Remaining Determined in My Dafa Cultivation
(Minghui.org) My name is Xue Mei. I began practicing Falun Dafa in 2010. During these eight years, I've experienced many positive changes, both physical and mental. I would like to share my cultivation experiences.
Beginning the Practice
I am now 54 years old. I used to suffer from many illnesses, such as chronic stomach problems, insufficient blood flow to my brain, tinnitus, hemorrhoids, backaches and so on. I sought treatment from doctors of both Chinese and Western medicine and spent tens of thousands of yuan on medicine and health supplements. Nothing I tried helped. The pain in my back and legs was so bad that I could not sleep.
After a friend told me about Falun Dafa, I listened to Master Li Hongzhi's lectures on tape before I went to bed. Within a few minutes, I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was broad daylight. I had slept especially well, and my legs and back did not hurt at all. It was amazing!
My friend later gave me tapes of the exercises and Zhuan Falun. Soon after I began doing the exercises, my illnesses disappeared!
Learning to Look Within
I kept reading and re-reading the teachings of Dafa and learned that a practitioner should look within whenever he or she encounters a conflict. When I insisted that my method of doing something at work was correct, I got into a fight with my supervisor. I felt that he was prejudiced against me and thus often picked on me. Whenever we discussed something, he usually threw a tantrum directed at me. At first, I lost my temper and argued with him. I felt that he was treating me unfairly. That night, I could not sleep, and I planned to avoid him.
As I kept studying the Fa, however, I realized that I was the one who had a problem. I had focused on analyzing his character flaws instead of looking for my own. One day, I cycled to work with another practitioner. It had just snowed, so parts of the ground were icy. We talked as we cycled along. I started to pour out my resentment toward my supervisor. Suddenly, my bicycle slid across a patch of ice, and I flew off. As I lay on the ground holding my painful knee, I immediately knew that I was wrong. The other practitioner also suggested that I should examine my cultivation.
Practitioners should not retaliate when they're insulted or scolded. What did it matter if I felt that my supervisor was mistreating me?
Now, when my supervisor loses his temper or does something I find unreasonable, I'm able to remain calm and talk to him amicably. I try my best to finish every task he gives me. His attitude toward me has improved, and our relationship is more harmonious now.
My Family Changes Their Attitude Towards Dafa
Because my husband, daughter and relatives had listened to the lies continually broadcast by state-controlled media in China, they were against my practicing Falun Dafa. For several years, they tried to stop me. My husband flew into a rage when he realized I had taken up the practice. He even tore up my copy of Zhuan Falun. When I told him of the positive changes I experienced after I began practicing, he refused to listen. When he saw that I wouldn't stop, he hid my books and exercise music.
“In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, "How can this person treat me like this?" Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work.” (Zhuan Falun)
I did not resent my husband for what he did because I felt that I had wronged him in a past life, and therefore I owed him. Instead, I became more compassionate and gentle and took better care of him. He loved to eat dumplings, so I often woke up early in the morning to make them for him. This made his co-workers very envious, and he was pleased with me. For a while, he stopped interfering when I did the exercises or studied Dafa books at home.
However, someone reported me to the police while I was talking to people about Dafa and the persecution. Once again, my husband tried to stop me from practicing. He began to watch me and even threw away my Dafa books. He threatened to divorce me if I was reported again.
Six months later, he was diagnosed with lymphoma. His sister persuaded him to try to practice Falun Dafa, and he agreed to listen to Master's lectures. I suggested that he recite the sentence “Falun Dafa is good,” and he slept comfortably. Afterward, he deeply regretted treating Dafa disrespectfully. A month after his diagnosis, he passed away without suffering any physical pain.
My daughter was misled by the Chinese Communist Party’s propaganda and was afraid I would become irrational after I began practicing, so she tried to stop me. I told her the facts, and she gradually accepted them. She did not join the Communist Party and also quit the Communist Youth League.
She became supportive of Dafa and has gained many blessings as a result. She met an outstanding young man at university and got a good job as soon as she graduated. She has a happy marriage and gave birth to an intelligent and healthy baby.
She told her mother-in-law about the goodness of Falun Dafa. Both her in-laws now read Dafa books.
In the beginning, my brothers and sisters tried to persuade me to give up Dafa. When they saw how my health had improved, their attitudes changed, and they also began to practice.
My husband's sister was upset when I talked to her son and daughter-in-law about Dafa. One day, she fell and broke her ribs. She came to my house for a few days so that I could take care of her. I suggested that she recite “Falun Dafa is good.” A few days later, she got better. She is now convinced of the power of Dafa.
Most of my family members and relatives know that Dafa is good and have quit the CCP and its youth organizations.
Going Out to Talk to People
Encouraged by another practitioner, I joined a Fa-study group. It has been a great help for me to read the Fa with veteran practitioners and share our understandings. When I learned that local practitioners had been arrested for talking to other people to clarify the facts about Dafa, I decided to talk to the police and 610 Office staff.
One day I met a police officer who I knew at the bus station. After we exchanged greetings, I asked if he was involved in arresting practitioners. When he said yes, I explained that the Communist Party has been fabricating lies about Dafa, that practitioners are good people, and that he should protect them instead of persecuting them. He said, “Now, I know the truth.”
I then gave him information about Dafa, which he accepted. He even quit the Communist Party. The next time we met, he told me he would protect practitioners if they were found giving out information about Dafa. He would also try his best to tell his co-workers about Dafa and the persecution.
With the help of other practitioners, I wrote letters and mailed information about Dafa to various police departments throughout China. I wrote that I sincerely hoped they would know the facts and stop committing deeds that would harm themselves and others.
In my spare time and during public holidays, I hand out materials in residential areas and post information in public areas. Whenever I shop or attend social gatherings, I always tell people about Dafa.
The Fa-rectification is coming to an end. I must be strict with myself and do the three things well so that I don't let Master down.