I Learned Forbearance from Falun Dafa
(Minghui.org) I was fortunate to learn Falun Dafa in April 1998. It was a sacred day for me, and my life opened a new chapter.
I had a lot of health problems before practicing, especially severe bronchitis, and I was always short of breath. In my twenties, I took a lot of medicine, was pale and thin, unsociable, neurotic, and had difficulty getting along with others. I often had conflicts with people around me, and I offended many.
I did not know to be tolerant when encountering conflict. I liked to fight with others, regardless of whether it was deserved or not. I was very suspicious and always speculated about how others mistreated me. I really lived a bitter and tired life.
After practicing Dafa, I no longer lived in fear, or speculated about others. I know how to behave in accordance with the requirements of Falun Dafa. My life has principles that I live by, which has made me much more tranquil.
“To be a practitioner you should, for starters, be able to 'not hit back when attacked, not talk back when insulted.' You have to endure.” (“The Ninth Talk”, Zhuan Falun)
In the article “What is Forbearance (Ren)?” in Essentials For Further Advancement, Master said:
”Forbearance is the key to improving one’s xinxing. To endure with anger, grievance, or tears is the forbearance of an everyday person who is attached to his concerns. To endure completely without anger or grievance is the forbearance of a cultivator.”
So I started to endure. At home I no longer fought with my husband, and I was good to him. No matter if he insulted or beat me, I always treated him with compassion. Especially when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started their persecution of Falun Dafa, because of fear, my husband tried to prevent me from practicing Falun Dafa. He began to beat me frequently.
My son could not stand up for me, but he tried to stop my husband, saying: ”You cannot do that to my mother; she is the best person in the world.”
My husband also felt he was wrong, and he stopped beating me. Even when I was illegally detained in a detention center, he did not say a word to complain. Despite my being persecuted for so many years and his suffering a lot and being in constant fear, he was supportive of my practicing Dafa.
At my workplace, the tests came one after another. If I walked in front of someone, and he/she was cursing behind me, though they did not call my name, I could feel they were cursing me. Sometimes when I was passing through an office with the door open, I could hear a group of people inside that were insulting and ridiculing me.
If this happened in the past, I would directly rush into the room and slap the person in the face. However, I did not have even a little anger, and I thought that what was said was about right. I thought it must be Master who was helping me eliminate my karma and attachments, or else I wouldn’t have been so calm.
At another time, I was scolded fiercely at my workplace for more than an hour. My colleagues even wanted to fight, but I did not respond with even one word. Although I was quite uneasy, I only had one goal, which was to endure.
“For us cultivators conflicts come up suddenly. So what should we do? If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of mind, when you run into problems you’ll handle them well because it will give you space as a buffer. If you are always compassionate and friendly to others, if you always consider other people when you do things, and whenever you have issues with other people you first think about whether they can take it or whether it will cause them harm, then you won’t have any problem. So, when you cultivate you should follow high and even higher standards.” (“The Fourth Talk”, Zhuan Falun)
So, I knew I had to pass this test well.
Before I practiced Falun Dafa I really had no accomplishments. Even though I am a woman, I really liked to fight. When at school, I beat my classmates. At work, I hit my colleagues, and mostly male colleagues.
I now understand that I was not a good person at that time. Since I started practicing Dafa I realized this and learned to be a better person.
My colleague whom I had beaten before became my boss later on, which I did not anticipate. Since I became such a good person, he could not take revenge on me. I clarified the truth to him again and again. I tried to persuade him to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations and read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. He made a wonderful choice and quit, which made me very pleased.
I also helped other people at work to understand the truth about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I have been working there for more than twenty years. The changes in me after cultivating Dafa were clear to those around me; I became a totally different person. Therefore, they all know that, "Falun Dafa is good", and the CCP media's lies and propaganda simply did not work on them.
I became energetic, healthy, and kind. They all felt Dafa was amazing. I talked to many about Falun Dafa and I persuaded them to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. It has been easier because they knew what I was like before. I was even more gratified that there were a lot of them who became Dafa practitioners.
Although I encountered tribulations during cultivation and suffered persecution from the CCP, I just took them as tests. Every day I happily do the three things. Over these years, I have learned to go to the Internet to print a variety of informational materials to help people understand Falun Dafa and the persecution.
Falun Dafa has taught me to live by the principles of Truthfulness- Compassion-Forbearance and has given me a lot of wisdom.