Coming Back to Dafa
(Minghui.org) I am a 23-year-old female Falun Dafa practitioner, who was born into the home of Dafa practitioners. As a child, “Falun Dafa is good” was deeply rooted in my heart.
Learning Dafa As a Young Child
My mother started to practice Falun Dafa in 1997 when I was still very young. I told my mother: “Please practice Dafa diligently, Mom. I have seen (probably with my celestial eye opened) that Master Li Hongzhi (the founder) has given you so many good things!”
Having heard my words, my mother firmly believed that Falun Dafa was the true Buddha Fa. Together with dozens of fellow practitioners, my mother went to town to talk to people about the goodness of Dafa and the benefits of doing the exercises; and I was one of them. When people were passing by, they all said, “Look! This young child is also here doing the exercises!” At that time, I felt quite peaceful in my heart.
Falling Away from Dafa While at School
In July 1999, the persecution of Falun Dafa started. About this time I reached primary school age and I was sent to a boarding school. My school life began, and without my mother around, I fell into the big dye vat of everyday people. After that, I went to junior high school and, in the eyes of ordinary people, I was in a “rebellious period."
I didn’t work hard at my schoolwork and fell into all the problems of adolescence along with my so-called “good friends.” We did everything to the extreme. During this period of time, my mother was very anxious for me to improve, but she didn’t correct me by using the principles of Falun Dafa.
Eventually, I went to a university, where the emotions of ordinary people and conflicts between roommates ran rampant. I even fell in love with a young man, which ended up in vain. This experience made me very sad and unable to sleep at night. In addition, my parents didn’t seem to show much concern for me. I fell into a very bad state, feeling the sky was gray.
At that time, such a terrible feeling enveloped me. I started to feel depressed and wondered, “What am I living for?” It seemed that I had already experienced everything, and I felt very tired. I couldn’t find any hope.
Returning to Dafa
I once went home for a winter vacation. Out of instinct--or my deepest wish from the bottom of my heart--I asked my mother, “Do you have Master's Fa-teaching recordings? Please let me have a memory card with the recordings so that I can listen to them when I go back to school. I am going to buy a small player for myself.”
My mother was shocked at my request but she immediately responded, “Yes, I'll give it to you!” After getting back to school, I bought a small player. As soon as I turned on the player and heard Master's first words, my tears began to flow. Master’s voice was like a most familiar voice from a most remote distance, penetrating my body at every level to the depths of my heart.
Since then, I have listened to Master's teachings every day. I just want to hear Master's voice, which makes me feel at ease.
From then on, I did not worry anymore and became energized with a positive outlook on life. I then started to be in a state of eliminating karma with blood in my stool. I was not afraid as I knew that this was to clean out my karma. The relationship with my roommates improved, as I thought that suffering a few losses was nothing and I should forgive these women. Master teaches us to be good people and care less about personal gain. By doing this, my life has become much more peaceful.
Cultivation Tribulation with My Parents
I went home in 2015 for my summer holiday. My mother told me that she was going to write a letter to sue Jiang Zemin, the former leader of the communist regime, and asked me if I would like to write it as well and I agreed. I then wrote the letter signed with my real name and posted it successfully.
In September, my family phoned and told me: “The local police station is looking for you and wants you to return home.” At that time, the unscrupulous police officers threatened my parents by saying: “Your daughter has written this, which will affect her future. We will inform a police station near your daughter’s university and they will arrest her straightaway.” Wanting to protect me, my parents were so scared that they asked me to return home.
During this period, there were two fellow practitioners with me. They shared their understandings with me by using the principles from the Fa: “First, we have done nothing wrong in writing letters to sue Jiang Zemin. The police asked you to go back. Are you going back? If you do, won’t you accept their arrangements? Second, since you have studied the Fa, your future path has been arranged by Master. What they said doesn’t count. We should deny them and listen to Master’s arrangement!” I then told my mother on the phone: “I haven’t done anything wrong, so why should I go back?”
When the police repeatedly harassed my family, my parents were concerned and drove to my university looking for me. I told them, “Please go home, I won’t go back with you. I haven’t done anything wrong.” When they saw that I refused to go back, my parents went to the head of my department for help. But I was nowhere to be found at that time and not accessible by phone. My parents, helplessly, went home and threatened to cut off all ties with me.
I asked my fellow practitioner: “Am I doing something wrong? Why are my parents treating me this way?” She kindly said to me: “Actually, your parents have been taken advantage of by the evil. It is not your parents who have spoken such words to you but the evil. Please don’t take it to heart. This is what the evil wants to see most, to ruin a Dafa practitioner’s family.”
Her words made me realize what I should say to my parents. I sent a message to my father: “I have freedom of belief. Why aren’t you happy when I want to be a good person? It is the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) that persecutes Falun Dafa. For so many years, you have also been in contact with Falun Dafa practitioners who are very kind. I am aware that the police often come to our house to harass you. It will do for you to just tell them that you don’t know where I am. No matter what, you are my father and I respect you.”
I then said to my mother: “As you are a practitioner, you can't listen to and trust the evil hypocrisy. Did you think it was a simple matter when you asked me to come back? What you are doing is committing sins against the numerous sentient beings behind me. Have you thought about how you can compensate for what you have done?” At last, my mother understood and she said, “Please don’t come back no matter what happens.”
At that time I realized that no one in the world could be relied on and that the attachment of love was the least reliable thing. I must rely on my Master. By reading the book Zhuan Falun and with encouragement from my fellow practitioners, I walked through this most difficult time of my life.
Dafa Is Firmly Rooted in My Heart
After my graduation from the university, I found a job right away. In the environment where I work, I have come across a lot of fellow practitioners who treat me as their own child. We study the Fa together and share our experiences together. During this time, I have also done some improper things, but with the help from my fellow practitioners, I have overcome them and Dafa is firmly rooted in my heart. Regardless of where I am going, I will never let go of this Fa again.
After so many years of twists and turns, I have finally come back to Dafa, but I wasted so much of my valuable time. I spent so many years involved with ordinary people’s things. But with Master's compassionate care, I have finally returned to Falun Dafa.
I would like to remind fellow practitioners who have children that their children have all come here to obtain the Fa. Please don’t spoil your children as ordinary people do and let them go their own way. An ordinary person has a huge celestial body behind him or her, not to mention the children of Dafa practitioners. If your children haven’t started to study the Fa yet, please pay attention to this and help them obtain the Fa.
I would also encourage young fellow practitioners to be diligent in cultivation. There is still an opportunity before the end of this matter and Master is waiting for us. Please come back to Dafa as soon as possible. We must cultivate ourselves well and do the three things well.