(Minghui.org) I have been disabled since I was young. I always felt vulnerable and that I could not handle any stress. As time passed, I became defiant and did not care about others' feelings. I would become irrational if anyone took advantage of me or my family.
I was well known in our area as a harsh-tempered and overbearing woman.
I became renewed and completely healthy after I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. I have been illness free for over 10 years. I no longer fight for fame or benefits, and I have learned to be tolerant and considerate of others. I take care of the elderly and nurture the young. My reputation has turned around.
Filled With Resentment
When I was a small child, both of my ears became infected. Both eardrums were perforated and I had hearing loss. In this way, I had to work extra hard in school to further my education for college. After I graduated, my disability became more pronounced. I was a teacher and I had to communicate with others, but I could not hear.
I developed low self esteem and became paranoid. Whenever colleagues were chatting and laughing, I felt they were mocking me. When I turned around to write on the board, I wondered whether students were talking behind my back. I had to read students' lips to figure out their answers because I could not hear anything. Worse yet, when the bell rang to release the class, I just stood there. I did not know it rang until I realized that all the students were staring at me. I almost had a nervous breakdown because of all the pressure.
I constantly put ear drops in my ears in order to hear—the fluid acted as an eardrum, and I could hear briefly; when it burst, I would add more drops. So, my ear canal was wet all day and sores had formed over the canal. Each drop caused me significant pain. I was worried that if I kept doing this, my ear canal would become infected and eventually cause brain damage.
Fortune in a Book
I took a year off from work after my child was born. I changed my job from teaching to managing a lab. But my hearing took a turn for the worse. Even with hearing aids, I could not hear anything. I soon stopped contacting students as well as teachers. I was completely isolated from the world.
Six months later, a colleague was doing exercises at noon. He told me it was Falun Dafa and gave me the book, Zhuan Falun. After I read Zhuan Falun several times, I realized that everyone was born to obtain this Fa, and that all the hardship I suffered was to pave the road for this chance.
It was calm in the lab and I could read the Fa every day. I could feel the Falun rotating in me. The ear infection kept subsiding and my hearing improved. With hearing aids, I was able to communicate with others. The sinusitis and pharyngitis, which are complications of the ear infection, as well as the gastroenteritis and constipation, which tormented me all my life, disappeared. I truly experienced what it meant to be illness free.
Family Grievances Resolved
Because of my deafness, my husband's mother fiercely opposed our marriage. But my husband was very determined that he would marry no one but me. My mother-in-law was furious. She told us that she would not support us at all. She also would not need us to take care of her in the future, but that we had to take care of her father-in-law to pay back my husband's upbringing. We agreed and took him into our home. My in-laws moved thousands of miles away from us and would have nothing to do with us.
My husband's grandfather had a hot temper. He used to fight with my mother-in-law, and they did not get along at all. The in-laws had now found an excuse to push this burden on us. He often yelled at me and complained about me to the neighbors: “How deaf this girl is,” he would say. “How hard it is to communicate with her!”
I used to fight with him constantly. After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I learned to be tolerant, and I became kind and considerate. I often told him not to worry—we would take good care of him. Whenever I made something good, I offered it to him first. Gradually, he accepted and appreciated me and complimented me to the neighbors. “This girl is very kind,” he would say. “She respects and takes care of elders.”
When he was very sick, I took time off work and cared for him day and night. My husband called his father, and he came in a hurry. He felt guilty for not taking care of his own father for 10 years. He wept and wanted to take him home to do whatever he could to fulfill his duty.
True Lessons
I am deeply grateful for Dafa. I learned to be tolerant, receptive, and considerate. I was able to get along harmoniously with my grandfather-in-law for 10 years and be kind to my entire family. All the neighbors praised me for being filial, and when my father-in-law came, he was deeply touched by how practicing Falun Dafa made me a better person. He saw the difference and was inspired to catch the last chance to carry out his duty as a son.
I also told my in-laws that I would forget all our past grievances and take care of them whenever I was needed. When my mother-in-law was ill and required surgery, her sons took a collection, and we came up with the most amount. She was very surprised, and she soon recovered from her illness.
Dafa has spread far and wide. The boundless Buddha's grace benefits society as well as its individuals. The Chinese Communist Party's persecution has spared no one. Even a disabled person like me was arrested twice, and detained for over seven months.
Category: Improving Oneself
