Assimilating to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance
(Minghui.org) Before I began to practice Falun Dafa, I suffered from many ailments, including an immune system disorder, and had to use a wheelchair.
When my blood pressure dropped to 0, I lost consciousness, so I was taken to the emergency room and hospitalized for two weeks. There was no cure for what I had.
A neighbor visited me on August 4, 1994, gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun and suggested that I read it carefully. That night I had a dream that foretold I would return to good health. It was so vivid and clear that I decided to learn Falun Dafa.
Soon after, my health improved, which was confirmed by test results at the hospital about a month later. When I turned 47, I finally was illness free. My doctor asked me how I had improved so much, so I told her that I practiced Falun Dafa. She said that she wanted to learn it, too.
Representing the Goodness of Dafa
After I became a practitioner, I tried to be a good person and follow the Falun Dafa principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Everyone in my family witnessed and commented on the changes they saw in me.
When my mother-in-law became ill, I brought her to my home and took care of her. That really touched her. I treated my husband's siblings the same way. They all recognized that it was Dafa that changed me.
I moved in 2001 and thought I would let people know that I was a Falun Dafa practitioner. I also decided to demonstrate the demeanor of a practitioner by helping everyone. I told everyone that I practiced Falun Dafa.
When my neighbor, in her 90s, fractured a bone, her daughter was in a bind, so I offered to help and took the elderly lady to her appointments. My neighbor told other neighbors what a great help I had been.
Seeing that I gained a good reputation as a practitioner, I developed the attachment of feeling good about myself. In a dream, Master gave me a hint, but this did not help me find my attachment.
Then my husband said that he would have divorced me a long time ago if a divorce wasn't so expensive, and that, as far as he was concerned, I was just a free hourly maid. I felt wronged and could not understand why he had those thoughts. However, Master said to look inward when we run into conflicts.
When looking within, I remembered that, after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Dafa, my home was ransacked a few times, and I was illegally sentenced to four-and-a-half years. I realized that my husband had been subjected to a lot of mental pressure and fear.
Yet, I'd never thought about the situation from his standpoint. When I was imprisoned, I hardly thought about him and my son; instead it was all about my own cultivation and consummation.
This finally showed me that I had the attachment to selfishness. I realized that I needed to clarify the truth about Dafa to my family and help them understand that the persecution was wrong.
This was a wake-up call for me. I realized that I hadn't paid much attention to assimilating myself to the Fa. Instead I just went through the motions. Master had pointed out a few attachments, such as a show-off mentality, jealousy, and zealotry, but I hadn't paid attention.
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Master's Fa awakened me and I realized that only by assimilating myself to the Fa could I purify myself.
Fa-study Is the Foundation of Cultivation
I realized that one's state in Fa-study was also a reflection of one's realm of cultivation. One practitioner pointed out that my greatest attachment was my pursuit of cultivation. I remembered that I had started to memorize Zhuan Falun, but when I could not sense any obvious benefit, I stopped.
“… taking what I can give to you and what I can help you with, and compressing all of it into the book of Fa. The only thing left is to see if you want to obtain it.” (Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia)
I came to understand that Fa-study is the foundation of one's cultivation, and when that true thought came from deep down inside me, Master helped me. My cultivation state improved without my noticing it.
I stopped treating Fa-study as a task to complete and, instead, challenged myself with questions while I studied. I stopped planning how many chapters I would cover. When I was studying the Fa, I was very relaxed, but focused. If there was something I could not let go of, I would deal with that first before studying.
Changing My Husband's Attitude Towards Dafa
The improvement of one's xinxing is one's true elevation. My husband used to be addicted to travel and spent a lot of money on it. I always supported him, helping him prepare for his trip and doing his laundry when he returned.
Although he was a retired construction engineer, he never thought about fixing the crack in our own roof. I used to complain about such things, but then I stopped thinking like that. With Master's Fa, I was able to put myself in his shoes and be more understanding. He'd worked all his life and ended up with some savings. Since he was still doing well, it was better for him to take the opportunity to travel and do things that he enjoyed.
After I became fully supportive, he showed his appreciation for me in return. Before he went on a trip, he would check to make sure that my printer was not low on ink. He did quite a few other things for me that touched other practitioners who observed them. He understood what was most important to me.
Then I realized that he had stopped watching the fabricated news on television. He told his friends how kind I was as proof of how wonderful Falun Dafa is. He also sent his friends Falun Dafa DVDs or the software to break through the Internet firewall. He also gave an exercise DVD to one of his friends who wanted to learn Falun Dafa.
What was of importance to me was that he submitted his request to quit the CCP to the secretary of the CCP committee at the end of 2016.