Paying Attention to Small Things
(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for 23 years, and I thought I had gotten rid of many attachments. Recently, however, some seemingly minor things happened in my everyday life, which helped me identify several strong attachments.
“...you shouldn’t treat the little issues you have like they are nothing. The evil will seize upon any gaps. Many practitioners have even passed away on account of little things; it really was due to something very minor. That’s because cultivation is something serious, and requires having no gaps. If for a long time you haven’t dealt with those things through cultivation, small as they may be, if you haven’t taken them seriously for a prolonged period of time, then it is a big issue. Many people have passed away on account of such things.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference”)
I've read this paragraph many times, but I didn't pay attention. An article I recently read on the Minghui website helped point out things I'd been overlooking in my cultivation. I began to pay attention to my every thought, word, and everything I did. I eliminated anything that did not meet the Fa's standards. In the process, I found that there are often large attachments hidden behind minor things.
For instance, I got upset with my daughter for taking a shower immediately after she came home from work, which is usually when I'm making dinner. The bathroom and kitchen share the same pipe. As a result, I could not use water in the kitchen or else my daughter wouldn't have hot water for her shower.
I also felt bitter when I had to do most of the household chores. I felt that this took up a lot of my time and affected my cultivation. I resented my daughter for not helping me with the housework and taking care of her children. Sometimes, I got into an argument with her and looked down on her when I saw her shortcomings.
Whenever I was upset, I remembered Master's teachings and looked at things from the perspective of a practitioner. I realized that this resentment came from my attachment to self. Master taught us to be selfless and considerate of others.
After I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate these attachments, I felt all the negative feelings – bitterness, resentment and so on leave my body. I could feel my dimension fill with compassion.