Two Letters to My Family During the Persecution
(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa (also known as Falun Gong) on April 23, 1996. During the following two decades, I witnessed and experienced so many miracles in Dafa, and Master endowed me with boundless compassion. I have so many stories and so many thoughts to share.
Today I would like to express my own and my family's gratitude towards Master and Dafa by telling some stories centered around two letters to my family.
Letter to My Husband on the Day I Was Taken to the Forced Labor Camp
This letter was written in June 2000 while I was held at the detention center for about two months, and was going to be taken to a labor camp. The police took me out of the detention center. One nice policeman gave me a piece of paper and a pen and asked me to write something to my family.
I had no time to give it much thought, so I wrote the following on the back of the paper.
“August 2, 2000
How are you?
I am going to City X and might stay there for one year. I have no regrets. You have your rights. If you really want to divorce me, please don't worry about my feelings. You've sacrificed much for me and I know that clearly.
Our daughter is very understanding, so please guide her positively and get along with her.
I firmly believe that all those who suffered for me will be rewarded in the end.
P.S. Please do not bribe anyone to resolve my issue, as I am walking my own path.Please forward my greetings to other family members.”
The front of the paper read, “Records of the Interrogated Witness.” Obviously, it was the same stationery used in the police office. I could tell that this policeman was trying to give me a hand. I heard him say angrily, “They are not doing anything right. All they do is arrest old ladies.”
In later years, he tried his best to help me out when I was harassed and arrested. He didn't want to sell out his conscience, so he eventually quit his job as a police officer. I've heard that he is now doing very well.
Before I practiced Falun Dafa, my husband was a drunkard who got into fights outside, then came home to smash things, beat me, and disturb our neighbors.
He once was too drunk to find his way home and slept in the snow. One time he was so drunk he rolled the car over and off the road.
Another time, he had a fight with my mother, who was helping us take care of our daughter. He smashed things and broke the TV set. Just then my mother-in-law came in, but she turned away when she saw such a sight. She didn't blame her son, nor did she offer me any comfort me.
The year after we got married, I had an argument with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law on Chinese New Year's Eve, while we were making dumplings together. I was angry and went to stay in another room. They all ignored me. I wanted to go back to my mother's home, but I dared not leave on my own. I was very angry and threw a teapot on the floor. My husband heard the noise and came inside to give me a severe beating. No one stopped him. My husband's classmate who came to visit us was very scared when he saw blood on my face and all over me.
I didn't go back to my mother's home after this conflict; instead, I took my daughter to a former classmate's home. I was not going to live with my husband. However, my husband didn't come to see me. It was my classmate and her husband who brought him to me. He didn't admit his mistake. I went home with him out of consideration for our daughter.
My classmate was very angry and asked, “Why did you marry such a man?”
I was a class monitor at school, excellent in my studies and all kinds of school activities. I was selected as a model employee and earned all kinds of awards at work. But I encountered such difficulties at home.
I wondered: I am still young, but life was already so exhausting. What am I living for? I couldn't understand it. When I couldn't bear it anymore, I lay in bed crying to relieve the pain in my heart, until I felt I couldn't cry anymore.
At the time, my family was on the verge of splitting up.
I was very curious about Falun Dafa after watching videos of Master's first lecture. I went on watching Master's Fa teaching videos until I finished all nine lectures. Master helped me understand what people live for and that we should consider others and kindly treat everyone around us. I realized that my family unhappiness is closely related to my fighting mentality and competitiveness, so I must change myself.
I was determined to practice Falun Dafa and have never changed my firm belief in it even during the cruel persecution, while separated from my family and facing a crisis of life-and-death. It's because I understand the significance of life, that my family and I benefit from Dafa. I am so grateful to Master and Dafa!
After I practiced Falun Dafa, I became lighthearted, able to consider others and work hard both in and out of the home. My family became very harmonious; things went well at work; I became very healthy and never felt tired.
From the Fa principles, I understand that it's our predestined relationships that brought us together into one family. I regarded my mother-in-law as my own mother and sister-in-law as my own sister.
Half a year later, my mother-in-law also started to cultivate Falun Dafa. She had serious heart disease before she became a practitioner and had to routinely take several fast-acting pills for temporary relief whenever her heart acted up. Four days after she started cultivation practice, her heart problems disappeared.
My mother-in-law was illiterate before she practiced Falun Dafa. One day on my visit to her home, my sister-in-law exclaimed, “Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, it's miraculous, miraculous! Our mother is now able to read 'On Dafa' in Zhuan Falun!”
My husband witnessed our changes and the wonder of Falun Dafa. If I couldn't get up on time for morning practice, he would wake me. Before the CCP started persecuting Falun Gong, one of his friends who was a policeman told him, “Tell your wife to be alert. I've heard that the government is going to take some actions against Falun Gong.”
My husband responded with great confidence and righteousness, “What's wrong with Falun Gong? My wife no longer quarrels with me since she started practicing Falun Gong. And she works harder than ever.”
After the CCP started persecuting Falun Gong, I was constantly harassed, arrested, and detained. Consequently, my husband was affected and suffered great pressure from his workplace, my workplace, and the local 610 Office. Moreover, he had to take care of our daughter. Our family was faced with the threat of collapse. I didn't want to see my husband live under such huge pressure, so I thought I'd better live with the pain on my own. I said to him, “Let's get a divorce.”
My husband was very pained, but he said, “We've been through so much together for such a long time. If I'd wanted that, I would have done it earlier.”
I witnessed the wonder of Dafa once again.
Not long after I was released from the labor camp, a practitioner asked me, “Do you still remember that a fortuneteller told you that you were going to divorce at age 37? You were exactly 37 years old when you were taken to the forced labor camp, right?”
That's right. I believe that Master and Dafa changed my fate.
When the CCP started persecuting Falun Gong, my mother-in-law slacked off in cultivation due to the pressure. As a result, her old ailments came back. One time, I took her to a clinic near my home for a one-week treatment. On the last day at the clinic, I talked about Falun Gong to the doctor.
He changed his attitude immediately and responded very angrily.
“Do not talk about Falun Gong to me. Isn't X a Falun Gong practitioner?” he said.
The person he mentioned was not doing well, but that person had already quit the practice by then.
I explained to him, “A teacher has many students. Some are good students, some bad, some even might become very successful experts, while some might turn evil. But would you judge this teacher as not good simply for his bad students? It's just because the bad students didn't follow his teacher's requirements, right?”
The doctor changed his attitude and said, “You are right!”
I continued, “My mother-in-law...”
He interrupted me and said in surprise, “This is your mother-in-law?”
He thought my mother-in-law was my own mother. I went on to tell him the facts about Falun Gong and he was very willing to listen.
He had learned some techniques about how to tell a person's past and future. He figured out that I had visited a fortuneteller before I practiced Falun Dafa.
He was very taken aback and told me, “You were doomed to divorce, but more than that.”
The doctor then made gestures on his arm and his leg mimicking amputation.
“It's your Master who protected you!” he said.
He and his family later all quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
I firmly believe that Master protects me all the time. Nowadays, due to humanity's moral corruption, divorce is very common. If I didn't practice Falun Dafa, who knows where my competitiveness and fighting mentality would have led me. Thank you, Master, for your compassion.
Letter to My Daughter a Month after I Was Taken to the Forced Labor Camp
“September 13, 2000.
My little girl, how are you?
The new semester has started. You must be busy studying, right? I, your mom, have received your best wishes to me from your aunt. I know you've been burdened much more than most people your age. But I know that your sacrifices will eventually be rewarded.
Mom only hopes that you are able to restrain yourself and walk every step well during the time she is not accompanying you. Mom also hopes that you are able to adjust yourself to your current living state, and relax. Everything will be fine and you will be able to do everything well.
No matter how much I say, it's ultimately up to you how to behave. I believe that you will not let down your mom and your family. Your mom believes that you will do well.
That's it for this letter. I hope my little girl is able to handle herself well.
My daughter has been immersed in the Buddha Fa since her childhood. When Dafa and Dafa practitioners suffered cruel persecution in China, her child's heart was always connected with Dafa. When the CCP defamed Falun Dafa through nationwide TV programs, my daughter watched it and said, “All nonsense!”
When I was determined to go to Beijing to safeguard Dafa, my daughter hugged me, bade farewell to me and gave me much confidence.
During my detainment in the labor camp, my daughter was in middle school. I wrote letters to encourage my husband and daughter and told them, “I did nothing wrong, so you shouldn't feel shamed.”
I also told my daughter to study hard.
I wrote to my daughter in a letter, “Same as fellow practitioners detained here, Mom has a clear conscience. I know that the current status won't last long. We will reunite when the truth is clear to the world.”
I was released after 14 months. Because I refused to be transformed, they added 2 months to my period of detainment. When I returned home, my daughter's academic performance improved and she was among the top in her class.
One time at a parent-teacher conference while my daughter was in high school, her head teacher and individual course teachers all gave high praise to her character. They shared with me some of her good behaviors at school.
For instance, she collected empty water bottles in class and sold them, and then purchased ice cream for her classmates. My daughter is in a class for high academic achievers, instead of an arts class or sports class. However, my daughter was good at studying, painting, music, sports and all kinds of school activities.
She wished to be admitted to an academy of arts and had to receive training in Beijing before taking college-admittance exams. At the time, I was under great pressure spiritually, physically and financially due to persecution, so I didn't accompany her while she was studying in Beijing.
She spent the Chinese New Year alone in Beijing for two consecutive years. In junior year of high school, she studied in Beijing for half a year. She rented an underground room in order to save costs. I encouraged and told her that “all sufferings have their rewards.”
One day at noon, when I came back home from work, police officers awaited me at our apartment building entrance and wanted to take me to the police station. My daughter was at home at the time.
She heard the noise, and then went downstairs and asked the police, “Why are you taking my mom away?”
One policeman told a lie, “For nothing. We just want to verify something, and then will have her come back home.”
My daughter said loudly, “When have you police honored your promises? You are not allowed to take my mom with you. My mom must stay with me.”
Before I practiced cultivation in Dafa, I went to a fortune teller to ask about my daughter's fate. That fortune teller told me that my daughter had no good fate in academics. Just at the time when she was going to take the exams for college admittance, a fortune teller who was my husband's friend visited our home. At dinner, he told us my daughter should stay away from the stars and the moon. We were not moved at all, as we believed that heaven would bless whoever treats Dafa kindly.
My daughter eventually realized her dream and was admitted to the best art academy. Just as I told her, her suffering was finally rewarded.
I accompanied my daughter to her art school, where I met one of her classmates and her parents. My daughter got to know them in Beijing, during the time when they received training together. That girl's parents accompanied her all the time during the training period.
One of them asked me, “Why is your daughter doing so great? Those students who had no parents accompany them either went to the Internet bar or lived together with their girlfriend or boyfriend after class. However, your daughter only focused on studying.”
My daughter was admitted to an art school in France after five years of study in college. She realized her childhood wish: to go and study in the art paradise of Paris.
It's Falun Dafa, the Buddha Fa, that changed my life and my family. Just as I shared in my opening paragraph, I have witnessed and experienced so many miracles within Dafa, and Master has endowed me with boundless compassion.
I have so many stories to share with, but I will share only one more here.
Master gave me so many things, so I burned incense to Master. Not long ago while I was burning incense, I saw dust on top of the cupboard that I had the altar on. I tried to wipe it off with a cloth, but couldn't.
I examined it carefully and was surprised to find that it was a rainbow! It made me recall a conversation with my daughter. One time, when she met with difficulties in France, she called me in the morning and wept.
I comforted her and said, “A rainbow always appears after the storm.”
More and more people of conscience are getting to know the facts about Falun Dafa and the CCP's cruel persecution of Falun Dafa. More and more attorneys are standing up to defend Dafa practitioners. It's an unprecedented phenomenon of great courage ever since the evil CCP began its horrible tyranny in China.
Many storms have already passed, so is the rainbow far from us?
As Master's Dafa disciple, I must do the three things diligently, diligently and even more diligently, and save more sentient beings to live up to Master's compassion, honor my prehistoric vows and see Master smile.
Thank you, great and compassionate Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners.