Understanding the Seriousness of Cultivation
(Minghui.org) I have known that Falun Dafa is good since I was very young because my family practiced Dafa. However, my understanding of Dafa was very superficial. I did not practice cultivation systematically, nor did I know how to look inside and improve my character.
Because I grew up in a practitioner family, I did not experience much hardship. After marrying an everyday person however, I stopped practicing Falun Dafa and no longer improved my xinxing. Within six months after getting married, I came down with illnesses and had a miscarriage. I could not understand why I was suddenly facing these tribulations.
I subsequently awakened and began reading the Falun Dafa books during the summer of 2017. I met up with another practitioner and joined her Fa-study group.
Importance of Studying the Fa
When I was not diligently cultivating, I did not experience the true display of the Fa’s principles at different levels. I rarely studied Master Li Hongzhi's lectures other than Zhuan Falun. I was not clear about the progress of the Fa-rectification, and did not have a deep understanding of the Fa.
I then seized every minute to read Master's lectures and articles. I also started to read the Minghui Weekly and realized that it was an important platform for practitioners to share experiences. Master’s others articles helped me clear away much of the confusion in my mind.
I improved quickly, and felt that my understandings of the Fa had transcended to another level. When I read the Fa I was amazed to experience the true display of the Fa’s principles at different levels. With every bit of new understanding I felt energy vibrating from inside my body to the outside, as if my whole life was being renewed.
I had stopped studying the Fa for a long time. When I first came back to the practice I could not really understand other practitioners. I realized this was dangerous for a practitioner, so I seized every opportunity not only to study the Fa on my own, but also attend group Fa-study.
My husband held negative thoughts towards Dafa because I did not really understand truth-clarification methods. After I changed my outlook and attitude, I decided to help him understand the beauty and power of Dafa.
I started to read the Fa, watch Dafa truth-clarification videos, and listen to Dafa, and I invited my husband to join me. Even though he was not quite on-board, his behavior and attitude began to change.
Physical and Behavioral Changes
The day after my husband listened to the Fa, I woke up at 3:30 a.m. I understood that I should practice the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts.
When I was doing the second exercise, I felt nausea and intense stomach pain. I endured it until I finished the second through fourth exercises. I felt like I couldn’t finish the second exercise without putting my arms down, but I bit my lips and kept repeating Master's Fa,
“When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I felt a great sense of achievement. From that point on, the strange cycle of coming down with another illness every month stopped. My body was recovering and I no longer felt fatigued after working an entire day, as long as I practiced the exercises.
My husband was amazed at my physical changes, and his attitude changed too. When I was doing the sitting meditation, he did not interrupt me, but observed me, and even hinted when he noticed that I was not sitting upright.
When I subsequently mentioned Dafa to him, he no longer became upset. I understood that I needed to further purify my heart so I could completely clear away his misunderstandings about Dafa.
I knew that looking inside and improving my character by following the Falun Dafa principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance was fundamental for a practitioner, but I didn't know how to look inside. I then realized that by reading practitioners' articles I could learn how to look inside.
I had a relatively major problem however. I wanted to stay away from anyone who displayed any illness symptoms. For example, when I took my mother to a clinic, I tried to stay away from anyone who coughed. But then a thought entered my mind, “What am I afraid of? Infection? I'm a practitioner. Why should I be afraid of so-called 'sickness?'”
“Should you have fear,it will seize upon you...”(“What's to Fear?” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
Yet I continued to avoid anyone who displayed illness symptoms. Suddenly, my throat started to hurt as if my tonsillitis was going to reoccur. I then remembered what Master said,
“You should not always worry that it is an illness, for this fear of illness is an attachment and it can bring you trouble just the same.”(Zhuan Falun)
“Once your attachment surfaces, shouldn’t it be removed? The more you fear it, the sicker you will look. This attachment of yours must be removed. You will be made to learn from this lesson so that your fear can be removed, and you can advance.” (Zhuan Falun)
Realizing that my symptoms were an illusion, I sent forth righteous thoughts and negated any interference, and looked inside and eliminated all bad thoughts. In less than a minute, my throat felt normal again.
In the course of cultivation, I have run into many incidents that when looked at from the Fa principles, changed my attitude and behavior.
When I was shopping for shoes I thought about haggling the price down by five yuan. I then recalled that practitioners do not pick or haggle about price when buying vegetables, and that I should not be attached to wealth. Master said,
“If something is yours, you will not lose it. If something is not yours, you will not have it even if you fight for it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I decided not to haggle for a better price. Yet the vendor sold the shoes to me for five yuan lower than the asking price on his own.
Incidents like these remind me to be strict with my xinxing. These small things helped me let go off my attachments. I have come to understand that I should look inside no matter where I am, find my bad thoughts, and eliminate them. The illusions are then immediately shattered, because they were there only to test me. The outcome depends on how well we handle each situation and keep our hearts unmoved.
“And human notions change,The degenerate things purged,Brightness now shines forth.(“Born Anew” from Hong Yin) ”