Changing My Notions and Finally Becoming a Truly Selfless Person
(Minghui.org) I was greatly troubled when I realized that I was still selfish even though I had cultivated for years. I had worked hard to eliminate my attachment to protecting my self interest, but it was difficult to get rid of. When I examined myself I noticed that all my thoughts were selfish, even when I was doing the three things.
One day I read an article on Minghui about how a practitioner decided that she would cultivate as though she had just started. It suddenly dawned on me that I should become an altruistic person starting today. I would change my attitude and start each day eager to learn and become a selfless person.
The basis of my cultivation had always been selfishness, even when I said that I wished to be altruistic. I decided to set aside my past notions, and become truly altruistic. I would stop being afraid that I hadn't reached that level. I wanted to be selfless no matter how much I stumbled in the process.
This thought completely changed my cultivation state. I developed a new view of everything and everybody. I didn't need to deliberately change my thoughts. Everything around me changed naturally.
For example, there is an elderly practitioner in my Fa study group. When it was another person's turn to read the Fa aloud, she read at the same time, but at a different pace. Everyone was annoyed to hear two voices reading two different sentences. I used to be annoyed too, and tried to stop her. However, as soon as I changed my notions, I suddenly realized that she had poor hearing, and couldn't hear the other person's voice. She continued to read along because she was afraid of being left behind. She was just trying to overcome her own difficulty.
This same practitioner comes to my home for group Fa study very early in the morning before I get up. I used to be embarrassed to open the door with messy hair, and see her standing at the door. I usually got her situated and started her breakfast, and then I went back to sleep. I used to complain about how inconsiderate she was in the back of my mind, but now I find her so precious. She lives far away, so she leaves home as early as possible to avoid being late. Her pure wish to study the Fa is so wonderful! As her fellow practitioner, isn't it my responsibility to help her? Ever since I changed my mindset, I do my best to help her improve. The other practitioners say I'm very patient with her. She now has a better understanding of solid cultivation and has corrected a lot of her misunderstandings. She is especially thankful for my help, and says that Master arranged for me to help her.
I'm amazed at how I've improved! I no longer feel that cultivation is hard. It's now easy to be considerate and helpful, as easy as drinking a cup of tea.
I was surprised that some health problems which bothered me for years have now disappeared. I extended the length of time I did the second exercise. When I doubled the time that I did the exercise, I noticed an immediate improvement in my cultivation. In addition to the improvement in my health, I need less sleep, but I'm more energetic. My righteous thoughts became more powerful, and I can send righteous thoughts for a long time. The powerful energy I send out eliminates the evil and negative substances, and the sky is filled with golden light. It's a magnificent scene.
I personally experienced what Master described,“When your character improves, other things rise along with it.” (The Second Talk from Zhuan Falun) (Translation Edition (Feb. 2003, North America))
Changing my notions has made such a huge difference in my cultivation. Master must be waiting for us to improve so that he can push us to higher levels quickly and have us play a bigger role in Fa rectification.
The above is my limited understanding. Please feel free to point out anything inappropriate.