(Minghui.org) Greetings Master and fellow practitioners!

I started doing the Falun Dafa exercises with my parents when I was five-years-old. My parents had immigrated to the US when they were 10 and 11 years old. My three siblings and I were born in the San Francisco Bay Area and the six of us practice Dafa. My dad was the first to become a cultivator, because he thought it was very good, so we followed along.

Because I was young, I had no concept what cultivation was all about. Back then, practitioners’ organized a Minghui school every weekend at someone's home. Some kids were about my age. They all could read Zhuan Falun in Chinese, with some needing no help. My family conversed in English and spoke Cantonese with our grandma, so my Chinese language skills were nonexistent.

When I first looked at the Chinese language book the characters looked like a bunch of black dots. I even opened the book in the wrong direction. When I see the other kids read, I also wanted to learn and read in Chinese.

The Chinese language has deep meaning behind each character. Moreover, this is Master’s Fa, so I hope to be able to read it one day. Back then, I also did not know that there were simplified and traditional versions of the book. As one book’s black dots somehow looked better, I chose to read the traditional version of Zhuan Falun.

One day my dad obtained an English version of Zhuan Falun. Now, I often go back and forth between the Chinese and English versions of Zhuan Falun.

My father helps me understand the surface thought when I have a problem making any sense of what I read. But, I know that the deepness of the Fa could only be enlightened on one’s own. Everyone’s understanding is a little different.

Dance Is a Form of Cultivation

When I was nine years old, our parents wanted us to get to know more about Chinese tradition. They suggested us girls learn Chinese dance. I did not know it would be so painful. The teachers had us do the splits on the first day of class, but I could not do it. Student B had started the class earlier than I did, so she could do the splits. She encouraged me, saying that I did better than she did that first time. I thought that was impossible. Because of the pain, I could not talk, while she talked up a storm with student A while doing the splits.

The following week, I told the aunties that I did not want to take a dance class. To be honest, I was afraid of hardship and did not want to endure the pain. Those aunties told me hardships were a good thing. As cultivators we needed to eliminate karma and accumulate virtue, this is a good opportunity. Students A and B were able to perform well because they worked hard.

I recited Master's poem“Tempering the Will” from Hong Yin many times, but only now do I understand it. If I missed this chance, I would regret it later, so I endured.

We practiced every week for a few hours. First, we stretched and warmed up on the bars. Then, we leaned against the mirrors to do handstands, followed by splits, kicks, tumbling, and so on.

The teachers spoke in Mandarin, and my peers translated for me. After class I would feel sore for several days, and once I had recovered I had class again. I attended dance school for about two years and realized that dance is also a form of cultivation. If I wanted to dance well, I would have to suffer – no loss no gain.

Attending dance class helped me discover many attachments, including jealousy, showing off, zealotry, competitiveness, and so on.

My biggest attachment was fear – fear of pain, fear of getting hurt, and fear of getting tired. I looked at students A and B as my role models and wanted to be like them – smart, able to understand the teacher, and dance well. I thought they could learn quickly because they had less karma. I now realize that I did not try as hard as they did. After getting home, I only thought about relaxing, while they practiced.

I had thought the three of us would walk the same cultivation path. Cultivation is not just tempering the body, but also oneself. I needed to change my way of thinking to improve.

Xinxing Cultivation Most Difficult

My dad wanted us to prepare a few performances for Dafa’s upcoming events. My siblings and other practitioners’ children participated in countless parades. Lots of ordinary people surrounded us with smiling faces. Behind us were the Dafa flags and banners. We also had an opportunity to perform. We gained in two ways during every event.

One year the NTD television Chinese New Year Gala came to perform in San Francisco. For promoting that event, our dad had us perform everywhere. Every weekend we performed on the streets, sidewalks, shopping malls, fairgrounds, libraries, and so on. At the beginning, it was fun and interesting, but over time we were getting tired.

When going to a different place we had to consider the performance environment. Sometimes the ground was rough, dirty, or slippery. For our safety, we often changed some dance moves at the last minute. When it rained halfway through our dance, we kept going. Once we flew to New York in the winter to perform. There was already some snow on the streets, but we danced in thin clothes.

On a Christmas Eve, we performed at San Francisco’s Union Square for eight hours, from noon until eight p.m. That was our longest performance ever. Back then the youngest performer was my two-year-old sister. The audience kept encouraging us, giving us the strength to keep dancing.

I think my xinxing cultivation was most difficult when I see ordinary kids relax on the weekends having fun. Every weekend if I was not doing truth clarification, I took a class. During long vacations, my peers would have fun, while I studied or promoted Shen Yun. I know that I’m doing something extraordinary, but others’ carefree days still appeal to me. Every time I wanted to give up, I thought of the practitioners being persecuted in China. They live in a dangerous environment, while I am safe in the United States. I had no right to complain.

Everyone's Path Is Different

When I was 13, I went to the mountain to be tested for Shen Yun with students A and B. We did not meet the height requirement for females, but the teachers noticed that we were not dance novices, so they let us stay. Every day we practiced dance, rehearsed, did group exercises, read the Fa, and took regular classes.

This was my first time experiencing this wonderful environment where cultivation and dance complemented each other. Before, I trained on and off, so my improvement was slow. Now, we trained daily from morning to night. In addition, Master personally corrected our movements, so everyone improved very fast.

When I see my peers training to the point of extreme pain and did not give up, I would be moved to tears. I also felt Master silently helping me cleanse my body a little bit at a time. In this environment, everyone helped, cared for, and supported each other. Words like “tired, hard work, and giving up” were not to be used. The longer I stayed there the more I felt that this is reality. My memories of school in the ordinary world felt like a dream.

My most memorable experience was when we rehearsed the entire show for the first time. The teachers sat at the front, with Master in the middle. I took part in only two dances. In the first dance, I was a small fairy with a flute, a short role. In the last dance, I became nervous and forgot my dance movements.

I tried to maintain a compassionate expression while looking straight ahead, but Master was also right there, so I started to feel nervous. I felt the spotlight, eyes, sentient beings, including Master, looking at me alone. I was so nervous that I started shaking and did not synchronize with the dancers behind me. However, after seeing Master my thoughts became more righteous. I realized that there are countless gods at various levels who watch over us as we cultivate.

About two months later, a teacher asked student B and me to step outside for a chat. She told us that our parents would come to take us back home. Student A could stay because she was the tallest, but we were still far from the height requirement. I saw that Student B nodded in understanding, while I broke into tears. Two weeks later student B’s mom came to take us home.

On my return home, I could not figure out why I was rejected. Many thoughts went through my mind. I thought that it was not just a height problem, but also my last performance? Or, I did not do well in my cultivation?

I’ve worked so hard in dance for so long, I thought that I finally found my cultivation path. Every night my mind circled around the same questions until I cried again. I did not think that my parents would understand and could not help me, so I never talked to them.

Then, I remember that Master said, “You may think that you are good at everything, but your life does not have it. That person is good at nothing, but his life has it ...” (Zhuan Falun)

Besides, I could not let go of sentimentality. In New York, I missed my family. When it was time to leave, I could not bear to leave the people on the mountain. I had thoughts of them as my new family. I was too greedy, too stubborn. I had also forgotten the purpose of going there. As a Dafa disciple we need to do the three things well. Every time I removed an attachment and enlightened a bit, my level would rise a bit.

Then, I thought that when Shen Yun comes to San Francisco to perform I would have more chances to be tested. However, every year after I grew a little, their requirements would also increase a little. Three years later, I knew I could not catch up. I came to understand that everyone’s path is different.

Xinxing Tests

I chose to study design in college and wanted to graduate early, so I took summer classes. Then, my father told me to be a double major and study psychology as well. He suggested that it would be beneficial to my design thinking process. I wasn’t very willing, but did it anyway. However, I told him that after I graduate, I want to rest for a while and travel before finding a job.

Barely three days after I graduated, my father had arranged an interview with the San Francisco’s Dajiyuan manager. I had studied hard so that I could take a rest, and had graduated within three years. I hadn’t even had my graduation ceremony, what’s the rush? I understand now that his mindset was caused by my attachment to comfort.

Dad suggested that I help out for one month, so I went to work on Monday. It felt like I was suddenly back in China. The newspaper and ads were in Chinese, Fa study was in Chinese, emails were in Chinese, meetings were in Chinese; and even my design software was in Chinese. Google translation software became my best friend.

Every day my commute was about three hours. In the morning, I left for work, did the exercises and studied the Fa, while in the afternoon I designed ads. If I left work at 5:30 p.m. I got home around 7:00 p.m. After dinner, I still had to make layouts for the next day’s newspaper. I got to bed around midnight. It was the same from Monday to Friday and that one-month became a three-month internship.

My supervisor asked me to stay, but I was not really willing. My dad wanted me to find an ordinary job, but I got angry. I felt that he treated me as some kind of tool or experiment. I could no longer stand it, so I agreed to my supervisor’s request and signed a one-year employee contract. This is my second year at Dajiyuan. I still have xinxing tests with my dad, but it’s no longer as serious.

Treasure Karmic Relationships

Master said,

Once you've reached Consummation and returned it'll be almost impossible for you to see each other again, even if you want to. So, you should treasure this part of your karmic relationship. And what's more, those karmic relationships of yours have been intertwined with each other, and different karmic relationships were formed over every lifetime--it hasn't been easy. So, cooperate well when you do things. Each Dafa disciple's thing is everybody elses. Don't create distance and disharmony between each other over some little, trivial thing. You can't do that, and you should treasure all this. (“Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference III)

Master's Fa told me that there are times at work when everyone has different ways of thinking. For the sake of improving as a whole, everyone has to cooperate well.

Because my dad is a coordinator, he is often busy. When he needed help, my conscience would not let me refuse him. When the new Lunyu was published, I took care of replacing it in Zhuan Falun books for our family. Then, after our small Fa study group, my dad gave me a big pile of Zhuan Falun books, and asked me to update them. I boiled with anger again. Normally, I am busy with work, now I have to update everyone’s books. He didn’t even ask me first before promising others. Each person also had more than one book to correct.

This is also cultivation. When I needed more time to correct the books, my work needed to be done quicker. My hands and thought process became faster. I also understood that I needed to be calm when correcting these precious books. I would make mistakes if I had bad thoughts.

Preparation for San Francisco's Fahui

More and more people are coming to our Experience Sharing Conferences, which requires us to start preparations earlier. For the 2016 San Francisco Fa Conference, my dad had to get ready for the parade and music a month ahead of time. We only had time at night to prepare. Around midnight, our dad tested his speakers at high volumes, making sleep impossible. That time he also had to go on a business trip to Japan and he was not certain if he would be back on time. He also did not have time to teach others, so every night he taught my brother and me. Thanks to Master’s arrangement, our dad came back a few days early and we didn’t feel as pressured.

On the day of the parade, we had to arrive early to set up the music and torture exhibit truck. After the parade we searched everywhere for the small and big speakers we loaned out. After we found them, we had to charge them for that night’s candlelight vigil. We also had to arrive early to set up everything for the Fahui.

I felt very tired and sleepy, but if I listened to Master’s lecture I would definitely feel awake. In the end, Master did not show up and I felt disappointed. Some people say it’s interference, but for me, it was a test.

When on the Mountain, I saw Master everyday. I thought that if I never saw him again, I would not be moved. I realized I was seeking external help. Actually, if I did not do well, I would feel too ashamed to see Master.

After the Fahui ended, everyone could do as they please. Our family had to stay behind and clean up. I decided to go to the parade the next day. Even though I was tired I was happy because there were a lot of ordinary people watching.

Security Work for Dafa Projects

This was my first year doing security for Shen Yun. At the same time, a staff member from the New York NTD television asked me and an elderly man to go to Phoenix, Arizona and perform at the Chinese New Year celebration. She said last year the manager really liked my rainbow ribbon dance, so this year she invited me to perform again. I had not danced in a long time, but sat in front of my computer everyday, so I did not think I could perform well. However, if the XianYun’s students go, plane tickets would be very expensive. She emphasized that I am really needed, so I agreed to the request.

On a Thursday night, the person in charge of security told me that they needed more people. I knew my brother would go, so I told him to take my suit with him to the theater. I left for work early in a hurry and accidentally twisted my ankle.

My first thought was, “Since when did I become so weak? I fell countless times when I danced, but I’ve never twisted my ankle.” I just did not believe that I could not walk normally, but decided that I would not let it affect me doing security. Even though it hurt, I still stood by the big doors where the audience members enter and leave. When I got home, the more I walked the more it hurt, so I hopped.

I had promised to perform in Phoenix in two weeks, but now that I am hurt, I had an excuse to not go. But, I realized that this thought was not right. We needed to promote traditional Chinese culture and Shen Yun. The elderly man who didn’t know English would have a difficult time going alone. I needed righteous thoughts.

Actually, the advantage of doing a solo dance is being able to freely change the moves anytime. No one would notice a mistake. On the day of the performance, the elderly man and I went to the airport early in the morning.

When Shen Yun arrived in Phoenix in March, a person from our group email asked if there were any tickets left. Someone replied, that it was sold out a month ago. I came to realize that everyone is important. It’s not about how many people, what’s important is that everyone holds righteous thoughts and cooperates well.

These eighteen years of cultivation seem long, but there were times when it felt fast. There are many young practitioners like me who obtained the Fa at a very young age and are young veteran practitioners.

I hope that more people from the younger generation can come out during this crucial time to complete their mission. It might be difficult, but when I encounter a difficult situation, I recite Masters poem from Hong Yin.

Master said,

To consummate yourself, reaping Buddhahood,Let joy be found in hardship.Physical pains count little as suffering,Indeed, cultivating mind is hardest.Each and every barrier must be broken through,And everywhere does evil lurk.Abundant troubles rain down together,All to see: Can you pull through?The world’s miseries endured,One departs the earth a Buddha. (“Tempering the Will” from Hong Yin}

(Presented at the 2017 New York Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference)


Doing the Three Things Well After Rectifying Myself

By a Falun Dafa practitioner in New Jersey

(Minghui.org) Greetings Master, greetings fellow practitioners:

I am a Falun Dafa practitioner from New Jersey who obtained the Fa in September of 1996, and stepped into cultivation while a graduate student in Boston, Massachusetts. Weeks after I began to practice Dafa, I was fortunate to attend Master's lecture in Houston, Texas. After the lecture I knew for certain that the sole purpose of my life was to obtain the Fa and cultivate.

I accepted a position with a security team shortly after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched the persecution of Dafa. I always detested the CCP for misleading people and sabotaging anything it did not agree with. Thus, I was always vigilant when it came to Dafa activities I participated in. I was constantly observing and watching for possible sabotage by CCP spies. Many times, I was very tough even on practitioners who did not act as a true practitioner.

Joining the Shen Yun Security Team

When Shen Yun gave its first performance in 2006, I joined the security team. I looked very serious and watched everyone in the theater. Some practitioners said that I should maintain a better attitude towards the audience, but I ignored the suggestion. I thought I was doing the most righteous thing in the world. I really did not care too much about the feelings of others.

Then, more practitioners complained that I looked like the CCP policemen Shen Yun depicted on stage. I felt that this was some sort of unfounded exaggeration, and I simply laughed it off. After a Shen Yun performance, some practitioners asked me how many people were caught taking pictures. I told them in detail how I caught them.

During breaks the security team shared information. A rather sturdy young team member asked everyone, “Who do you guys think is the most menacing among us?” Then, he pointed at me and said that it was I. I responded: “You're much bigger and stronger than me. You got to be kidding.” He looked quite serious and said, “You probably don't know. When your eyebrows stand up, some people would be shaking out of fear.” I thought this to be a good joke and let it go.

Letting Go of Demon Nature

My everyday job required much of my attention in 2011 and the time left for Dafa related projects lessened. One day, I was driving with my seven-year old daughter and I asked her: “Daddy doesn't have much spare time. I want to change my job so I can have more time to work on Dafa projects. What type of job should I be looking for?” My daughter said, “Daddy, you should apply to a police academy, so you could become a policeman.” I was shocked and asked her why she thought like that. She told me that she thought that I liked to arrest people. I was in complete shock, and speechless.

Another time, when going home from group study, my daughter said, “It is very noisy in the room for little practitioners. Those young boys never stop running and screaming. I really wanted to ask you to come and yell at them. I was shocked and thought that in the eyes of my daughter, her daddy had such a fierce image. I finally realized that I had to look within.

I realized that my mind was filled with negativeness. If things did not go my way, my mind always held resentment and complained. Admittedly, I am strict also with myself, but I also hold a harsh attitude towards people. If someone makes a mistake or does things I do not agree with, I criticize the person in strong terms. I did not care if the person would be able to accept my criticism. Even my family is not spared my criticism.

“We are the cultivators of Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance,” some practitioners told me. “Why are you controlled by your demon nature?”

I used to ignore what others said to me. But. this time, when I looked back at the things I had said and the things I had done, I realized how scary my demon nature had been. I felt ashamed.

This time, I took it to heart and wanted to change. I read the Fa over and over again. I kept reminding myself about the danger of losing my temper. But the deep rooted demon nature did not let me go. Whenever my ego was under attack, the demon nature would control me and I held deep regret afterwards.

Master arranged those incidents to expose my demon nature. Master wanted to give me the opportunity to realize that the demon nature is not my true self. I did not change overnight but my demon nature finally disappeared.

Improving Cultivation Level During the Shen Yun Promotion

Like many overseas practitioners, I participated in the Shen Yun promotion. I took five-hour shifts in high-end malls to sell tickets, but distributed only a few fliers. Only a few people stopped and listened to me, and I only sold a few tickets. Because my ticket sales were not effective, I questioned the efficiency of manning a ticket booth in the mall.

During the Fa-study session of the Shen Yun promotion team, a practitioner shared that she could hand out several hundred fliers, and she was able to talk to dozens of customers in the mall. I asked how could this be possible.

When it was my turn selling tickets in the mall, I smiled, and was trying to reach out to all directions to give out fliers, but no one accepted even one flier.

It suddenly occurred to me that everyday people are waiting for true salvation. I am not here to do some routine job, I am here to save people! We are the messengers of gods and offer salvation that all the beings have been waiting for. Shen Yun is not some ordinary entertainment show and should not be presented as such. It is not enough to just focus on the superficial things such as colorful costumes and pleasing music. People in today's world are searching for something that can truly help them.

Once I had these thoughts, I felt that my heart was purified. My thoughts became sacred and my body felt that it grew much taller. True compassion filled my heart and my smile conveyed this feeling. It was extraordinary, as the number of people accepting my fliers increased dramatically. Many people talked with me about Shen Yun and time flew by so quickly.

Master said,

“Your mind will become increasingly pure as you reach higher levels. What your thinking brings forth then, and what you say, will be extremely pure. The purer and simpler they are, the more they conform to the principles of that level of the universe. The words you speak then can instantly pierce people’s hearts, strike the depths of people’s thoughts, and strike the more microscopic part of their existences. Now isn’t that going to be powerful?! So if you can become tranquil, that ability signifies that you have reached a certain realm.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Switzerland)

I found my answer in Master's teachings. Some practitioners can convince everyday people to withdraw from the CCP organizations upon first encounter, while some practitioners can demonstrate Dafa's power during Shen Yun promotions. This happens because they reached a certain realm and they acquired righteous power. Their words are powerful enough to disintegrate the prejudices and dissolve bad substances. Their words can awaken the conscience of all beings. This is the vivid manifestation of their cultivation status.

From then on, before I went to the mall to sell tickets, I did the exercises, studied the Fa, and sent forth righteous thoughts. I stood before Master's picture and asked for His guidance.

Standing in the mall, I clearly felt that I was being tested how well I had cultivated throughout the years. I understood that whether people are willing to accept my fliers depends on my compassionate heart, as well as whether people are moved by my words and whether I could instill the thought of wanting to see Shen Yun. It had to do with my cultivation state.

I used to think of selling tickets in the mall as a volunteer job. But now, I treasure this opportunity. I am so grateful to Master, because Shen Yun promotion has purified my heart.

Cultivating as a Member of the Tian Guo Marching Band

I joined the New York Tian Guo marching band at the end of 2006 and began to play the trumpet. I did not look for a trumpet teacher and practiced by myself. I thought of finding a technique, so I did not need to practice hard and still could play well. I read a few books, and bought a variety of trumpet mouthpieces in the hope to accomplish the best sound without too much effort. I even found a special technique on the internet. However, my fundamentals and endurance did not improve. My fellow trumpet players were playing better and better each time we met, while I showed no improvement. I was getting worried.

By studying the Fa, I understood that both music and painting are art forms passed down to mankind from distant cosmic bodies. Master told us that in those cosmic systems the elevation of lives is sustained by their skills and improvement of those skills. I realized that my pursuit of some special technique that would allow me to play nice music without investing much effort had gone wrong.

Master established the Tian Guo marching band, so Dafa disciples could validate the Fa through band performances. If the trumpet can be played well through some special technique, without hard work, if the musical skills can be obtained by using worldly wisdom, how is this validating the Fa? The only way of improving trumpet skills is through hard work, while constantly raising ones morality by following Dafa's requirements.

I recognized that I took a wrong path. I was determined to come back to the right practice method. My fellow trumpet players in the band encouraged and corrected me, but it took one year before I was able to play the trumpet well. This lesson was profound. It made me understand that if practitioners pursue worldly wisdom and go after opportunistic shortcuts they do wrong.

In the early days of the Tian Guo band there used to be a lot of parades and practitioners turned more and more towards Shen Yun promotion. In addition, my media project work left me less and less time for practicing the trumpet. The thought of leaving Tian Guo band grew stronger. Fellow band members shared their understanding with me regarding the importance of the Tian Guo band. But, I was of two minds, especially since there were only four to five parades a year, yet one had to practice a lot.

Music Reflects Our Cultivation State

From Fa study, I learned that the words we say contain all of our thoughts, including our human attachments and desires. Some practitioners shared that when a well cultivated disciple reads the Fa, lotus flowers would come out of his mouth. I realized that playing an instrument has the same effect. The music we play also carries all of our thoughts and are a reflection of our cultivation state.

Master told us that when Tian Guo band marches and plays music, the powerful shock waves eliminate the evil. Many bystanders would simply become motionless. Their attachments and all kinds of human emotions would be suppressed.

I thought, “As a member of the Tian Guo band, how much was I contributing to the powerful shock waves? If I cultivated myself well, if I reached a high realm, then the music I play would indeed be powerful enough to disintegrate evil and awaken people's conscience. If I did not cultivate well, the energy of my music would not be able to reach far, and its effectiveness would be quite limited.

Master said,

“Drums and horns of Fa display divine mightPurging all manner of evil,beckoning souls back to heaven.” (“Tian Guo Marching Band”)

Whether we can purge all evil and whether we can beckon souls back to heaven, totally depends on how well we have cultivated

After I understood this, I immediately felt that Master established the Tian Guo band to give practitioners an opportunity to cultivate. Every project Master creates is bestowed upon us to redeem ourselves. How could I be so choosy? In fact, regardless if it is the Tian Guo band or any media work, whether a project can be effective in saving people completely depends on whether practitioners practice true and real cultivation.

Looking Within Is Universal Key To Solve Problems

I participate in the KanZhongGuo Media Group (Vision Times) and coordinate certain efforts. There was a serious conflict among the chief directors from local branches at the beginning of 2017. When the problem was reported to me, I was very involved in the Shen Yun security work, I tried hard to keep a cool head. The Shen Yun performances required 100% of my attention. I could not let my thoughts wander and be affected by angry practitioners. I told myself, I should not be moved. I should not develop negative thoughts towards anyone.

Though I was not moved by the conflict development during the Shen Yun performances, I still had to face the arguments among the coordinators. Upon hearing the escalation of the conflict, I was so worried that I could not sleep well at night. I was told that I was talking in my sleep. I could not find a solution. I clearly saw the cultivation problem of the involved practitioners. I quoted Master's teachings and tried to use it to point out the xinxing problems. But the situation worsened and I was also confronted by the practitioners.

Master said,

“Cultivate yourselves. I don't want the environment Dafa disciples have to become one in which people point fingers at each other. I want the environment to be one in which everyone can accept criticism and at the same time look inside themselves. If everyone cultivates himself, everyone looks within, and everyone cultivates himself well, won't the conflicts be few? This is a principle I have taught all along, going back to when I first began teaching the Fa. Isn't that so? Improvement for a cultivator definitely doesn't result from finger pointing, nor does it result from my criticism of you as your Master or from your pointing fingers at or criticizing each other. It comes from you cultivating yourself.” (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles)

Looking within is the universal key to solving all kinds of problems? Isn't this the magic tool that opens all hearts? When studying the Fa I remember it, but when facing conflict, how come I had forgotten this magic tool? Although I was supposed to solve the problem, I was also within the conflict. I decided to look within to see what xinxing problems I have.

I found that although I said I would listen to all parties' opinions, my mind had been biased by practitioners' emotions and attitude from the very beginning. Thus, some practitioners excellent points were filtered out by my negative thoughts.

When talking to the involved practitioner, I was rigid because I did not want to hear harsh words and did not want to feel the strong human emotions. I only wanted to hear a bullet point style of discussion, and hoped the conversation would end soon. On the surface, I had a private exchange with the practitioner. In fact, I did not want to hear the true voice. I lacked a compassionate heart. My starting point was not to help others solve their issues, but getting rid of the conflict I was facing.

In my conversation with a practitioner, I was frequently quoting Master's words. I was hoping that the practitioner would be using Master's Fa to reflect on herself and begin to look within. My true intention wasn't out of a compassionate heart, but was to use Master's Fa to help this practitioner cultivate.

A practitioner reminded me that even if I was right about something, I needed to tell it in a kind way.

When facing the conflict among fellow practitioners, if I rush to solve it as a coordinator, the conflict may not be resolved but rather could intensify. When seeing practitioners' shortcomings, if I hold no selfish thoughts, and only want to make our media project a pure land, my fellow practitioners will all come to support the effort.

Disturbances Resolved

During the Shen Yun touring season, I joined the security team again.

When I walked into the theater and saw that all seats were occupied, I truly treasured the audiences. I was speaking to them in my heart, “Sentient beings, in order to save you, Dafa practitioners have been making every effort. Please focus all of your attention on the performance. Please do not be bothered by worldly distractions, do not make phone calls, and do not look at your cell phones. More importantly, please do not take any pictures or create any disturbance.”

Together with other security team members, we talked to audience members and made sure that the policies for the Shen Yun performance were followed. At the end of the show, some practitioners asked if I caught anyone taking a photo. I was very delighted to tell them: "Today's show was perfect, no one took a picture!"

Difficulties Caused by Sentient Beings Karma

There was a period of time when I was not motivated to do anything. There were problems with all the projects I participate in and no progress could be made. I felt exhausted.

When my spirit was down, I had a dream. Master and Dafa practitioners were riding bicycles on an uphill road. It was very difficult for everyone. I asked, “Why don't we find a flat road or even better a downhill road? The uphill road is so hard!” A voice sounded in my ear, “The difficulty was caused by the karma of the sentient beings to be saved.” Master passed me on his bike. He looked back and smiled at me.

When I woke up, I came to realize that all the challenges we encounter in the projects have to do with the karma of the sentient beings. In fact, the snow storms during Shen Yun touring season, the rain storms, the scorching heat and freezing cold during the parades in which the Tian Guo marching band participates, the various obstacles Dafa media companies run into, most of them have to do with the sentient beings we are trying to save.

Master said,

“Steering the Fa Vessel before disaster descends,Millions upon millions     the hardships and perils, blocking my path,Carrying the Cosmos, boat broken and torn,At last! I pull into shore—     a dream of ten thousand years.” (“Suffering to Save” from Hong Yin)

In order to save all the beings from the old cosmos, Master has been extending time. Using His benevolent might Master has been carrying the broken and torn universe. The only reason that the collapsing cosmos is still sustaining itself is because Master has been taking all the sufferings upon himself.

We, like everyone else on earth, came from the universe of the past. We all want to redeem ourselves and save sentient beings, we all want to escape from the total destruction at the final end, we all want to fulfill the vows we made to the Creator. Doesn't that require our sacrifice? Our vows call for unfading devotion, unyielding valor and enduring commitment.

(Presented at the 2017 New York Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference)