Reflecting on Tribulations Caused by My Attachments
(Minghui.org) Having strong attachments to worldly things and matters can be very dangerous for Dafa disciples. The old forces can take the advantage of the loopholes we leave for them to persecute us.
For a long time, I had been attached to the human heart and desire and would not let them go. Because of that, I ran into layers of tribulations, and my cultivation level stayed in one place for a long time. Cultivation felt extremely difficult for me.
About seven years ago, I began to work in a factory that produced electric motorcycles. In the beginning, I did not have any other pursuits and took this job as a means of income. I also planned to use the opportunity to clarify the facts about Dafa to my coworkers. However, the factory required all workers to work extra hours, so I was exhausted after getting home every day.
After working there for a while, I wanted to get a job with higher pay and fewer hours so that I would have more time and money to clarify the truth. I was new to the area, and the local police did not know me, so it was relatively easy for me to do this.
I believed that with my knowledge of electric motors, I could make money if I invented a motor that could make electrical motorcycles faster. I knew that increasing the number of batteries and changing some parts in the motorcycles could help achieve that goal, but it would cost more.
I spent hours pondering how to make motorcycles run faster but still keep the cost low. I began to slack on Fa-study, and my mind was not clear when I practiced the exercises and sent forth righteous thoughts.
As a matter of fact, factories knew how to make their electrical motorcycles run faster, but rider safety was their primary concern. Although I was aware that I was spending too much time on this and tried to eliminate this attachment, my mind just could not let it go. Only recently did I understand why I could not stop thinking about electric motorcycles: the old forces were trying to destroy me by pushing me on this path and constantly intensifying this attachment.
One night, I had a dream that the old forces told me that they had been searching for me for three years. After that dream, I found out that I was being followed. Sometimes, undercover police even followed me home.
I remembered to be alert about my environment when talking to people about Dafa. However, with my focus switching to trivial human things, all kinds of attachments also arose in me.
My attachments to competition and showing off became very strong. When I drove, if a car was in front of me, I would accelerate to pass it. I even cared less about safety, thinking that it would not matter if nobody knew me.
It turned out that some undercover policemen in my community had been assigned to watch me. Fortunately, I quickly corrected my mentality and stopped doing unsafe things.
However, a year later, I made the same mistake, and the result was bad. The area were I lived was inhabited by people with various issues. However, policemen had never come to our neighborhood before.
When I forgot about my own security, police vehicles often came to patrol my community. Sometimes police vehicles followed me, and some even waited for me by the entrance of our community. Under such circumstance, I found it difficult to clarify the facts to people.
Since I did not let go of my attachments, the old forces tried everything they could to persecute me. Recently, the local police station began to search every single room inside everyone’s home in our community with the excuse of cracking down on prostitution.
My room was searched while I was out. They found my Dafa books and other materials and took them away. Looking at my ransacked room, I regretted not being careful. I knelt down in front of Teacher’s portrait and asked Teacher to give me another chance.
Although this incident did not cause severe consequences, it definitely taught me a lesson. Fa-rectification has come this far, the evil forces have dwindled, and they can no longer control people to do bad deeds.
However, as long as the evil forces still exist, they will not stop. A Dafa disciple’s door should not have been opened, and our residences should not have been ransacked. My strong attachments gave the old forces a loophole to persecute me.
I am determined to let go of my attachments, cultivate even more diligently, and walk on the path arranged by Teacher. If I hold on to human attachments tightly, I will fall into the old forces’ traps and make no progress.
I write this down to warn myself and fellow practitioners who are in similar situations. We must treasure the last leg of the journey and let go of our attachments. Failing to do so will result in our following the old forces’ arrangements and being persecuted. Our sentient beings would be destroyed, and we would not be able to fulfill our vows.
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