Cultivating Away Attachments to Become Diligent Again
(Minghui.org) I was imprisoned for my belief in Falun Dafa in 2011. I knew that it was because I had been too preoccupied with doing Dafa work and had neglected my cultivation and studying the Fa. This was a stain that I left on my cultivation path. Fortunately, Teacher, the founder of Falun Dafa, did not give up on me.
Breaking Through Obstacles
After my release from prison in 2014, I felt very dizzy. My husband forced me to take medicine for high blood pressure, even though my health was completely normal.
Nonetheless, because my family has a history of diabetes, I was afraid that I might have it, too, so I measured my blood pressure frequently. The more I took it, the higher the numbers read. I then realized that Dafa practitioners don't have sickness. When I really let go of the worry of getting ill, the symptoms disappeared.
I recited the Fa every day and participated in the daily group exercises. I also joined practitioners to use my cell phone to call people and tell them about Dafa and the persecution. I was able to help people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations every week.
When my husband found out that I handed out CDs containing information about Dafa he wanted to file for a divorce. He had endured many hardships each time I was arrested and put in prison multiple times, so I understood how he felt. I didn’t fight with him and just sent forth righteous thoughts. His hostility towards me lasted a while but gradually subsided.
Another time, my son discovered that I had been making phones call from his house to tell people about Dafa. He was very angry and threatened me. He was not pleased with me, but his attitude changed after he had a dream.
In the dream he asked an immortal why his mother did not do self-cultivation like his grandfather. The immortal said it was because his grandfather had done a lower cultivation, while his mother was doing a much greater cultivation, where saving people was her mission. My son has since protected me from the authorities many times.
I had to face many tribulations to become diligent again. It wasn't easy. Once my face and eyes were swollen. My family urged me to go to the hospital, but I said that I would be fine. I persisted in studying the Fa and doing the exercises, and going out to hand out Dafa informational materials, as well as doing other chores.
When I saw the state of my face in the mirror, I smiled and knew there was no way the old forces could stop me from cultivating in Dafa and saving sentient beings. My face returned to normal within a week.
At the time, I was looking after my grandchildren during the day, so I brought them with me when I went shopping, gave out Dafa fliers, and made phone calls. When they slept at night, I updated the name list of people who agreed to quit the CCP on the Internet, and listened to Teacher's lectures.
When my grandchildren went back to their parents, I filled my day with cultivation and saving people.
As long as we are determined to cultivate Teacher will help us raise our xinxing, and as long as we want to save people Teacher will bring the predestined people to us. When we value Fa study and cultivate our hearts we will walk our cultivation path righteously. I hope that those who have made a detour in their cultivation like me will cheer up and feel motivated to improve.
Getting Rid of the Attachment of Fear
I understand that clarifying the facts face-to-face is an opportunity that Teacher gives us to get rid of attachments and raise our xinxing.
I once spoke to a young man selling fruit. He realized that I was a Dafa practitioner and threatened to call the police. I wasn’t scared, and replied, “You’re a good person, you wouldn’t do that.”
As I was walking away, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the old force factors in other dimensions that were controlling him. But a few minutes later I saw a police station ahead of me that had surveillance cameras. My fear emerged, and I started running.
When I reached home I continued to send forth righteous thoughts and asked Teacher to help me. I later realized that the fear stemmed from a lack of righteous thoughts. Teacher was right beside me,
“If anyone could harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe.” (Zhuan Falun)
I later came across some people who didn’t want to listen to me talk about Dafa. They hollered and yelled, but my heart wasn’t moved. I calmly told them facts about the persecution, and even got them to quit the CCP.
When I firmly believed in Teacher and the Fa, my attachment of fear was easily removed. The attachment of fear is a substance that must be recognized and eliminated in various environments.
Removing the Attachment of Jealousy
Two other practitioners and I usually go out together when talking to people, but for a period of time I was constantly interfered with by any one of them. For example, when I was in the middle of talking, a practitioner would come over and interrupt me or take over the conversation. I knew it was a chance for me to improve my xinxing. I kept quiet on the surface, but I was fuming with jealousy inside.
“Dafa belongs to the entire universe, and not to any one, insignificant individual. Whoever does the work is spreading Dafa. It is not important whether it should be done by you or by others. Are you going to bring to a paradise this attachment that you cannot let go of, and contend with Buddhas? Nobody should treat Dafa as his own exclusive thing. Get rid of that thought that you’ve been treated unfairly! When your mind cannot get over something, isn’t it caused by your attachment?” (“Further Elimination of Attachments” in Essential for Further Advancement)
I felt better after recalling this. It really doesn’t matter who helps the person. After all, Teacher is the one who saves them. Teacher doesn’t value the end results; it is the process that is important. I needed to get rid of my attachment to seeking fame and the strong attachment of jealousy.
The old forces wanted to create conflicts between me and the other practitioners, but I saw it. My mind was clear and I became relaxed. From then on, we worked very well together. Sometimes when either of us ran out of materials or got stuck with talking to people, we would be there to help each other. The cooperation between us was exemplary.
Smiling from the Heart
We often met other people handing out fliers on the street, selling property or products. I wanted to take the opportunity to talk to them, so I sometimes pretended that I wanted to buy from them and even gave them my husband’s cell phone number.
My husband later said that I wasn’t being truthful when I did that. I thought about this, and knew that I needed to cultivate myself to be truthful, compassionate and tolerant. It was shameful when I didn’t conduct myself in a truthful manner!
When I study the Fa well my cultivation state is good, and I will greet people with a genuine smile. Sometimes people comment that I am nice. Getting these people to quit the CCP was then very easy to do.
I was once using public transit when a person stared at me and smiled. I thought this person must have a predestined relationship with me, so I went and sat next to him. Our discussion was brief and he agreed to quit the CCP.
I will continue to cultivate myself well so that I can save more people. Every person is Teacher’s family and is also our family. If Dafa practitioners don’t save them, who will?