Don't Let Lust Block Our Way Home
(Minghui.org) I'm a university student in my junior year. I recently had a strange dream. When I woke up I realized that I must have an attachment. When I recalled the dream and my attempts to eliminate the attachment, I decided I should share it with other practitioners.
In the dream, my father asked me to buy some vegetables and bring them to my uncle, using a car he borrowed. I drove to the market, shopped, and delivered the vegetables to my uncle. On my way home, the road became rough and bumpy. I stopped and got out to take a look. After I walked a short distance I realized that I was lost. I decided to get into the car and go back the way I came, but the car was gone when I returned to where I left it. I was nervous and became worried. I ran down the road looking for the car, but could not find it.
I walked back to my uncle's home and told him what happened. I told him that it was an expensive, luxury car that my father had borrowed from another man, and that we could not afford such a car. I was very sad, began to weep, and said, “I wish this was a dream. Why is it so real?” My uncle looked at me and gently said, “What you are experiencing is a dream.”
I suddenly woke up, and began to look inward. I recalled that when I was a sophomore, my mother, who is also a Falun Gong practitioner, had urged me to look for a boyfriend to take care of me.
I started to date a man online when I was in my third year at the university, and we soon fell in love. I yearned for the wonderful life that my boyfriend described. Every time we video-chatted online, I dressed up and applied makeup to appear more attractive. I was sad if he did not immediately reply when I phoned him. My voice even became very gentle when I talked to him.
When I remembered how I acted, I realized that I had the attachment to lust, but I ignored it. I continued looking inward, and found that I had an incorrect understanding about relationships between men and women. I thought that all young people were supposed to fall in love and get married.
“In our discipline, or at least for this part that cultivates in the setting of ordinary people, you don’t have to become a monk or nun. Our young folks should still get married.” (Zhuan Falun)
I realized that my understanding was wrong. I had an attachment to lust, but attempted to cover it using the excuse that it was my understanding of Master's teaching. Practitioners marry and have children to conform to everyday society, but not to slide down into human sentiment. I realized that we should take these things lightly, and not focus on them, and we should remain steadfast in our cultivation.
I'm sharing this to remind fellow practitioners to not become entangled by lust or other attachments. We should remember that we are on the path of returning to our true homes. Everything we experience in human society is like a dream. We need to cultivate diligently in order to fulfill our prehistoric vows.