After 11 Years, I Am Cultivating Again
(Minghui.org) When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to persecute Falun Dafa in 1999, I gave up the practice for fear of being imprisoned.
Without Dafa in my life, I didn't feel like doing anything. I just wanted to cry. My husband saw that I was in low spirits every day. He bought a computer to cheer me up, even though we were on a tight budget.
He noticed that I didn't like to use the computer, so he took me to play Mahjong. I gambled on Mahjong and lost a lot of money. My husband didn't want me to go back to Dafa cultivation and didn't blame me; instead, he gave me more money to play.
The days dragged on. I gave up on myself and totally forgot about cultivation.
What came next was a rapid decline in my health. I had pains all over my body. My lungs, nose, and throat were inflamed. I had heart problems and high blood pressure. I felt my life was over.
Still, one question haunted me: If Falun Dafa is such a wonderful practice that teaches people to be good, why would the CCP not allow people to practice it?
Returning to Dafa
Eleven years went by, as I wandered through life like a lost soul.
I decided to cultivate again in 2010. I found the copy of Zhuan Falun that I had kept for 11 years and spent three days reading it. All of the discomfort in my body magically went away. I knew that Dafa was the only way for me.
When my husband saw that I had started to practice Falun Dafa again, he got angry and tried everything to stop me. No matter how he fought with me, I tried my best to follow Dafa's principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and treated him well. I told him that I had made up my mind to practice Dafa and that nothing could change my mind.
He asked my relatives to talk to me. He used my job and our children's jobs as leverage to pressure me to give up the practice. He threatened to send me to a mental hospital.
When all else failed, he even threatened to divorce me. I agreed to a divorce if he insisted, but he backed down and didn't pursue it.
However, he still gave me a hard time. While I was sending righteous thoughts after lunch one day in 2013, he began to complain again. He kept taking my crossed legs down and pushing my palms down. I wasn't affected and continued to send righteous thoughts.
He continued to complain for hours, threatening me the whole time. I remembered the Fa principle that:
“'I'm Li Hongzhi's disciple, I don't want other arrangements or acknowledge them'—then they won't dare to do that. So it can all be resolved.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
I said in my heart that I would only follow the cultivation path arranged by Master, and I asked Master to help me. After a while, my husband stopped fighting with me.
All the tribulations and interference were, in fact, illusions and not real. I enlightened that when I became firm in Dafa cultivation, Master could solve the problem for me.
Truly Cultivating in the Fa
I was arrested while talking to people about Falun Dafa earlier this year. I held firmly to the thought that I'm here to assist Master in Fa rectification and save sentient beings. Master is taking care of me. I will improve my cultivation in the Fa and won't acknowledge the arrangement by the old forces.
With that strong thought, the police gave up on their plan to detain me for a month. They sent me home that evening.
Back home, when I looked inside I realized that I had a competitive mentality that caused me to be arrested.
Last spring I fell and fractured a bone in my shoulder. This was when I experienced the strong healing power of Dafa. I did the exercises right away and didn't seek medical help. I didn’t take any time off and continued to work.
Three days after my fall, I had an x-ray done at the hospital. I showed the film to my colleagues and told them why I was able to recover so quickly. They were all amazed by Dafa's power to heal. Many have agreed to quit the CCP.
I realized that it's important to handle myself as a true cultivator and to keep in mind my responsibility as a Dafa disciple when conflicts or tribulations arise. I must align myself with the Fa and rectify myself.
I can’t do anything without the Fa. No matter how difficult the tribulations may seem, they are, after all, only tests. They are just opportunities to elevate my xinxing and improve myself.