(Minghui.org) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. I used to suffer from a number of ailments such as rheumatoid arthritis, stomachache, enlarged liver, enlarged spleen, varicose veins, and weak kidneys. My life was full of misery.
Cherishing the Sacred Predestined Relationship
May 13, 1992, is a day that I will never forget. That day I attended the first Fa teaching lecture series by Master Li Hongzhi. It was held in a classroom at the Fifth Middle School of Changchun City.
As I walked in for the 6 p.m. lecture, Master Li was standing at a small second-floor balcony smiling and welcoming the students. Seeing Master's amiable face, which also seemed familiar to me, I could barely hold back my excitement and tears rolled down my cheeks.
In the first lecture, Master touched on many important topics: why humans came to this world and why we must conduct ourselves according to the universal principle of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. He spoke about how we must be considerate of others, search within when facing conflicts, and not fight back when attacked or insulted. I could identify with the teachings very well and I was reluctant to leave after the class was over.
The second class dealt with the Celestial Eye. I dozed off somehow and saw a large red sun hanging in front of me. As I was not aware at the time that Master was opening the celestial eye for me, I attempted to see it clearly and it disappeared.
Later as we learned the second exercise, Holding the Wheel in Front of the Head, I could not help but weep out loud. Many others were also crying. Master revealed to us that we didn't have to hold back, as our families at the higher levels where we came from had been awaiting and longing for our return.
After that, I attended three more series of Master's Fa teaching and each time Master would purify my body. Master said,
“When our humankind evolves to this extent today, almost everyone is born with karma built upon karma, and everyone’s body has quite a lot of karma.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master sent out his energy while teaching, and there were many examples of his mighty healing power. One time during the lecture I felt freezing cold and shivered for ten minutes. Then I felt extreme heat and my limbs were warm and my whole body was comfortable. After that, my rheumatoid arthritis disappeared, along with many of my other ailments. My body felt light all over for the very first time in my life.
When I did the sitting meditation exercise at home, I often floated around the floor without intentional control. I was a little afraid at the time. Master said, “Right away you will practice cultivation at high levels.” (Zhuan Falun, Lecture 2)
Through studying the Fa, I realized that it was the unlocking of the great heavenly circuit. As I did the exercise Holding the Wheel on Both Sides of the Head, my fingers felt as if they were expanding and enlarging to an unreal degree. Then I heard loud drumming that seemingly occurred right by my side. It naturally came to a stop as I finished the exercise. When I opened my eyes, there was no drum nor anybody else in the room at all.
One day as I hand copied the second chapter of Zhuan Falun,“The Issue of the Celestial Eye,” I suddenly couldn't see anything. I thought that maybe I was too tired and went to take a nap. After the nap, I still could not see. It dawned upon me that Master was hinting at me to take off my reading glasses. So I took off the glasses and finished transcribing the whole book. After that my presbyopia disappeared. My poor hearing and frozen shoulders were also cured at the same time.
It was just as Master taught us,
“...my Dafa books talk about higher principles...” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Canada”)
“When people show the appropriate respect and reverence toward Dafa as it manifests here in this world, they, their race, or their nation will enjoy blessings or honor.” (Lunyu)
Eliminating Resentment Through Searching Within
I came across a woman in the supermarket in 2014 and started to talk to her about quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its associated organizations. She seemed to be infuriated and spoke ill of Dafa. I developed resentment right away and said to myself that she was not worthy of my efforts to save her.
As I pushed my cart out of the supermarket, I slipped and fell. I had a swollen forehead and my eyes seemed like they were popping out. I did not think much about it. At the time I was 76 years old and weighed over 90 kilograms. If I were not a practitioner, I would probably have been seriously hurt. Instead, I just felt that my lower back hurt a little.
However, the next day my eyes were swollen shut and my lower back pain worsened. I kept up my truth-clarification activities as normal while sending righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference from the old forces and pleading for Master to help.
Although I went out every day to study the Fa, do the exercises, and participate in activities to clarify the truth, my lower back pain did not improve. As days passed, my attachments began to surface: “I have been in serious pain, yet my fellow practitioners have not even asked me about it, and none of them brought up the idea of sending righteous thoughts to help me. They have been coming to my home for group Fa study for over ten years. Where has their compassion gone? They are so selfish.” With these thoughts, tears of emotion rolled down my cheeks.
Master said,
“Then, when Dafa disciples have omissions, the evil targets their attachments and stirs up trouble.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2013 Greater New York Fa Conference”)
Since I did not come to a true enlightenment from the Fa, my back pain became worse and worse. Once in a while a thought would come to mind, “Is it because my fall at the supermarket was too severe? Or maybe I pounded on my back after I got home and I was too forceful?” As soon as this thought came up, my children started to pressure me to go to the hospital. I refused initially. Later, as they insisted that it was merely for an x-ray, I agreed.
After the x-ray was taken, the doctor said I had a herniated lumbar disc and that surgery was necessary. I firmly refused and went home despite my children's attempts to persuade me. I told them, “I have practiced Dafa for 23 years and have never taken a single pill. I am under the care of my Master and my health has been excellent. You don't need to worry.”
In the meantime, I started to pause and rethink the whole thing while keeping up with Fa study. Through intense Fa study and searching within, I was astonished to find my problem. When I fell at the supermarket, wasn't it immediate retribution and also a wake-up call about my grudge and resentment toward sentient beings who were not receptive to my truth clarification?
Unfortunately, I did not become enlightened from the hint but looked outside for excuses, leaving loopholes for the old forces to take advantage of. As my attachments became more severe, I even started to develop self-pity and to blame fellow practitioners.
I truly realized the seriousness of cultivation and the danger of deviating from the Fa. I immediately sent righteous thoughts to eliminate my human notions. My fellow practitioners came to my home and helped send righteous thoughts as well. Soon, my back pain disappeared. Moreover, I gained a more positive and compassionate view of others.
I am grateful to Master from the bottom of my heart. I want to thank fellow practitioners as well. Looking inward is truly a magical tool in cultivation.
Category: Improving Oneself
