Learning to Look Inward Unconditionally
(Minghui.org) When I read Zhuan Falun, I feel that many sentences in the book point out my attachments and wrong understandings; while other sentences warn and remind me to cultivate diligently.
After nearly 20 years of practicing Falun Gong, I finally feel as if my whole body and heart are melting into Dafa. However, up until two years ago, I still argued over who was right or wrong in a given situation. If I believed that I was right, I would stubbornly hold on to my point of view.
Thus, “looking inward” became conditional: if I thought I was wrong, I would look inward; if I thought I was right, I would not. Of course, this understanding does not meet the requirements of Dafa.
Two years ago, I realized that most of my everyday relationships had hit an impasse, making it extremely hard for me to save the people around me. I became worried that my character was getting in the way of their salvation.
It was then that I made up my mind not to argue any more, no matter if I thought I was right or wrong. “I must treat everyone with the utmost compassion,” I thought. “ This is the only way I can save them.”
As I kept cultivating, I began to realize that looking inward is supposed to be an unconditional act. I kept reminding myself, “Even if I'm positive that I'm right during an argument or even if others treat me unkindly, if my heart is moved, even just a little bit, it must be that I have an attachment.”
Gradually, people around me began to change. Some people solemnly swore to support Falun Gong and sincerely regretted their previous mistakes. Some even began to learn the Falun Dafa exercises.
I regret that I've spent so many years failing to look inward unconditionally. I feel as if my journey of cultivation had just started two years ago.
I hope that my fellow practitioners can learn from my mistake and treasure this priceless opportunity to cultivate Dafa!