Experiencing Tribulations Due to a Lack of Diligence
(Minghui.org) My elder sister visited in February 1999 and introduced Falun Dafa to me. However, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started persecuting Falun Dafa just a few months later, so I gave up practicing out of fear. Besides, I was healthy and did not feel that it was beneficial to me.
My sister called and encouraged me to resume practicing Dafa in May 2006. I had suffered from inflammation of the kidney and upper urinary tract, as well as frequent fever. Although I had looked for treatment, I found no relief.
My sister convinced me about Dafa's extraordinary power, and I resumed my cultivation path. My health greatly improved within two years.
When experiencing a karmic tribulation, however, I stopped reading the Dafa books, and did not tell my sister that I was no longer practicing cultivation.
My kidney problems bothered me again in February 2009. My body was swollen and I felt cold even in summer. The hospitals would not accept me. I was bedridden and just waiting for death!
My family had spent all their savings on my treatments and was deeply in debt. My husband, his mother, and my two kids were worried, and the atmosphere at home was very depressing.
My sister visited me again and told me to stop being selfish and only think of myself. What about my small children, and my husband's needs? She urged me to get back on the cultivation path. My sister stayed for more than 10 days to help me return to being a diligent practitioner.
Again, I read the Dafa books, sent righteous thoughts and talked to people about the goodness of Falun Dafa, as well as the brutality of the CCP's persecution.
Once feeling well again, I slacked off in cultivation and did not strictly follow the requirements of Dafa. I even badmouthed people behind their back. I not only created karma by doing so, but also created a loophole for the old forces to attack me. I suffered pain in my right leg for two years and could not attend the group Fa study.
My husband bought me a scooter, so I could clarify the truth about Dafa every morning. But, I fell off the scooter and had to stay at home for a month to recover.
I finally looked inside and found that I was selfish, attached to fame, profit, sentiment, showing off and other attachments. After looking within, I was determined to remove my bad thoughts and attachments. Master saw my determination, and I gained insight into some of the Fa principles.
I understood that one must have steadfast belief in Master and the Fa, correct each and every thought and action, look inside unconditionally, and wholeheartedly follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.