Husband's Cancer Diagnosis Turns into Catalyst for Change
(Minghui.org) My husband was diagnosed with late stage pancreatic cancer late last year and given three months to live. I encouraged him to give Falun Dafa a try. He agreed and is now on his way to recovery.
I have practiced Falun Dafa for more than 17 years, but was never diligent. My husband's sudden cancer symptoms became a catalyst for my own change. While helping him overcome sickness karma, I often was left in awe by the power of Dafa and Master Li’s compassion.
Husband Vilifies Dafa
I filed a lawsuit against the former dictator Jiang Zemin for launching the persecution of Falun Dafa on June 30, 2015. I was later arrested at my workplace by police officers on December 10, 2015.
I was detained at a detention center for 10 days. This was my first arrest, and I had never experienced such a big blow. This affected my husband greatly. After I was released, he attempted to force me to give up my belief in various ways. He even threatened me with divorce.
Although we did not divorce, my husband committed sinful crimes against Dafa. He slandered Teacher and Dafa, and sided with the evil.
Karmic Retribution for Crimes Against Dafa
Just after my husband had simmered down, he felt uncomfortable and experienced health problems. I accompanied him to the doctor's office. He was diagnosed with late stage pancreatic cancer.
The tumor's position and size made it impossible to have surgery. Also, the tumor had metastasized to the liver. Doctors told us that he had only three months to live. He was only 46 years old.
“Just practice Falun Dafa with me,” I said. “Only Dafa can save you.”
He did not say anything. I then asked him to sincerely recite the two sentences, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” He did so and wrote a statement of repentance for his slander of Dafa and Teacher.
Then, he had surgery because of bile duct obstruction in a provincial tumor hospital. He stayed there for about two weeks. Doctors could not help him any further, so he returned home before the 2016 New Year.
Bad Thing Turns into Good Thing
I taught him the Falun Dafa exercises first, and then shared with him the extraordinary health recovery stories that were published on the Minghui website and by the NTD television station – “The Stories of Life.”
At first, he continued to be depressed, because he was not sure if he also could benefit from Dafa. I comforted and encouraged him.
“It's so unfortunate to suffer cancer,” I said. “However, if you start practicing Falun Dafa and recover your health, then the bad thing would have turned into a good thing.”
He became more confident and positive. He also realized the importance of studying the Fa and practicing the Dafa exercises.
Watching Teacher's Fa lectures and the process of teaching him the exercises also helped improve my own xinxing.
It is quite difficult for beginners to do the fifth exercise – sitting in meditation, with legs double folded.
One time, my husband felt tremendous pain while sitting in meditation. He refused to give up and reminded himself of Teacher's Fa,
“When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it; when it's impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
There was a time when he felt excruciating pain. However, as he kept reciting Teacher's Fa, the pain suddenly stopped and his legs could move freely again.
When he was doing the third exercise, he saw many black dots leave his body. They disappeared after he finished doing the exercises. He told me what he saw and said, “I had too much karma.”
He could often hear Falun Dafa music, especially when he was experiencing karma tests. It encouraged him to break through one test after another.
My husband used to be bothered by kidney, liver and gallbladder stones. He again felt great pain and could not urinate. When he told me, I told him that these are illness karma symptoms, and that Teacher was removing his illness karma. Once he understood the process, he could urinate again immediately.
Since he began to practice Dafa, he experienced a high fever three times. He did not take any medication or see a doctor.
Six Hours of Excruciating Pain
At work, he felt tremendous pain in his heart. He locked himself inside his office, called me at noon and asked me to pick him up. He told me that his colleagues would take him to the hospital if they saw him in such pain.
After we got home, his heart continued to ache. I knew it was also a test for me. Teacher's Fa surfaced in my mind,
“When your friends or family suffer, are you moved? How How do you weigh them? This is how difficult it is to be a practitioner!” (Zhuan Falun)
I let go of my emotions and was no longer worried about him. I knew Teacher was taking care of him, but I did sent righteous thoughts.
He fell asleep and said when he woke up, “It was almost beyond my endurance, and I almost fainted. The tremendous pain lasted six hours and stopped suddenly.”
He experienced illness karma tests frequently. It's been almost four months since he was told that he would live at the most another three months, and he is still alive and well.
Identifying My Own Attachments
As my husband was getting better, I fantasized that I would use his recovery to help doctors, friends and relatives understand Dafa, and that they may even join this cultivation practice.
Then, I suddenly realized that I was trying to arrange my and my husband's cultivation path. I wondered if I was trying to change Teacher's schedule of when to remove my husband's illness karma completely, so that it could meet my own schedule of how to use it? Everything I calculated was for my own sake, while saving people was only an excuse. What I really cared for was how to validate myself!
Only when I was writing this article did I identify and see more clearly my own problems and human attachments. It's so dangerous and scary. Attachments of zealotry and showing off intermingled with pursuit. These are selfish attachments and meant to validate myself.
I am no longer calculating and planning my own path. I trust that Master has made the best arrangements for me and my husband. We just need to do what's required of a Dafa disciple.