(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1999, during a time when I had reached a low point in my life.
My health had worsened before I began to cultivate, and I was diagnosed with heart disease, chronic fatigue, loss of memory and other weaknesses. Also, I had many strong attachments, including jealousy, competitiveness, and sentimentality. If anyone was unfriendly, I wanted to fight with them.
When I had reached physical and mental exhaustion, I met someone who told me that people regained good health because they practiced Falun Dafa. She suggested that I also learn Falun Dafa. I was not ready and decided to do some research before I made my decision.
There was a Dafa exercise site outside my home. I watched them do the exercises, and it felt good to watch them. The next day, I got Zhuan Falun. After I read a few pages, I knew that this was what I had been looking for. I studied the Fa and did the exercises everyday. Falun Dafa changed me. My health and my temper improved.
Before I practiced Dafa, I controlled everything in my family and my husband just went along with my decisions. After I practiced Dafa, my husband insulted and abused me and did not allow me to study the Fa and do the exercises.
Master said, “When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it. When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible.” (Zhuan Falun)
Despite the fact that I had just started to cultivate, I knew that a practitioner values virtue and that I should not get angry. Therefore, my husband's attitude changed.
Becoming Diligent
The July 20, 1999 crackdown on Falun Dafa occurred just two months after I began to practice Dafa. The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) banned Dafa, but I had read Zhuan Falun a few times and knew that Master and Dafa were good. However, I had to study the Fa and do the exercises in secret or my husband would curse at me.
My heart was heavy and I did not know what to do, but I did tell people that Master is innocent and Falun Dafa is good. My husband monitored me and I could not leave our home. Then, I told my husband that he could make every decision that concerned our family, but I made the decision when it came to Dafa.
Practitioners in my area who clarified the facts about Dafa were persecuted. Therefore, no one distributed Dafa informational materials, so I decided to do it. I took the materials home, hid them from my husband and distributed them in the evening. I used to be a timid person and did not go out when it was dark. Now, I told myself that I did not need to fear when there is Master with me.
During the daytime, I went out to clarify the truth about Dafa to people and in the evening, I put materials in mail boxes. My husband cursed at me when I returned home, but I just ignored it.
Police ransacked my home in November 2001. There were 100 Dafa flyers in my home. I thought that these persecutors would not see the flyers and they did not.
That evening, I was detained at a detention center. I had not done anything wrong. I talked to the guards about Dafa. When I returned home I found that the police had not confiscated anything.
Living by the Fa Principles Changed People's Attitude
Previously, I was afraid of losing face. I fought with others in the market every day. After I studied Dafa, I knew that I should not fight. Master said, “If you cannot love your enemy, then you cannot reach Consummation.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia”) When I did not have the goods my clients wanted, I sent them to the next door vendor. First, this vendor kept quiet, but then she said, “Dafa changed you.”
My husband slapped my face twice in the market. Master's Fa came to my mind:
“Perhaps in the future you may be slapped in the face twice, and you will lose face in front of someone whom you least want to see it. It is to see how you will deal with this issue and whether you can endure it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I was not angry with my husband. He also regretted it after we got home. I said: “It was not your fault; it was my fault.” From then on, he was nice to me.
After I practiced Dafa, my mother became abusive and would not let me study the Fa and do the exercises. I was not moved and said, “You are so angry. If I did something wrong, I'll correct it. Since I practice Dafa, I am healthy, and you no longer need to worry about me. Isn't that wonderful?” She changed and did not interfere with me any longer.
After my husband passed away, I lived with my son. He worried that I would be persecuted because I practiced Dafa and he fought with me. I treated him with compassion and often sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the old forces that interfered with my son. I studied the Fa more and was strict with myself. I let my son see that Dafa is good.
My son changed and I could study the Fa and do the exercisers at home. I could even set up a Fa study group at home. I held compassion in my heart and it changed my environment.
Category: Improving Oneself
