(Minghui.org) I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for 10 years. Whenever I encounter difficulties, as long as I study the Fa with a calm heart, I am able to find the attachments that I should rid myself of and quickly break through the difficulty. However, I recently ran into a bottleneck in my cultivation. No matter how I studied the Fa, I was stuck at a certain level and couldn’t move forward. I couldn’t understand what my problem was through the Fa principles. I felt a bit lost in my heart.
One day, I recalled Master’s teaching,
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive out Interference”, Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I realized that only by studying the Fa well could I break through the bottleneck in my cultivation. Fa study helps me to continue moving forward diligently.
I study the Fa by reciting from memory and reading the Fa. I used to read one lecture each day and recite several sections of a lecture to half a lecture each day from memory. However, I experienced strong interference in my Fa study recently. I often felt sleepy or out of focus during Fa study and couldn’t finish even half a lecture in an hour. I clearly felt some bad material from another dimension was interfering with me in my dimensional field.
I tried to send righteous thoughts to clear it out, but that had no significant effect. I sometimes felt sleepy even when I sent righteous thoughts. I knew that the old forces were taking advantage of the loopholes in my cultivation. That’s why I couldn’t study with my heart.
Through Fa study, I’ve found that the reason I couldn’t maintain my xinxing was because of my jealousy and my attachment to pursuing comfort. I firmly believe that as long as I study the Fa a lot, all of these attachments will be eliminated.
I read two lectures each day now. Although I have a lot to do every day, as long as I am determined to study the Fa, there’s always time for it. Sometimes, if I can’t read two lectures, I make up for it by studying more the next day. I make sure I not only guarantee the quantity of my Fa study, but I also study the Fa with my heart.
I am not attached to how fast I read the Fa, nor do I force myself to understand the Fa principles. I only require myself to concentrate while reading. The interference to my Fa study was strong at first and I often lost my concentration, or felt there was not enough time to read and wanted to stop.
When I read the Fa while seated, I lost concentration very easily. If I stood up to read I didn’t, but I felt tired after standing for a long time. As long as I sat down to read, I became sleepy and started to drift off. I realized that it was because I have a strong attachment to pursuing comfort. This method of Fa study helps me eliminate it.
After maintaining reading two lectures a day for three days straight, I was able to calm down very quickly, and my jealousy became very weak. I was able to maintain my xinxing well and stayed peaceful when I ran into challenges that used to make me jealous.
I truly experienced the power of Dafa and the benevolence of Master Li (the founder). Master saw my determination to get rid of certain attachments, and he helped me clear out large amounts of materials that had been generated by my jealousy and my attachment to comfort. My dimensional field became clear again.
It’s just like what Master said,
“You put in the effort and your teacher will handle the rest.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I will pay more attention to Fa study, and studying it with a calm heart. I will make sure to study without pursuing anything and to study more.
Category: Improving Oneself
