I Have Finally Learned How to Look Within in Line with Dafa

(Minghui.org) Two practitioners and I were trying to clarify the truth to people in a hospital, when a young man phoned the police to report us and told me to sit in the next seat and not move.

I suppressed my anger and thought, “You dared to report me? I am a nice lady. I practice Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. If I were a tough guy, would you have dared to treat me like this? You only know how to bully a nice lady.” At the moment, I was angry and wanted to retaliate.

However, as a Falun Dafa practitioner, I should be compassionate and look within. I just couldn’t ruin the image of Dafa. I stood up, patted his shoulder, and said, “I wish you only good things.”

Because I did not want the police to see the two other practitioners, I told them, “You two leave as soon as possible. The young man has reported me to the police.”

The two other practitioners talked me into leaving with them. As we were walking, it started to rain. We took shelter, and one of the practitioners pointed to the sky and said, “The evil persecutes practitioners, and heaven is not happy. The rain will hinder the police.”

A Confrontational Attitude

While we were waiting for the rain to stop, one of the practitioners said, “You should look within. You are too tough. You might get into a fight when someone badmouths you.”

“All you’ve seen is the appearance, not the truth,” I said. “Even if I possess a certain weakness, the old forces are not qualified to persecute me. My speaking up was for your benefit. Otherwise, how could you look within and improve yourself?”

The other practitioner said that I was fighting back again. I replied, “Of course! How was I able to defeat the police?”

My speech revealed my attachments. The word “defeat” showed a very strong attachment to fighting. I lacked compassion, which deviated from Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.

This time I admitted that I had a strong desire to fight. No wonder the police had visited and arrested me so often for so many years. And every time, I debated eloquently with them and walked out of the police station.

Lacking Forbearance

Master teaches us to follow Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. But how did I forget about Forbearance? Without Forbearance, how could Compassion be embodied?

On our way home, my fellow practitioners also realized that they had the desire to fight and that all three of us had to look within and let go of this attachment.

After returning home, as I recited the Fa, I realized that the attachment to fighting was really dangerous. If the practitioners had not talked me out of staying, I would have waited for the police and gotten into a heated debate, which would prove to be another interference by the old forces.

My family would have worried, because I would not have given in to the police. Eventually, my family would have had to pay a “fine” to sort it out, and then I would have been locked up at home again. This is exactly what the old forces’ game would have been.

I told myself that I must think about this attachment clearly and deny it. From now on, I decided to clear out all arrangements by the old forces.

Deviating from the Fa

At one time, several practitioners got ill and two practitioners from another area were invited to share their experiences. The goal was to help the sick practitioners in our area. I was invited to listen, but I felt that something was not right, so I left the meeting.

At home, I thought of what I had heard and realized that the two practitioners from the other area were actually interpreting Dafa. They used Master’s words to validate their own arguments and concluded that Dafa practitioners had no karma at present, which I just could not agree with.

From the Fa, I understand that, during the cultivation process, as soon as a cultivator has successfully cultivated one part, that part is immediately partitioned off. The remaining part still has karma and attachments, which allows the cultivator to cultivate in ordinary society. I remember that Master said, “A cultivator cannot stop cultivating even at the very last moment before he reaches Consummation.” (“A Suggestion” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)

What the two practitioners said sparked a debate among our local practitioners, who thought of it as creating confusion about the Fa. I wanted to write an essay to join the debate, but eventually gave up on the idea, as I was not sure if I thoroughly understood what they’d said.

However, a few days ago I heard that the male practitioner had been persecuted to death. I was shocked. The two practitioners might not have intended to “interpret” the Fa, but may have done so unknowingly and simply out of a desire to help other practitioners. Unluckily, they did so in a way that deviated from the Fa and left the old forces an excuse to persecute them.

Interpreting the Fa

This lesson attracted my attention, because I noticed a long-lasting attachment of mine—to interpret the Fa from my own perspective. Being a teacher, advising others, and helping others has proven to be one of my occupational hazards.

When it comes to Dafa or a debate over cultivation, I tend to spout eloquent arguments, laying out everything I understand from the Fa. I think this tendency is also a kind of deviation from the Fa.

Master said:

“You cannot spread the things that you know as Falun Dafa. Otherwise, what you pass on is not Falun Dafa, and what you do is the same as undermining our Falun Dafa. If you say something according to your ideas and your mind, it is not the Fa and cannot save people; neither will it have any effect. Therefore, nobody else can teach this Fa.” (“Lecture Three” in Zhuan Falun)

“Whatever you have enlightened to in Dafa is no more than a tiny portion of the Fa’s principles at a certain level within the boundless Fa’s principles. You must never define the Fa or a part of it—not even a sentence of it. If you do that in public, the moment you utter it you will have produced sinful karma. In serious cases, the sin can be as big as a mountain or the sky—how could you then cultivate yourself? If one alters Dafa and creates another system, his sin will be so great that it is boundless. When a life is paying for that bad karma, the pain from its being eliminated layer after layer will be eternal and endless.” (“Definitive Conclusion” in Essentials for Further Advancement)

If what the two practitioners said deviated from the Fa by 100 meters, then I might have deviated by 50 meters. But regardless of how much or how little, I am deviating from the Fa. The old forces, who just try to find every loophole they can, are watching us closely all the time.

I wrote this article to correct my thoughts and to remind other practitioners of this serious danger.