Cultivating Myself Solidly to Save More People
(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2007 and feel very fortunate to be a Fa-rectification-period Dafa disciple.
I would like to share my cultivation experiences of how I started to practice Dafa, how I have elevated myself in family tribulations, and how I am working to save sentient beings.
Struggling in the Human World
Before I started practicing Dafa, I was extremely selfish and showed no mercy when I was right. Because I was like that, I struggled for more than half of my life with my marriage.
When I was introduced to my second husband, I agreed to marry him after finding out that he had a good job and his daughter from his previous marriage didn't live with him.
But after we married, he missed his daughter so much that he brought her to live with us without discussing it with me first. I was angry and quarreled with him often because of her.
I was no longer afraid of him after our son was born. Our conflicts intensified and I developed many health problems, including a herniated lumbar disc, rheumatism, rheumatoid arthritis, severe insomnia, neurosis, etc. and could not go to work.
I wanted to commit suicide, but held on as I couldn't bear to leave my son.
Reborn after Cultivating Dafa
I quarreled with my husband one night after the 2007 Chinese New Year. The next day, I asked a Falun Dafa practitioner in my office, “Is it true that people who practice Falun Gong never get angry?
She smiled at me and said, “You can if you truly cultivate. Do you want to practice?”
I said I did.
She gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun and an MP3 with the music Pudu and Jishi. When I listened to the music, I had a feeling that I'd once cultivated in previous life and was so moved that I cried the whole day.
I was shouting in my heart, “I want to cultivate! I want to cultivate!”
I read Zhuan Falun and listened to the audio recording of Master's lectures in Guangzhou.
From then on, I completely changed my outlook on life and started to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance to be a good person.
My insomnia soon disappeared and so did the rest of my ailments. I felt very relaxed.
After practicing Dafa, I asked my stepdaughter home for dinner and was truly concerned about her. Dafa dissolved the longstanding grudges between us and we are now like a true mother and daughter. My husband was happy to see how I had changed.
Clarifying the Truth and Validating the Fa
In 2008, I started to attend group Fa-study and understood many Fa-principles. Seeing Dafa being slandered and many people being kept in the dark, I joined other practitioners to clarify the truth, because I knew that was the responsibility of a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple.
Because I had not been a practitioner on July 20, 1999, when the reign of terror began, I was not afraid to talk to people and was able to distribute truth-clarification materials very quickly.
I cooperated with practitioners in my area to distribute information at night. I remember that one night I distributed 1,000 booklets.
Looking Within and Cultivating
I was arrested at the end of 2010 when I was distributing calendars in a busy district. The arrest was very hard on my husband.
I looked within and realized that I should be more rational since the persecution is not over. In addition, I had neglected my family's feelings when it came to my studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and clarifying the truth. This made my husband stop supporting me and start to oppose it.
To try to force me to give up practicing Dafa, he would swear at me and hit me. He once put his knee on my chest until it hurt and I couldn't move. Another time, I almost suffocated when he grabbed my neck. Later, he got on my back and hit my face and neck until I was bruised and swollen.
Many times he tried to kill me with a cleaver and took away my Dafa book and Master's photo.
I really resented him. He had seen how I changed after practicing Dafa. Why did he still interfere with me and keep me from cultivating?
I even thought I might leave home so that I could continue to cultivate if I couldn't do so at home.
But after discussing with other practitioners, I understood that Master wants us to cultivate while conforming to ordinary human society to the greatest extent, and I would tarnish Dafa's image if I walked out on my family.
I knew that the old forces would not let me become a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple that easily. If I wanted to negate the persecution, I had to listen to Master.
“Compassion is an enormous energy, the energy of righteous gods. The more compassion that is present, the greater this energy becomes, and it can disintegrate anything that is bad.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference IX)
Master also said,
“For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference IX)
I had to remember that my husband's mind was filled with the lies and propaganda that he heard on the CCP-controlled media, and he was afraid of what the Party was capable of when it came to the persecution. He would not have treated me like that if he was not under tremendous pressure.
I made up my mind to cultivate myself and fulfill my vow.
When my mother-in-law was hospitalized twice after injuring her leg, my husband and I had to take care of her because she was injured when my brother-in-law and his wife, who normally took care of her, were on holiday.
My human notions surfaced when I had to take care of her: I had to spend my money and care for my mother-in-law while her son and daughter-in-law were out having fun.
Then I remembered that I was a cultivator and that this was a good time for me to elevate my xinxing and remove my human attachments.
“A wicked person is born of jealousy.Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.
A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.
An enlightened person has no attachments at all.He quietly observes the people of the world deluded by illusions.”
(“Realms” in Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I recalled this, I felt better.
After my mother-in-law was discharged from the hospital, I took her to our home to care for her without complaining. Seeing this, she felt bad and repeatedly ask me to rest.
At her 90th birthday, she clarified the truth with me by telling everyone that her good health and longevity were due to often reciting, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
To show the wonderfulness of Dafa, I let go of the attachment to personal gain. In 2014, when my stepdaughter wanted to buy a house, I gave her 100 thousand yuan, which shocked her and my husband. Everyone, including her husband's family, was touched.
They all now believe that Falun Dafa is good, and my stepdaughter, her husband, their child, and her parents-in-law have all quit the CCP. My stepdaughter and her husband also often recite “Falun Dafa is good” and have been blessed with good fortune.
Dafa's Mighty Power
I was knocked down by a van in May 2016 and passed out.
I started to regain consciousness when the two men in the van wanted to take me to the hospital.
They urged me to go to the hospital as I could not even lift my head. Bystanders were saying that they didn't think I would survive.
I said with much difficulty, “I'm fine. I practice Falun Dafa and will not take your money.”
I felt much better once I said that. At that moment, I only thought of validating the Fa and saving people, so I told them the facts about Dafa.
Coincidentally, a former colleague happened to pass by and saw me. He wanted to call my husband, but I told him not to. I was determined to do well and let everyone see the wonderfulness of Dafa.
I became more clearheaded and continued to clarify the truth.
The two men from the van understood and agreed that it was important to file a criminal complaint against Jiang Zemin. They signed their names on the complaints, and one of them said sincerely that he believed that Falun Dafa was good because he had witnessed it with his own eyes.
Many passersby who saw me said that it was remarkable that I could talk non-stop after being knocked down and that I still refused to take any compensation.
They were filled with admiration for the goodness of Dafa, having seen it with their own eyes.
But when I got home, my human attachments surfaced and I had to lie down. I couldn't get up to make lunch and told my husband that I had been knocked down by a van.
Because I couldn't move, I listened to Master's lecture audio recording and recited Hong Yin and any Fa that I could remember. I could feel Falun rotating all over my body and I fell asleep without realizing it.
I woke up the next day feeling relaxed. I could sit up but couldn't move my left leg. Despite this, I refused to let my family take care of me and insisted on studying the Fa and doing the exercises. I could walk on the 6th day and walk down the stairs on the 18th day. I was completely healed in 20 days.
After this incident, many relatives and friends truly believed that Dafa was good and extraordinary.
Persuading People to Quit the CCP
Since I have retired, I keep busy every day cultivating and saving people. I go out to distribute materials in the morning and attend group Fa-study in the afternoon. At night, I study the Fa and read experience sharing articles at home, so that my husband doesn't feel lonely.
It is not difficult to clarify the truth. The most important thing is to remove my attachments to self and fear.
Initially, I didn't know how to clarify the truth, but with experience and Master giving me wisdom, clarifying the truth has become easy.
I first ask the person if her or she has heard about Falun Dafa.
If they says they have, I ask if they have quit the CCP. Some ask me not to talk about this, but, depending on their reactions, I say, “Understanding the truth is good for you.”
It's good if I can chat with the person, but, in any event, I always tell them: “Falun Gong teaches people to be good; it has spread to over 100 countries; Falun Gong is a righteous Fa; and the CCP has done many bad things and killed many people.
Then I encourage them to withdraw from the Party and its youth organizations.
We should not let them influence us. Instead, we should pity them and hope that they can listen to the truth and be saved.
If the person has joined a CCP organization, I prioritize encouraging them to quit. For those that didn't, I ask them to sign the criminal complaint against Jiang Zemin.
I can now persuade or ask at least 10 people to quit or sign the complaints, and many people have started accepting copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party.
My relatives all believe that Dafa is good, and eight of them are now reading Dafa books. My brother's wife is even more supportive of Dafa. When I returned home to promote New Tang Dynasty Television, she had me install it.
When there is a wedding in my hometown, I bring along another practitioner to help me distribute truth-clarification materials at the reception. We give everyone a present and leave without eating. Everyone knows that Dafa disciples are busy saving people.