the spinning.
Although he had practiced different forms of qigong before, Shishun said that he hadn't really learned anything from them. But after reading Zhuan Falun, he came to understand many issues in cultivation. He said, “I now know that in my previous qigong practice it was my subconscious that obtained the gong.”
He also came to understand why people encounter tribulations and have conflicts with each other.
Positive energy flowed around his body when he did the Dafa exercises. When he entered into tranquility doing the fifth exercise, he experienced returning to his true self and understood the meaning of selflessness, something that he had been searching for.
“When I was in this state,” he said, “it felt sacred. There was no selfishness at all. I felt as if I was one with the universe, with no self, and everyone was part of a whole body. It was truly wonderful.”
Letting Go of Deviated Notions
Falun Dafa purified Shishun’s mind and body. After he started to cultivate, he realized that he had done many bad things in his past. He drank, smoked and was not serious about personal relationships.
He'd studied literature and lived in Western society for a long time. His artist friends at the university were heavily influenced by modern music and paintings. They were dominated by demonic nature. However, he didn’t feel that anything was wrong, because he was no different from all his friends.
His moral standards slid down quickly while in England, but after he started practicing Dafa, his moral character improved a lot. He realized that all the things he had done in the past were deviant, and had nothing to do with goodness.
Shishun now teaches Chinese in the Minghui school, and hopes that his students can understand the inner meaning of traditional Chinese characters and Chinese culture. “Traditional culture maintains people’s moral standards at a high level,” he said, “which will help the children immediately understand the meaning of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.”
He explained that when talking to people who are immersed in modern concepts about Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, they may agree with it, but would generally feel that it has nothing to do with them. However, if one has contact with traditional culture, one will understand Dafa's principles and will value them very much.
Improving Interpersonal Relationships
After reading Zhuan Falun, Shishun realized that Falun Dafa can change people’s hearts and improve their moral standard. Cultivation means letting go of attachments and following the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
The book Tao Te Ching teaches philosophical and religious Taoism. It taught Shishun that he should let go of sentimentality immediately, not gradually. “Actually, I couldn't let go of it immediately when I started learning from Tao Te Ching,” Shishun noted.
When he practiced the Tao, Shishun gave away material possessions, as he thought that was what one is supposed to do. After he started practicing Falun Dafa, he realized that it doesn’t matter what one owns, as long as one isn't attached to it. At the same time, it doesn’t mean that one does not have the attachment if one gives away something.
He explained, “I didn’t want to hold on to sentimentality in the past, so I pushed my parents away. I didn’t want fame, interests or any material things. After I read Zhuan Falun, I understood that what I own is meant to be mine, and I should not pursue things that are not meant to be mine.”
It was difficult to maintain such a mentality, as previous notions often came back to him. Working in the past was suffering, because he found it difficult to get along with colleagues. But after practicing Falun Dafa, he understood that he had to let go of attachments, and that conflicts with colleagues are caused by one’s attachments. He also had to let go of human notions. Thus, after he began practicing Dafa, he was able to get along with his colleagues very well.
Shishun wasn't on good terms with his parents, because he was very rebellious, and his parents expected him to be responsible for himself. After he practiced Falun Dafa, his relationship with his mother improved a lot, as nothing seemed worth arguing about.
Shishun realized that he had caused his parents a lot of pain. He initially told them that he didn’t want to look for a job, and would rather stay at home to practice Falun Dafa. But after he read Zhuan Falun twice, he told his mother that he would look for a job. She was amazed that Falun Dafa had changed his mind. She said that Falun Dafa had saved her son.
“I stayed at home for nine months,” Shishun said, “and my parents practiced Falun Dafa with me. They know Falun Dafa is good, because they witnessed my improvements from practicing it.”
Shishun began to read Zhuan Falun in April 2017, and had read all of Master's lectures by the end of that year. He said, “My outlook on life has extended from the earth to the entire cosmos. I can understand such expressions as 'wake people up' and 'save people' from Master’s lectures. That was what I had been looking for. I now know my mission.”
In the past he could see bad things in other dimensions, but could not eliminate them. Master has frequently mentioned the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts, and the assistant at the local practice site told him of the four appointed times to send forth righteous daily.
Shishun became tranquil when he sent righteous thoughts, and sometimes he felt a very positive and powerful energy emanating from the top of his head.
Master explained why practitioners should go out and talk to people about Falun Gong. Thus, Shishun was happy to tell people that Falun Dafa is good and to give them fliers on his way to the practice site.
He stayed in Malaysia for nine months before returning to London in January 2018. He continues to distribute fliers and talk to people about Falun Dafa on weekends in London.
Reading Zhuan Falun Brings Calmness
Shishun reads Zhuan Falun and Master’s lectures every day. Studying the Fa calms him down and enables him to look within for his attachments. Looking within is a Fa tool that Master has given to every practitioner.
“I become tranquil when I read Zhuan Falun,” Shishun said. “When I come across xinxing tests, I think of Master’s Fa. Although I might not find the reason why I had conflicts with others, I still look within. It's easy to look at other people’s problems, but hard to look for my own.”
Shishun knows that looking within will help him find his attachments. He said, “Zhuan Falun has the power to calm me down and helps me realize that I was wrong in a conflict. Then I look within. I might still have conflicts another time because I stick to my own ways. But after reading Zhuan Falun, I realize that I am wrong and try to change.”
Although he is a relatively new practitioner, Shishun is determined to cultivate diligently. “I want to catch up with other practitioners quickly,” he said.