Improving Through Solid Cultivation, Learning from Each Experience
(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in July 2007. Master purified my body and removed the bad things from my mind so that I would be able to cultivate, save sentient beings, and fulfill my prehistoric vows.
Over the past 10 years, I have been doing the three things: I clarify the truth to people face to face, distribute Dafa materials in public, and make phone calls, telling people the facts about Falun Dafa. I've helped over 10,000 people withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
I have had many magical experiences and gone through many tribulations. I have even been detained; however, with Master's protection, I've managed to walk my cultivation path up to today.
Balancing Family Relationships
My daughter-in-law had a second child in 2014, and she became quite busy. I made up my mind not to spend all of my time looking after this grandchild. As a Dafa practitioner, I have to fulfill the mission that Master arranged for me long ago. I knew that this was a test for me, and I knew I must handle it well while keeping good relationships with my family.
Master saw my determination to save sentient beings, and he arranged a good environment for me. Once I became determined, my daughter-in-law's mother came to look after her, and she has been with us ever since. Thus, I have time to do the three things.
But there was a disadvantage. Her family comes to see the baby and stays with us every Sunday. The two grandchildren come to stay with us every summer and winter holiday as well. Every time they come, I spend over an hour washing dishes and doing other housework. But to keep them happy, I willingly do everything.
I used to be a cunning person indoctrinated with CCP's crooked theories. But Dafa has changed me. I am able to stay unmoved under any circumstance.
“From the perspective of our universe, "to be smart" is already wrong, for we require following the course of nature and caring little for personal gain. Being so smart, he intends to pursue self-interest.” (Zhuan Falun)
There have been conflicts and struggles among my family of six brothers and one sister, and I hadn't spoken to my second sister-in-law for 11 years. However, I went to see her after I started practicing Falun Dafa.
Dafa changed me and the environment around me. I now put Dafa principles into practice, consider others first, I do not take advantage of others, and I bear personal losses. As a result, my relationships have changed, and I get along well with my family now.
Supporting and Learning from Practitioners in My Family
My grandson had heart disease at the age of 11, and he was constantly on medication or hospitalized. His heart problem became severe in 2015, and he was again hospitalized. His doctor issued a critical condition notice, performed a final treatment, and released the boy, expecting him to die after returning home.
I didn't give up. I asked my grandson to repeat, “Falun Dafa is good,” in his heart, and I let him listen to Master's audio lectures at home. He recovered overnight. Master gave him a second life.
My grandson and his mother started practicing Falun Dafa from that moment on. Soon after, I moved in with with them so that I could support their cultivation. They really cultivated diligently. My grandson read all of the Dafa books and made great progress. He no longer played computer games, nor was he addicted to his cell phone.
He and my daughter both let go of fear of persecution and lodged complaints against Jiang Zemin to the Supreme Procuratorate. My grandson later had a hospital checkup, and everything was normal. My daughter clarified the truth to the doctors and nurses, who all witnessed this miracle of Dafa.
One day my grandson refused to study the Fa or do the exercises. I wondered what was going on. I became anxious and realized that I had to look within. Things don't happen accidentally.
I was too attached to my daughter and her son—I wanted to change them instead of myself. I was outspoken without considering their feelings. I was also impatient with them. When I looked further, I found that I was very competitive and had been poisoned by the CCP culture—I would try to gain the upper hand in everything.
My husband once said to me, “If our neighbors didn't hear your voice for three days, they would have thought you were dead.”
I didn't solidly cultivate myself, and my lack of forbearance caused many problems. My daughter and grandson looked as though they were angry with me every day. My daughter always found fault with me, and my grandson sometimes wouldn't talk to me. I shouted at them over trivial things, and I never felt good afterward.
During this xinxing problem, I kept hitting my head here and there, which was a hint from Master. Then Master's Fa came into my mind:
“It is very difficult to save a practitioner if he cannot conduct himself properly. He can easily ruin himself.” (Zhuan Falun)
“As a cultivatorOne always looks for one's own faults'Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectivelyThere's no way to skip ordeals, big or small[During a conflict, if you can remember:]“He's right,And I'm wrong,”What's to dispute?”(“Who's Right, Who's Wrong” from Hong Yin III)
I gained a new understanding of improving xinxing. I must cultivate my every thought, controlling my thoughts and deciding which I want and don't want. Now when a thought first comes up, I judge to see if it is in line with Fa principles. If it isn't, I dissolve it.
I want Buddha nature, not demon nature. I want compassion, kindness, and assimilation to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I would like to elevate to higher realms and return to my original self. I would like to be the protector of the universe.
Every day I dispel my bad thoughts and reinforce my righteous thoughts. I feel that I have changed fundamentally. My tone of speech has changed, and I feel that I can forbear. When I clarify the truth to people, I speak with compassion.
I realized that cultivation is to change only myself. My daughter and her son are taken care of by Master—I do not have the final say. I finally let go of my attachment to my daughter and grandson.
My grandson went through another test of sickness karma. He listened to Master's audio lectures and recovered, and he came again to study the Fa with us. I asked them both to join the group Fa study and to read Minghui Weekly. They agreed and improved quickly, overcoming their fear and stepping out to clarify the truth in public.
They set up a home material production center as well. My grandson made all sorts of materials, and my daughter and I went out to distribute them. He held a very righteous attitude.
I gained further understanding of Master's Fa. The tribulations I had come across were to remove my attachments and elevate me. Master was paving my path to Heaven.
“You will be made to abandon all those attachments that cannot be given up among everyday people. As long as you have them, all of those attachments must be removed in different environments. You will be made to stumble, whereby you will become enlightened to the Tao. This is how one goes through cultivation practice.” (Zhuan Falun)
The process of clarifying the truth to people is also a process of cultivation. One day I asked a young man if he had heard of the three withdrawals. He didn't understand, so I explained it to him. He still couldn't understand.
I clarified the truth to him in detail, but he couldn't understand. I became anxious and said, “Why don't you understand Chinese?” I then said that his mind must be full of water, as he couldn't understand anything. Finally, I asked him to remember, “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
The next day I had a terrible cough that lasted over 10 days. I looked within and realized that I didn't cultivate my speech well. I was not kind to that person and spoke harshly to him. I learned a lesson. I must have compassion when clarifying the truth to people, as cultivation is serious.
Speaking Openly with Policemen
I have come across police officers on many occasions over the past 10 years. As long as I have ample righteous thoughts and study the Fa well, I don't have problems. But if my xinxing is not up to the standard, I come across tribulations.
Last autumn, I went to an expo with another practitioner to distribute Dafa materials. The practitioner gave a magazine to a plain-clothes policeman, who asked for another copy from me. Then he showed his badge and asked us to go to the police station with him.
I told him that we were saving people and hadn't done anything wrong. In response, he tried to call a police car. I told him not to commit any crimes against practitioners. Upon hearing this, he tried to grab my bag. I became afraid and asked Master to remove my fear. I instantly felt that Master was beside me, and my fear disappeared.
A woman nearby asked me to give all my materials to the policeman, adding that I could make more at home. I gave five copies of different magazines to him and told him to pass them on to other policemen. Then he let me go.
I looked within to see why there was interference. Actually, Master gave me hints in my dream that I didn't pay attention to. I didn't dissolve the evil. Another reason was that my mind wandered while sending forth righteous thoughts. I failed to pass xinxing tests and was interfered with.
After the 19th National Congress, two conferences were to be held. Plain-clothes policemen were everywhere—so were the cameras. I sent righteous thoughts to clear the evil elements that prevented policemen from being saved. I asked for Master's strengthening as well.
Some plain-clothes police officers sat inside their cars with monitors and didn't dare listen to the truth. When I approached them, they asked me to leave immediately and to pay attention to safety. I told them not to persecute practitioners and that they would be blessed if they instead protected them.
One day I saw a plain-clothes police officer reading a newspaper on the street, and I gave him a copy of Minghui Weekly. He asked if I had the latest issue. I gave him the four most recent issues and helped him withdraw from the CCP. He thanked me and reminded me to be careful.
One plain-clothes policeman sat in a car with the door open. I clarified the truth to him and gave him a copy of Minghui Weekly, which he didn't accept, saying, “I am a police officer. Listen, don't distribute this anywhere.” He let me go.
I realized that as long as I have the heart of saving sentient beings and act according to Fa principles, Master will dissolve tribulations for me.