Overcoming Cultivation Difficulties
(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 2015. As I moved to another city shortly afterward, I had no contact with other practitioners, and could no longer discuss cultivation issues. Because I did not truly grasp the Dafa principles, I improved very slowly.
I moved back home in April 2016. Encouraged by other practitioners, I participated in some local activities to clarify the truth about Dafa, but was not ready to go out on my own.
While I meditated one morning I saw some wonderful scenes. I knew that Teacher was encouraging me.
However, when I went out to talk to people it did not go very smoothly. When I talked to two young people they refused to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations, so I gave up.
As I walked back home I saw a young man selling eggs on the side of the road. While I purchased some eggs, I talked to him about Dafa. He quit the CCP using his real name. I knew that Teacher was encouraging me.
Soon, a veteran practitioner who was very experienced in talking to people agreed to work with me. We had some scary situations but nothing truly bad happened.
Teacher Watches Over Practitioners
Once when I gave a brochure to an elderly man, I said: “The principles of Falun Dafa are Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. They guide people to become good.” Unexpectedly, he tore up the brochure and yelled at me. He would not listen to anything I said. He took out his cell phone and called the police.
When the other practitioner and I walked away, the man followed us. We went to a small neighborhood, hoping to leave through the other end. Unfortunately, there was only one entrance to go in or out. I asked Teacher for help.
When we walked towards the other end we found that it was all fenced in, and there was no way out. I looked closely and noticed that one of the bars in the fence was not welded, so I pulled it open. We easily slipped through the opening. Through this incident, I truly experienced that Teacher watches over us.
Because I lived alone, I did not encounter too many challenges to my xinxing. Then, I found out that my friend, also a practitioner, had been criticizing me behind my back. At first, I did not care. When she began badmouthing me to practitioners in other areas, it really started to bother me.
I became angry, resentful, my heart was truly affected, and I could not let go of my anger. Later I was arrested and detained for 15 days when I was talking to people about Falun Dafa. I read Teacher's Fa while I was detained,
“Calmly reflect on the attachments you haveRemove your human thoughtsand evil will naturally die out”( “Don't be Sad” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
When I examined myself I found many attachments, including a competitive mentality, anxiousness, jealousy, showing off, and selfishness. I realized that the old forces were trying to create a division between practitioners.
As soon as I was released, I contacted that practitioner and had a frank talk with her. I said, “My reaction was wrong. My resentment and anger towards you caused hostility and a division between us. I hope that we can still cooperate.”
“Cultivation is about working on the human mind and heart; it is about cultivating oneself. Only when you are able to examine yourself, looking inward amid problems, conflicts, difficulties, or when being treated unfairly, is it true cultivation. And only by doing so will you be constantly improving, staying the right course on your cultivation journey, and progressing toward consummation!” ( “A Congratulatory Letter to the Fa Conference of Taiwan”)
When I thought over what had happened, I felt very sorry that I did not immediately look inward as soon as I heard that she was criticizing me. This was a chance for me to cultivate myself and improve. But not only did I miss it, I felt that my cultivation state was lowered. I apologized to Teacher and said that I will make certain that such an issue will not come up in the future.