Estrangement with Coordinator Resolved
(Minghui.org) Over time and for several reasons, I became alienated from the local coordinator. It became so intense that at one point I could not calm my heart after group Fa study, and I could not become tranquil during meditation and exercise. My brain was filled with images of her unkindness, condescension, blaming others, and more.
I knew my thoughts were interference. I wanted to resolve this conflict and end an estrangement that had lasted almost eight years. I asked Master to reinforce my determination to dissolve this separation between her and me.
I thought it was time to resolve the problem between us when the evil started the “Door Knocking Movement.” We have only two truth material centers in our area—the coordinator had one and I had one. The evil could take advantage of our differences. For the safety of the group and sentient beings, I believed that we had to face our problems and get them resolved.
It began many years ago. A practitioner from another county encouraged me to set up a material production site in my home. I lived in a suburb and was relatively safe. This practitioner knew IT and came to talk with our coordinator about this; she would not agree. Even though they knew each other and got along well in the past, the practitioner and our coordinator clashed on this. We set up the materials site anyway without her support. After this, the coordinator gave me a hard time about many things.
No matter I did, right or wrong, she would ignore me. I cultivated with a heavy heart. I was filled with resentment, jealousy, and selfishness.
A short while ago, however, I awakened after I watched Master's lecture for Australia practitioners. To save sentient beings and do Master’s work, I had to look within and let go of my human heart. I had to measure myself with the Fa and really pay attention to my thoughts.
I decided to pay the coordinator a visit and I asked Master to support me. Much to my surprise, she was very friendly. She apologized for taking too much responsibility for projects. She expressed regret that she was not patient, lost her temper often, caused difficulties for others, and generated divisions among the group. She read an article about a coordinator who was not a good teacher, parent or leader and they made mistakes like everyone else. The article said that one should pay attention to cultivating oneself, rectifying one's shortcomings, and trying their best not to cause any losses for Dafa.
We talked for three hours and both looked within. The separation between us was gone! I was moved by her kind words. I felt that I had deviated from the Fa without even being aware of it. Master had given me the magic tool of looking within, but I did not pay attention and had wasted so much time.
Master told us:
“Cultivation is about working on the human mind and heart; it is about cultivating oneself. Only when you are able to examine yourself, looking inward amid problems, conflicts, difficulties, or when being treated unfairly, is it true cultivation. And only by doing so will you be constantly improving, staying the right course on your cultivation journey, and progressing toward consummation!” (A Congratulatory Letter to the Fa Conference of Taiwan)
I want to be a true cultivator. I will eliminate all human hearts and attachments and do my best to fulfill my prehistoric vow.