(Minghui.org) I am a rural area practitioner who has been practicing Falun Dafa for 19 years. Because I lacked diligent Fa study and had a lot of attachments, I was once trapped by the old forces and caught in a couple of treacherous tribulations.
Practicing Dafa Without Fear
Soon after I started to practice Falun Dafa, Jiang Zemin, the former head of the Chines Communist Party (CCP), launched the persecution of this cultivation practice. Although I had not practiced Dafa for long, I held no fear because Dafa was in my heart. I went to Beijing to appeal for the right to practice Dafa, distributed truth clarifying materials and joined practitioners to talk to people about the persecution face to face.
I attended an experience sharing conference in October 2001 and was arrested. I thought I should not be detained and jumped over a wall when I used the restroom in the police station. My legs were injured, and I was taken to a hospital. The doctor said the injury was very serious, and I was released by the police.
I studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, and recovered. Gradually, I could walk and ride a bicycle to distribute Dafa informational materials with other practitioners. At times my legs hurt, and I had a buzzing noise in my head. My Fa study was also affected.
The Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published and needed to be distributed in 2005. None of my fellow practitioners wanted to go with me because of concerns about safety. So I went on my own and the trip took a day. As I returned home safely, more practitioners agreed to help me distribute the Nine Commentaries.
Letting Go of Attachments to Fame and Profit
When I heard that people paid well for plastic tents made by other practitioners, I went into that business because of my attachments to fame and profit. It was very costly and time-consuming. Consequently, I did not have enough time to study the Fa and had some xinxing problems with the people who built the tent. This falling out cost me about 150,000 yuan, and I had to borrow some money.
Then, someone told me that growing dates and strawberries would be a good business venture. I grew dates and strawberries, but because I was not familiar with this type of business, I did not do well.
Trying business ventures did not work well for my family, because I also slacked off in studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and clarifying the facts about Falun Dafa. I turned into an everyday person!
In my heart, I asked Master Li Hongzhi (the founder) to strengthen my willpower so I could practice Dafa diligently. I wondered if he still accepted me as his disciple?
I had wasted two years. During those years, although I let Master down, I felt he was taking care of me. I was awakened and said to my husband that he should grow grapes, and I would go out to clarify the truth to people. We eventually paid off our debt and let go of our need to gain wealth.
I thought as long as I could cultivate, it would be fine even if I was a beggar. I let go of my attachments and we did well growing grapes. I had corrected myself, and Master was helping us.
Life Improves When Cultivating Well
I studied the Fa with other practitioners at night and did the exercises in the morning. Whenever we had time, we talked to people about Dafa and persuaded people to quit the CCP and its youth organizations.
Although our financial status is not very good, I feel my life is enriched. When I return home each evening, I tell my husband interesting stories about what I had experienced when clarifying the truth.
I continue to cultivate my xinxing. Previously, I didn't know how to cultivate my heart and did everything in a rush. Since I have let go of my attachments, I realized that the people and situations I came across had helped me to let go of my human notions. I used to look at others and thought that they were cunning and not easy to get along with. I now thank them and believe, as I corrected myself, they became good too. Now the environment around me is peaceful, and I feel I am blessed by Dafa.
Category: Improving Oneself
