Passing a Test After Wavering Back and Forth
(Minghui.org) As more people file criminal complaints against Jiang Zemin for launching the persecution in 1999, I wavered back and forth about filing a lawsuit myself.
Sharing with fellow practitioners was not helpful and confused me even more, as everyone was of a different opinion.
Ultimately I realized that regardless of our individual opinions, all of us had to let go of our human thoughts and fears.
Master sent me hints, which made me realize that the right thing to do is to file the complaint and immerse myself in the Fa-rectification process.
Disagreements Among Practitioners
“I believe that filing a criminal complaint against Jiang is an important test for all practitioners. Will you submit your complaint?” asked a fellow practitioner.
It was difficult to answer, as I was still uncertain. I said, “Of course, every practitioner has suffered from the persecution in one way or another. However I'm not mentally ready for it.”
My fear and selfishness hindered me from making the right decision. In addition, fellow practitioners disagreed with each other during group discussion on what the right thing to do was.
Some practitioners feared that once they revealed themselves to the public as practitioners, it would be difficult for them to tell people about Falun Gong.
One practitioner was particularly concerned for the safety of her family and did not want to risk losing her job.
Some commented that cultivation was so hard, and still others said that they would wait and see.
Then, one practitioner had no idea what to say in the complaint since she had not been persecuted directly.
I was very confused after the group discussion and could not fall asleep that night. While having all kinds of thoughts, I saw a pair of hands, which disappeared quickly. After that, something sketched some dotted lines in the air, which became a human torso. This also disappeared a few seconds later.
I wondered throughout the next day as to what Master wanted to tell me. Finally, I enlightened that Master told me to genuinely cultivate and eliminate my conventional thoughts, as well as my desire for worldly gains and attachment to fear. Now, I was certain that filing a criminal complaint against Jiang was the righteous thing to do.
After mailing my complaint to the Supreme People's Procuratorate, I asked a fellow practitioner to help enter my complaint into the “Bringing Jiang to Justice” form on the Minghui website.
Righteous thoughts again eliminated human conventional thoughts. After accomplishing this important task, I felt tranquil and my mind was calm again.
I got up at 3:30 a.m. to do the exercises. When I was meditating, I heard loud applause, which seemed to be coming from inside me at first, and then continued somewhere nearby. When I attempted to hear it more clearly, it stopped altogether.
I understood that Master applauded and that sentient beings are eagerly waiting for us to help them. Through those hints, Master encouraged me to catch up with the Fa-rectification.
Since the very beginning of the suing Jiang process, I have gone through mental changes from being hesitant because of fear to understanding the importance of submitting a criminal complaint against Jiang after eliminating my human thoughts and fears.
Thank you Master for purifying my mind and thoughts, and helping me gain abetter understanding of what it means to be a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple.