Walking Out of Selfishness and Assimilating to Dafa

(Minghui.org) Inspired by other practitioners' articles, I would like to share my understanding of assimilating to Dafa. 

Recently, I had to question myself and look within. I thought that I was studying the Fa every day; however, what exactly is assimilating to Dafa? I thought that my mind was on the Fa, and that I measured everything based on the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. But in reality, it was hard to do. Sometimes I did not realize that my thoughts were not in line with the Fa. 

For example, in the past couple of years, I knew that I should go out and talk to people about the truth of Falun Dafa. But when walking on the street, I just looked at the people passing by. I could not open my mouth to initiate a conversation. Many fears hindered me from talking. Why was this so? I was troubled. 

I followed my thoughts to further investigate it. I knew that telling people the truth about the persecution is one of the three things Master Li requires. It is also a Dafa practitioner's responsibility. But why did I not feel the urgency of this sacred mission? 

Recently it seemed clear to me that the root cause was that I did not truly assimilate to Dafa, but was just superficially aligned with Dafa instead. A life, which has genuinely assimilated to Dafa, is unselfish. He/she will take the initiative to assist Master in helping to offer salvation to people. They would also regard clarifying the truth to people as their sole responsibility, just like many practitioners who have a strong sense of urgency. 

I examined my thinking and detected passiveness and selfish aspects in my motives. I felt I should clarify the truth to people since Master requires us to do so. If I did not, the people who have a predestined relationship with me would not be saved. I would regret this in the future. This is to say that my not going out to save others was for selfish reasons. The fundamental standpoint was selfishness, which is a characteristic of the old universe. 

How could I do well if I am coming from the wrong fundamental standpoint? After so many years of Fa-rectification cultivation, I felt that I was moving into the new universe with one foot, but still had one foot still in the old universe. I cannot continue to simply cultivate only for my improvement and benefit.

Realizing this, I knew I needed to study the Fa more and to eliminate interference. I started to recite the Fa with a calm heart. My life is now assimilating to the Fa from the microscopic level to the surface level. Starting now, no matter what I do, I will put others first and consider things from the perspective of helping save sentient beings and validating the Fa. The old forces will then not be able to take advantage of any loophole to persecute me again. 

After more than a year of imprisonment, I knew that I should be diligent and not let the old forces persecute me again. My cultivation was not meant for me to be persecuted. I had been unknowingly accepting the old forces' arrangements. I am Master's disciple, and only follow Master's arrangements. I need to change any ordinary notions and cast away my attachments of selfishness, fame, self-interest, and sentimentality. Only then can I truly assimilate to Dafa!