Returning to Cultivation After Eight Years
(Minghui.org) I used to suffer from numerous illnesses and was interested in many Chinese healing techniques. I developed an interest in fortune-telling, qigong, and other Chinese healing methods. I also took up Buddhism, but after I came across Falun Dafa I immediately understood that this is the real Fa and began cultivation in Dafa.
By studying the Fa and cultivating my heart, I made breakthroughs layer after layer. Although I could not see with my celestial eye, I could feel that my gong was growing rapidly.
Work Unit Did Not Interfere with My Practice
Jiang Zemin, the former head of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), launched the persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999.
Officials from my work unit organized meetings where they vilified Dafa, but I didn't waver in my belief. I remained steadfast in my cultivation and followed the Dafa principles of “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.”
Officials and colleagues at my work unit were aware that I practice Falun Dafa. I refused to write the guarantee statement agreeing to renounce my faith, and my work unit did not interfere with my decision.
Given the hands-off attitude by officials in my work unit, I did not experience any problems from them.
The tribulations I faced were caused by my family. My husband was an atheist and deeply believed in the CCP. His sole aim in life was to make money and seek fame.
He didn't understand anything about cultivation. He was supportive when I first started practicing Falun Dafa, especially when he realized that I was a responsible family member, and it was to his benefit.
After the CCP started persecuting Falun Dafa practitioners he was afraid that his interests would be affected, so he stopped me from practicing.
I was not yet steadfast in my cultivation and had the attachment of competitiveness. I didn't really know how to address this issue from the Fa.
He vented his anger on me. He beat me, called me names, tore up my Dafa books, and would not allow me to contact other practitioners. I began to fear him and was afraid to do the exercises when he was around.
My husband's treatment of me got worse when another practitioner was arrested, and I was implicated. Thus, I resented him even more.
Losing my cultivation environment as well as the encouragement when sharing with other practitioners, I gradually developed the attachment to comfort. I lacked righteous thoughts and soon the attachments to eating, drinking alcohol and enjoying myself occupied most of my spare time.
I was dissociated from the Fa. How was I able to have a righteous mind? I was walking the path arranged by the old forces. It took eight years before I started practicing again.
Returning to Cultivation
“... I treasure you more than you treasure yourselves!” (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Master didn’t abandon me. Once a person steps on the path of Dafa cultivation, the thread has been connected. How could this easily be broken? Although I had slacked off in my cultivation, deep in my mind, I have never doubted Dafa.
I resumed my Fa-study at the end of 2011 and read Master’s lectures. I met with another practitioner who I previously knew, and she introduced me to an elderly practitioner. I knew this was arranged by Master.
This elderly practitioner was very diligent. She encouraged me, shared with me and let me join her Fa-study group. I soon melted into Dafa's cultivation environment again.
The bad substances in my mind were removed bit by bit in this field of righteous thoughts. I gave up my attachments to eating, drinking, and entertainment. I spent all of my spare time studying the Fa and letting people know about Dafa.
Clarifying the Facts About Dafa
I was lost in ordinary society for so long. How many of my sentient beings had lost the opportunity to be saved? They took great risk and descended to the human world, casting unlimited hope in me. If they could not be saved because of my lack of diligence, wouldn’t my heart hurt? And wouldn't I feel guilty?
I decided to go out with other practitioners to hand out truth clarification materials, talk to people about Dafa, and help them quit the CCP. I was able to let go of my attachment to fear in the process.
We were handing out materials once when I gave a man a leaflet. He promptly asked, “Do you know what I do?”
I thought, “No matter what you do for a living, you need to know the truth.” I told him that we are doing good things, and he accepted the leaflet.
One time, I handed a man some materials and a DVD that contained “Truth about Jiang Zemin.” After we moved on, he caught up with us and thanked us for the materials. He said that we had saved him. He told us that he had worked in the county branch of the CCP, and realized that today's society was too corrupt.
He had badmouthed his superiors and Jiang Zemin and was forced from his job. He was stuck at home feeling depressed. He felt nobody could understand him and he found life to be hopeless. The Dafa materials we gave him spoke to his heart. We continued to talk about Dafa and helped him quit the Party. He was moved to tears and kept thanking us.
Protected by Master
We clarified the facts in the city for two years, then decided to go to the countryside to clarify the facts, as there were very few practitioners there.
We covered every village within a hundred mile radius and went out regardless if it was the cold of winter or hot summer.
We had been chased by the police but were not arrested, because Master protected us.
I am no longer afraid when clarifying the facts to people, especially to those in the government. Some have quit the Party, while others were afraid to listen to me. I was not discouraged and looked for opportunities to further clarify the facts.
I was tempered in this process and gradually became more and more mature. I used to be frightened away upon hearing a dog barking and refused to go out at night. Now, I walk on the mountain roads with fellow practitioners and no longer hold the attachment to fear.
I send righteous thoughts to eliminate interference from other dimensions every time before we set out. I also watch my tone of voice and hold a compassionate heart when talking to people. Everything has gone quite smoothly over these past years.