Eliminating My Fear of Talking to People about Falun Dafa
(Minghui.org) By letting people know about Falun Dafa and the persecution I have been able to gradually remove my human notions of selfishness and fear, while at the same time, developing more compassion and righteous thoughts.
Finding My Attachments
The police tried to imprison me for my faith, but failed since I did not pass the detention center's medical exam. I was in my seventies, but they still tried to have me sentenced and took me to a hospital for another check-up. They got the same result, and had to release me on medical bail.
I looked within to try to find my attachments and notions that were hindering me in my cultivation. Fear played a large part.
I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts more often, but still could not let go of my fear of talking to people about Falun Dafa.
The few times when I did talk to people, they did not want to listen, no matter how hard I tried. I eventually gave up trying to talk to people altogether.
I stayed at home for a month studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the Falun Dafa exercises.
“It is necessary for a Dafa disciple to ensure his cultivation on a daily basis, and it is the mission of a Dafa disciple to clarify the facts and save people. You cannot go without either of these as you journey toward consummation.” (“A Reminder”)
I knew that it was wrong to only stay at home to cultivate myself, but I felt helpless to do anything.
Learning from Another Practitioner
A Dafa practitioner named Chunhua (alias) said that she would help me eliminate my attachment to fear.
She used to be paralyzed and bedridden, but she could walk again after she started practicing Falun Dafa. She goes out to talk to people about Falun Dafa every day. Although she is illiterate, she still manages to help between 10 to 20 people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations each day.
She invited me to go to the mall with her. I stood on the side sending righteous thoughts, observing her talking to people. She was calm and always smiling. The person she was talking to would usually smile back.
There was no sign of fear the entire time she talked to people. She had no education, but people loved to listen to her and commented that she was very knowledgeable.
I graduated from high school and became a teacher. I was good at talking, but when I wanted to talk to strangers about the persecution I had a difficult time trying to bring up the subject. People would then question what I was saying and become annoyed with me.
Chunhua said that Master strengthened her to help her speak well. She could pick out people’s good points and use them to help her communicate more effectively. She had strong righteous thoughts and compassion and only wanted to save as many people as she could.
“Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in springRighteous thoughts can save the people in this world” (“The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos” from Hong Yin Volume II)
Letting Go of Fear
I studied the Fa more, and let go of fear and selfishness to generate a purer heart. I no longer looked outward, but began to cultivate inward.
I started to go out by myself to clarify the facts every day. I sent forth righteous thoughts along the way to eliminate the old force elements preventing people from being saved. I had a neat appearance and dressed nicely, and would smile when talking to people. If a problem arose, I would look within to improve my xinxing.
I eliminated several human notions and helped many people to quit the CCP.
I used to avoid talking to people after it got dark because I was afraid of being hurt. However, I was able to break through this notion and not miss the predestined opportunity to save people. The attachments of zealotry and showing off were also eliminated.