Facing the Attachment of Fear with Righteous Thoughts
(Minghui.org) I am a veteran practitioner who began my Falun Dafa cultivation practice in 1996. During these years of ups and downs, I have made it through one trial and tribulation after another thanks to Master’s continuous protection. This has demonstrated the magnificence and the mighty power of Dafa.
My city had a big snow fall in late November 2015. It was not particularly cold, and the snow started melting the next day. The road conditions were slippery and walking about was difficult. Darkness fell at around 7:00 p.m., and I wanted to pick up some truth clarification materials from a fellow practitioner’s home that day. My husband wanted to go to his colleague’s home to take care of some business, so he suggested that we use the elevator to go downstairs.
I loaded the materials on my back at the fellow practitioner’s home and began to walk home right away with both hands in the pockets of my cotton jacket.
I took a shortcut by walking along the area close to the garden section of our local district. It is an arbor area in the summer with a marble stone tile path in the middle and chairs lining both sides of the path. The path was covered in thick white snow, without a trace of human footprints.
I was walking hurriedly and suddenly fell down, landing in a seated position in the snow. I was shocked by this unexpected fall, and I suddenly felt something hot in my lower abdomen cavity rushing into my throat. I wanted to vomit. Instinctively, I didn’t open my mouth and I was thinking about what had happened to me.
I immediately shouted, “Save me, Master.” Soon after, this passage of Fa entered my mind:
“‘I'm Li Hongzhi's disciple, I don't want other arrangements or acknowledge them’” (“Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)
I started sending forth righteous thoughts continuously. I tried to get up from the snow but slipped again and started swirling in the snow. I was thinking, “I am a Dafa disciple and I do things to validate Dafa. I deny the arrangements of the old forces. I have my Master and I cultivate myself in the Fa.” I finally managed to grasp the chair and stand up.
I struggled to arrive home via the elevator without knowing how I made it. My husband had not returned at that time so I took off my wet trousers and started to send forth righteous thoughts cross-legged for more than an hour. The hot feeling gradually subsided and eventually disappeared.
When I turned over while sleeping that night, I felt indescribable severe pain from the organs inside my abdomen, and I was shivering and sweating all over. The next morning I got up to do the exercises. As I was moving downward following the energy mechanisms, my internal body parts felt like they were being suspended like pendulums swimming back and forth without being supported. The pain was truly hard to bear.
I then recited the Fa:
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughtsMaster has the power to turn back the tide”(“The Master-Disciple Bond” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
“‘When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.’ In fact, that is how it is. Why don’t you give it a try when you return home. When you are overcoming a real hardship or tribulation, you try it. When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it. When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible. If you can actually do it, you will indeed find: ‘After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!’” (Zhuan Falun)
I recovered a few days later.
After such a bad fall, I felt that nothing is a coincidence, and began to look inward. I found the attachment of fear. I always worried about this and that, and I had difficulty facing others and validating the Fa in an upright manner. I had grown accustomed to being timid all the time. I didn’t want my husband to see me when I went out to pick up truth clarification materials, so I walked home in a hurry.
The old forces spotted the gap in my cultivation and used my attachments to put me in this tribulation. My Master saved me and bore it for me.
As a practitioner, I have no words to express my gratitude to Master. I can only steadily cultivate away my attachment of fear. I want to use this opportunity to expose it completely. As long as I treat it with righteous thoughts, nothing should be able to stop my from coming through it.
I won't let down Master’s compassionate salvation. I want to walk well on the final part of my path.