Various Challenges Help Me Get Rid of Deeper Layers of an Attachment
(Minghui.org) I started cultivating Falun Dafa in 1998. I greatly benefited from this cultivation practice and experienced the power of Dafa.
Before I practiced Dafa, I refused to eat or touch anything that was dirty. After I was married, my husband changed our child's diapers, and took care of any other chores that involved filth.
After I started cultivation I realized this was an attachment. Therefore I tried very hard to eliminate this problem.
Letting Go of Fearing Filth
I was illegally arrested in 2001 for practicing Falun Dafa, and taken to a forced labor camp. There was a girl there who was arrested for prostitution.
She had taken medication for an abortion, and she was bleeding a lot. There was no toilet paper in the cell, and blood was everywhere.
She was very hungry, and ate my soup before I was able to stop her. The detainee leader found out and planned to give her a beating. If she died, they would say that she died from sickness or that she killed herself.
After I found out, I told them not to harm her. I said that she took my food because she was too hungry. Furthermore, she had bled so much. The guards then ordered me to finish her leftover soup.
Immediately I realized that it was to eliminate my fear of filth. I drank the soup without stopping for a breath. All the detainees shouted “Falun Dafa practitioners are great! Another true practitioner!”
That is when I realized that the practitioners who had been detained here in the past did a great job in clarifying the truth to the detainees. They all knew that practitioners are good people. That was why they did not beat me when I came here.
I believed that I had given up my fear of filth. But, after being released I found two swallows building a nest in the hallway near my home. I thought, if they built it on my floor, I would have to clean the bird droppings. I tried every way I could get them out of there.
The birds dropped bird poop on my arm. I knew they were retaliating, and as a result, I just let them be.
Repaying for Past Bad Deeds
A few months later, I moved to another building. Soon after I moved in, again, two swallows flew in to build their nest.
This time I knew it was to eliminate my attachment to cleanliness. So, I put a paper box underneath their nest to catch their droppings.
One night I had a dream that one of the birds was my boyfriend in one of my previous lives, and I had wronged him in that life. I guessed that I had to pay back my wrong deeds in this life. So, I patiently cleaned the bird droppings every day.
One day a neighbor could no longer stand the noise and destroyed their nest, and they did not come back. I concluded my attachment to cleanliness had been removed and I had paid my debts.
Removing Attachments Layer by Layer
However, human attachments are removed layer by layer, and so, the good times did not last long.
A couple of sparrows built their nest outside the gaps between the air conditioner and the walls. Every single day they made a lot of noise, and especially at night. It was so annoying, especially since I could not concentrate when I studied the Fa.
I thought of getting rid of their nest, but I recalled those two swallows’ incident several months ago, and so I left them alone. This went on for a couple of years.
A few days ago, I heard their noises again when I was studying the Fa. I was exasperated at first, then I suddenly felt compassionate toward them.
They work all day to live, aren’t they pitiful? So, I said to them: “I don’t know in which life I have wronged you. If I owe you, I will pay it back.”
I went on to say: “Furthermore, I am a practitioner, and I can’t kill your offspring (at that time there were eggs or chicks in their nest). I will leave you be, and you can stay however long you want.”
Lastly, I said: “However, remember Falun Dafa is good. Go to a good place in the future.”
Later, I felt something seemed missing in my house. Then, I suddenly realized that I hadn’t heard the noise of those two sparrows.
Master said that we owe many debts during countless life times, and we have to repay the debt. Also, all lives come here for the Fa. They must have left happily because they heard “Falun Dafa is good.”