(Minghui.org) I have been worrying about this serious topic for the past few days. No one knows when the Fa will start to rectify the human world, but the changes in the world indicate that the moment is not far off.
The long-awaited end of the persecution, brought about by Master's boundless grace and the power of Dafa, will be a joyous event for every Falun Dafa practitioner. However, it will also mean the end of Fa-rectification, as well as the conclusion of cultivation for Fa-rectification period Dafa practitioners.
Would I Meet the Requirements for a Dafa Practitioner?
We will be returned to heavenly positions. However, where will my position be? Will I meet the standard for Dafa practitioners? Will I be worthy enough to be a divine being? I have not cultivated diligently, so I worry about the coming of the final day. I will feel ashamed if I do not discard my ordinary people’s attachments by then. I will also feel regret if I do not save the lives of those whom I vowed to save
The mission of Dafa practitioners during the Fa-rectification period is to save beings. However, for the past several years, I have only advised a very limited number of people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. Some practitioners who contribute articles to Minghui Weekly give long lists of the people they helped to quit the CCP and its affiliates. Compared to them I am very behind.
I Still Have a Strong Attachment to Fear
Sometimes when I met predestined people, although the situations were very suitable for me to speak about Falun Gong and the persecution, I hesitated to talk. Behind my hesitation were a lot of attachments of fear: I was afraid of being persecuted, being rejected, being ridiculed or receiving peculiar looks.
These attachments blocked me, and I missed one opportunity after another to save those predestined people. How disappointed these lives would be and how could I fulfill my prehistoric vows this way! I often chastised myself for not being able to break through these barriers.
Dafa Awakened Me to the Meaning of Life
Many times I thought about what would I have to live for if I had not started to cultivate Dafa. Would I have lived for my family members? Would I have lived for fame? How just would the ordinary people’s judgment be? Master’s compassionate salvation awakened me to the purpose of life and helped me to see through the complexity and illusions of the world. I stopped being confused, anxious or fearful of uncertainty. I became strong and open-minded.
We have benefited greatly from cultivating Dafa. What can we do to pay back Master’s salvation? The only way is to save more lives. And when doing so, we establish more mighty virtue for ourselves. I must eliminate my fear and start talking to people face-to-face about Falun Gong and the persecution. I must start using every opportunity to save lives.
Rejecting Interference and Discarding Attachments
For a long time I have not been able to calm my mind when studying the Fa, doing the exercises or sending righteous thoughts. To focus my mind on learning the Fa, I started memorizing Zhuan Falun; doing so helps me to reject interference. However, my mind still often drifts while doing the exercises and sending righteous thoughts. Recently, I started experiencing demonic interference in the form of sleepiness. I often fell asleep while doing the sitting mediation. I have been trying to break through this interference, and I hope I can do the exercises and send righteous thoughts with a clear mind, like many of my fellow practitioners, as soon as possible.
After six years of cultivation, I still have a lot of notions. Attachments, such as fame (feeling wronged when overhearing negative comments about me), competitiveness, jealousy and resentment often interfered with me when I encountered tribulations. Before I started cultivation, I could not identify these attachments. I now understand that as a Dafa practitioner, I must discard all attachments and not get wedded to any worldly gains or losses. Otherwise I will not be worthy of being a Dafa practitioner.
Discard the Attachment of Fear in Suing Jiang Zemin
I first thought that suing Jiang Zemin was only for the veteran practitioners who had experienced the persecution. However, in Minghui Weekly articles, some practitioners shared their understandings that every Dafa practitioner should sue Jiang Zemin, including those who had not experienced direct persecution. I came to understand that as a law-abiding citizen I should sue Jiang because I have been deprived of the constitutional rights to freedom of belief and the environment to study the Fa and do the exercises. As a practitioner, I should sue Jiang Zemin to validate Dafa.
After I prepared a letter of complaint, Minghui Weekly and Minghui.org reported that the police had arrested some practitioners who had sued Jiang Zemin, and the police were intercepting some of the complaint letters. My mind wavered because suing Jiang Zemin seemed dangerous, and I worried because my documents included my true name, a copy of my identification card and my fingerprints. However, when I thought of Master’s compassionate salvation and remembered that as a Dafa practitioner I should speak the truth about Master and Dafa, I decided not to stop.
I also thought that if I were persecuted, I would not regret taking part in suing Jiang Zemin. I would tell them that Falun Dafa is good and Jiang Zemin’s regime has been persecuting Falun Gong, and I would tell them about my cultivation experiences. I believe that they would not remain indifferent. After I organized the letter of complaint and discussed my submission with the coordinating practitioner, I went to the post office at 8:00 a.m. on June 19 and sent the document. On June 20, I received a text message receipt that the letter of complaint had been received.
I felt proud of myself for making this breakthrough. I had not been diligently sending righteous thoughts or talking to people about Falun Gong face-to-face for a long time; I finally made this progress and contributed to ending the persecution!
There is not much time left. I want to communicate with fellow practitioners and discard my attachments as quickly as possible. I want to break through the interference and diligently cultivate forward.
Improve in Cultivation as a Whole to Fulfill Our Mission
I want thank my local veteran practitioners; they encouraged me while I was experiencing illness karma and gave me advice. They also shared their experiences with me while I was having difficulty sitting in the full lotus position. I believe that practitioners have a closer predestined relationship with one another than what we have with our family members. We cultivate the same Fa and follow the same Master: we are a whole that cannot be separated.
I hope that in the final days of our cultivation we help one another to improve together, so when the Fa rectifies the human world, we all have joy with no sorrow or regret!
