Overcoming Obstacles by Letting Go of Attachments
(Minghui.org) I did not have an easy life before I practiced Falun Dafa. I suffered from many illnesses, including heart disease, stomach problems, and dizziness. I took many Chinese and western medicines without success. My family was poor so my poor health added a heavy burden to the entire family.
Introduced to Falun Dafa
I met a nurse when my mother was in the hospital in October 1998. My sister was advised to have some tests that would cost more than 1,000 yuan. We are both farmers and could not afford these tests.
To help us improve our health, the nurse lent us the book Zhuan Falun. After returning home, my sister and I took turns reading the book.
Upon opening Zhuan Falun, I could not help crying when I saw Teacher's picture. I continued reading until I fell asleep. The next morning, I felt light and relaxed. I no longer felt like I was ill. It was as if I had become a different person! I decided to start practicing Falun Dafa.
Producing Truth-clarification Materials
After the persecution began I was arrested and detained for five years. After being released in May 2014, I joined a Fa study group and participated in Falun Dafa activities. We studied the Fa in the morning and told people the facts about Dafa in the afternoon.
As we needed truth clarification materials, another young practitioner and Istarted a materials production site at her house. I was involved in making materials on weekends. We ran into many problems, as I had forgotten many technical skills while incarcerated.
Dafa gave me the wisdom needed to produce materials. But I found many attachments along the way that I had to eliminate.
One practitioner kept asking me to print several copies of the Minghui Weekly because her printer had broken down. As she kept asking for my help on short notice, I began to complain in my mind.
However, from Fa study I realized that nothing that happens to a practitioner is coincidental. I realized that I needed to improve in my cultivation.
After looking within, I found the attachments to complaining, impatience, and selfishness. When I developed the attachment of zealotry about creating materials smoothly and successfully, the old forces seized upon my loopholes, including my sense of accomplishment and attachment of zealotry, and caused the machine to malfunction.
After I recognized my attachments, I sent forth righteous thoughts to remove them and the machine would function normally again.
However, if I did not look within to find my attachments, but only focused on the machines' problems and asked a practitioner to fix the machine, the problem persisted and made the practitioner unhappy. I realized that my attachment of relying on her had caused her inconvenience.
One day, after two practitioners and I had been clarifying the facts to people, I stopped by a supermarket to buy some food.
I was being picky while selecting vegetables, and this behavior was not compliant with that of a practitioner. I felt a little stomach pain after getting off the bus. Later my stomach pain became severe, so I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts.
In the meantime, I recalled what Teacher said, “...looking within is a magical tool.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference IX)
I found many attachments, including seeking profits from purchasing, competing, looking down on others, jealousy, and talking behind others' backs. After I realized my attachments, I removed them immediately.
I did not intend to be that way. Teacher does not agree with the arrangements of the persecution, and neither did I.
I will only follow the path arranged by Teacher. My stomach problem was gone by the next morning.
I joined the group study in the morning and went with a practitioner to clarify the facts to others in the afternoon. I developed zealotry after achieving good results. Upon returning home, I experienced the symptoms of a serious cold, including shivering and loss of appetite.
Although I suffered many symptoms of illnesses, I persistently did what a practitioner should do. Several fellow practitioners came to study the Fa with me and send forth righteous thoughts to help me.
I later went out with them to clarify the facts, and returned home to produce materials. I truly believe in Teacher and Dafa.
I should follow the Teacher's guidance:
“I'm Li Hongzhi's disciple, I don't want other arrangements or acknowledge them.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
As a practitioner, I should totally deny all arrangements from the old forces. No one should persecute me.
“To tell you the truth, the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (Zhuan Falun)
I did not understand Teacher's Fa in depth in the past. I thus did not cultivate my mind nature, nor did I compare my thoughts against the Fa standards.
I did not know how to look within when I encountered conflicts, and failed to find my fundamental attachments. As a result, the old forces seized the loopholes to persecute me.
After I realized these attachments, I sent forth a powerful thought to thoroughly disintegrate all the evil beings and the substances which caused illnesses in my body.
I felt huge changes inside my body. I felt Falun rotating, and my body was rotating along as well. After experiencing severe pains, I began to feel very relaxed.
Teacher had removed karma for me. Teacher said,
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn back the tide.” (“The Master-Disciple Bond, ” from Hong Yin Vol. II)