(Minghui.org) I was forced to leave my home for a period of time to avoid being persecuted. During that time when the persecution first started, I was quite scared and worried about being spotted or spied on. I was nervous regardless of whether I went out or stayed in the room I rented.
I realized not long after that my state was not right and thought, “Why do I feel nervous and try to hide like a criminal? Dafa practitioners are upright and dignified. The evil in another dimension is able to clearly see people's thoughts. Whatever human means I used to hide couldn't really hide me from them.”
I asked myself, “I am being persecuted for practicing Dafa, and isn't Dafa the most powerful? The evil would not be able to harm me as long as I have Dafa in my heart?”
I began to study the Fa. However, I encountered all kinds of interference, such as fatigue, sleepiness, human thoughts, and the worries of daily living. Sometimes it was very challenging for me to balance studying the Fa and my urge to work on everyday issues. Regardless, I tried my best to maintain my Fa study.
I once studied the Fa after finishing my everyday life issues. After picking up Zhuan Falun and reading only two lines, I fell asleep. After waking up, I thought: “I have not been studying the Fa much, which results in my lingering at the same level for a long time. If I don't fight my laziness and study the Fa diligently, how can I negate the persecution?” I used all of my willpower and continued to study the Fa.
Working hard to overcome many kinds of interference, I read all of Master's new lectures six times. When I was reading, I felt as if I suddenly entered a deep and broad energy field. There are no words to describe that feeling.
I realized that Dafa practitioners shoulder great responsibilities and things we do will impact the future. I started to make the connection between cultivating myself well and saving sentient beings. I also felt that the anxiety that had covered me was lifted, and both my body and heart became light, so was the environment in which I lived.
I wrote down my thoughts later on when facing a certain situation. During the process, I felt my mind open and I came to realize my own issues. It was the first time I realized with a knowing mind that my thoughts were indeed attachments and human notions.
From then on, my environment improved. The officials said they would no longer harass me. Eventually, I was able to have a good cultivation environment. I became steadfast in believing what Master said:
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Category: Improving Oneself