Improving Myself as I Inform People of the Facts about Falun Dafa
(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 2012. The following year, I started to use a cell phone to make truth-clarification calls about Dafa.
Typically I spent an entire afternoon on such calls. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts and hoped that everyone I spoke to would understand the truth.
People who answered the calls listened for quite a long time, and, on the average, about six people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations daily.
At that time, my mind was very pure. Before going out, I said to the two cell phones I used: “You are my Fa implements. You are helping me during the Fa-rectification. You should let sentient beings hear the truth and help them quit the CCP.”
When my mind was pure, my cell phones worked well, but when I held human notions, they would experience interference. For example, when I went to a foreign trade mall, my phones went silent after I walked in. I couldn't make them work. I was puzzled and left. Once I was out of the mall, the phones started to work again.
What a sacred thing it was! I quickly apologized and said, “It is necessary to be focused in order to save people. Only with a pure mind can we save people. Thank you for your reminder.”
Another time, I walked to a bus stop and saw two five-yuan bills on the ground. I picked them up and thought about buying a calling card with the money. Both phones stopped working.
I realized that the phones were reminding me that I should not have picked up someone else's money, even if I was going to use it to help clarify the truth. I put the money back on the ground, restarted the phones, and everything back to normal.
Now I've switched to a smartphone. Although I no longer use the two old phones, I have always kept them because they accompanied me through a period of Fa validation. And just as I did with the old phones, I talk to the smartphones.
Looking Within for Attachments
I then joined a Fa-study group. We meet in the morning, and in the afternoon three of us go out together to talk to people about Dafa.
At a crossroad, Anran was telling a middle-aged woman the facts about Falun Dafa, and I was sending forth righteous thoughts nearby. Anran asked me to speak to the young man next to me, who quit the CCP after I did.
Then I talked to a lady, who also quit the CCP. When I went back to find the other practitioners, they were gone. When I eventually met up with them again, Anran said, “Be careful. Don't stay in one place for too long.”
I got annoyed and wondered why she'd left instead of sending righteous thoughts for me. Practitioner Bei reminded me not to let it get to me and to not let the old forces create a gap between us. I was uneasy at that time, and I know I looked unhappy.
“I'm going to tell you that no matter what kind of conflicts arise, or what kind of situations emerge, it's bound to be that we have gaps in ourselves. That's for sure. If there weren't a gap nobody could exploit it.” (“Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. III)
I was shocked and thought, “Isn’t this Master's stick wake-up?” I looked within and found that I was strongly attached to resentment and did not want to be criticized. I would blow up when criticized.
Wasn't this the attachment of competitiveness? How could I have such a strong attachment and still be unaware of it? Was I still a practitioner? I was determined to eliminate these bad attachments.
When we met up the next day I wanted to say to Anran, “I was wrong,” but I didn't say anything. We went out again to talk to people about Dafa, but I felt that there was a wall between us, and I was very uncomfortable.
On my way home, I found my attachments to saving face and jealousy. When I cooperated with her, I felt confident and relaxed, and my mind was pure. I felt there was a compassionate field around us. However, I found also the attachments of reliance and sentimentality towards her. There were also attachments of zealotry and showing off. I thought that it was difficult to be enlightened, as all kinds of attachments blocked my cultivation.
In the course of eliminating attachments, my heart ached. In a dream I had one night, I was with many people walking forward, but there was a threshold at my feet. I crossed over it and saw Anran laughing at me with a peaceful expression. I was very touched and woke up. I knew that Master was encouraging me.
“Therefore, from now on when you come across a conflict you should not consider it a coincidence. This is because when a conflict occurs, it will take place unexpectedly. But that is not a coincidence—it is for improving your xinxing.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I understood that the conflict between us was arranged for us to improve our xinxing and eliminate attachments.
Recently, she pointed out my shortcomings again and said that I was self-centered, didn’t plan things through, didn’t pay attention to safety, and didn't make corrections after being reminded multiple times.
I listened to her and was very calm. I want to eliminate bad human notions, correct inappropriate behavior, and remove all the bad things within me.
“So when you are strict with yourself, discover your shortcomings, and constantly get rid of them, then you are cultivating.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. VII)
This little friction, although it was not a big deal, really did bother me for a while. Eliminating those attachments also took some time. Some attachments were removed, and I felt that I could face her again calmly. However, that was not the case.
It seemed that the attachments had been removed, but only on the surface. After repeating this process many times, I was finally able to reach the state of calmness and let go of all those attachments.