Improving by Looking Inward to Save More Sentient Beings
(Minghui.org) I had a miserable life before taking up cultivation in Falun Dafa. Two years after marrying my husband, he became mentally ill and started abusing me every day.
Fortunately, a friend of mine introduced Falun Dafa to me in 1998, and I began to cultivate myself based on Dafa. Seeing the positive changes in me, my mother-in-law also started practicing Dafa.
After the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Dafa in 1999, I went to appeal for the right to practice Dafa. I was arrested, sentenced to forced labor, and released in 2001.
My husband kicked me out, and my daughter and I had to stay in my sister-in-law’s small storage room. We lived there until my husband’s condition deteriorated in March 2017, when we took him to a mental hospital for treatment. After that, my daughter and I moved in with my mother-in-law.
Searching Inside Myself
My mother-in-law has a large courtyard that takes a lot to keep up. I worked during the day and did household chores and cared for her after that. I did not always have extra time to do yard work. My mother-in-law would be upset with me when the yard work was not done. Sometimes, she would be upset with me for days for no obvious reason.
I searched inside myself and realized that my mother-in-law was like a mirror–I also held grudges over very small matters. Since then, I treated her with even more compassion.
She was upset with me again for several days, though I was unable to discover what I'd done wrong. After we both went to bed one night, she sat up with her face on her legs. Then she began to sing while clapping her hands. I knew right away that evil elements in other dimensions were interfering with her, so I told her to send forth righteous thoughts, but she refused.
I began to send forth righteous thoughts myself, but that did not help. I was scared, but very quickly I was able to calm myself down when my righteous thoughts arose. Being a Dafa disciple, nothing could interfere me.
I brought Teacher’s portrait to her and said, “Who is this? Ask Teacher to save you!”
Her main consciousness came back immediately, and she shouted, “Teacher, save me!”
We both sent forth righteous thoughts together asking Teacher to strengthen us. She was fine about 20 minutes later. We went back to sleep.
“In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, "How can this person treat me like this?" Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work. There is another issue. In conflicts, the issue of transforming karma is involved. Therefore, in dealing with specific conflicts we should be forgiving instead of acting like ordinary people.” (Zhuan Falun)
After gaining the enlightenment that cultivation is a serious matter and that I must pay back what I owe, I reminded myself to search inside myself every time a conflict occurs. My mother-in-law also practices Dafa, so we should form one body. Not only should I treat her the same way as my biological mother, but I should also do my best to help her to gain a better understanding of the Fa.
I began to read articles from Minghui website and shared my understanding with her. I told her that, as Dafa disciples in the Fa-rectification period, we must have a strong tie with Dafa. We signed contracts with Teacher before coming down to this world to assist Teacher to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings.
I explained to her that the articles we read told us how fellow practitioners save sentient beings and that that was why I went out to tell people about Dafa every day. I must do what Teacher wants us to do. I told her that we could work together as a team: I could go out while she sent forth righteous thoughts for me at home.
She was deeply touched by Teacher’s teaching and practitioners’ articles. I knew that if I cultivated genuinely and put others’ needs before mine, my environment would improve. My mother-in-law began to cultivate more diligently.
The Lost List Was Found
I went to a market with a few other practitioners to distribute calendars that contained information about Falun Dafa and its persecution by the Chinese Communist Party. One practitioner offered to drive her van, so we could bring more than 800 copies.
A vendor asked for a copy of the calendar. I gave her one and told her the facts of Dafa and the persecution. The vendor next to her also asked for a calendar to give to his son. He agreed to quit the Communist Party after I told him about the crimes it has committed in history and in its current-day persecution of Falun Dafa.
A gentleman came over and said, “I want another calendar. Someone snatched away the one you gave me earlier, and this time I’ll make sure that no one sees it.” He was a retired government official, and I had helped him quit the Party last time we went there.
While busy talking to people, I realized that I could not find the piece of paper with a list of 50 names of those who had agreed to quit the Party that day. My mind went blank. What a loss it would be if I had really lost that list! I thought of calling it a day since my mind was not clear, but I quickly realized that it was interference. No matter what attachments I still had, the evil could not interfere with me. I only believed in Teacher, who arranges everything for me.
Teacher told us, “By having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all situations...” (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)”, Essentials for Further Advancements II)
After handing out all the calendars, I began to search inside myself on my way home. I found out that I had the attachment of zealotry. When so many people wanted our calendars, the attachment surfaced, so the evil took advantage of the gap to interfere with me. I asked Teacher to help transport the list back to me.
When I got home, my sister, also a practitioner, told me that they had found the list in the trunk of the van. I knew Teacher had used this opportunity to help me get rid of my attachments.
Helping People Quit the CCP Before Chinese New Year
One week before the Chinese New Year, people were busy shopping or traveling back home to celebrate the holiday with their families. A few local practitioners and I went to a farmer’s market outside the city to inform people of Falun Dafa and the persecution. We took DVDs, posters, brochures and other materials with us.
I gave a gentleman a sign with the Chinese character for “Happiness” and told him, “The CCP persecutes Falun Dafa and has tortured so many Chinese people to death. Its officials are very corrupt. Heaven will hold it accountable for its crimes. If you quit the Party, you would be following Heaven’s will.”
He agreed to quit the Party. I also told him to remember “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
I went over to talk to a group of people who were chatting together. I gave them small Dafa keepsakes and other informational materials. I told them about the persecution of Dafa and helped them quit the Communist Party and its youth organizations. After our conversation, they left. It was as if they had been waiting for me.
“Everything has been prepared, and all that’s missing is for you to carry it out.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference.”)
I helped approximately 500 people quit the CCP that week.