(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, and I am now 38 years old. Late last year I made up my mind to get rid of the attachment of lust. During the process of removing this attachment, my husband, who is not a practitioner, changed a lot. That is, his lust-related desire disappeared. I then realized that without the complications of sexual relations, a life could become purer and more beautiful, just as Master said: "… the Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities." (“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun)
When I shared this with other practitioners, I found that many of them hadn't eliminated the attachment of lust. After a practitioner heard my sharing, she was shocked, and she could truly feel that what Master teaches is the real truth, and that we haven't truly reached the required standard of the Fa. I wanted to write down the process of how I eliminated my attachment of lust, in the hopes of awakening those practitioners who are still trapped in it.
Rectifying My Mind and Being Sincere
The determination to get rid of lust is very important. Before I started cultivation practice, I had very strong emotions, and my feelings were easily hurt. After I started cultivation practice, I realized that these things should be removed, but I hadn't touched upon the root of my attachment.
In August 2013, I suddenly had the thought that I should completely remove my attachment to lust. At that time my husband was just about to travel for a business trip. I started removing my attachment to lust that month. One month later, my husband returned home. My attachment floated up: I thought that maybe I would make love just for that month, and then I would get rid of the attachment. Once this thought came to mind, I immediately had another thought: Are you really trying to get rid of the attachment of lust? I told myself I had already made up my mind to remove it and I must truly cultivate. I then firmly made up my mind. I sent forth righteous thoughts every day to eliminate all demon-of-lust related substances in my dimensions.
Master saw my determination. I could feel that Master was strengthening my righteous thoughts and helping me remove the bad substances. In the first month, with my strong righteous thoughts, my husband didn't mention sex. That was impossible in the past. The Fa had manifested its mighty power after I made up my mind to get rid of the attachment of lust. It let my husband forget about making love.
During that period, I often sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the demon-of-lust related substances in the dimensions of my husband and me. During the day, as soon as I had a thought of lust, I either recited words to send forth righteous thoughts or I recited Master's teaching: “Desires, lust, and things of these sorts are all human attachments, and all of them should be given up.” (“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun)
During the day, as long as I had time, my mind would send forth righteous thoughts, eliminating the demon of lust. In the evening when I was lying in bed, and if I didn't sleep, my mind also sent forth righteous thoughts. One time I found I was still reciting words to send forth righteous thoughts after I woke up.
Time passed quickly for three months. One day I suddenly found that the attachment of lust had been removed. I felt very relaxed, and my husband had never mentioned it. Just as Master taught:
“... if you do not think about these things, you will unintentionally restrain your spouse as well. If you do not and will not think of them, your spouse will not think of them, either.” (“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun)
After seven months, my husband forgot about these things completely.
In the seventh month it was a cold winter evening, and we usually burned coal to heat our home. Normally it was my job to refill the coal in the stove at night. The stove was located on the balcony off my husband's bedroom. I had to pass through his bedroom every day. One evening, at about 11:00 p.m., my four-year-old daughter went to sleep. My husband had come home at about 10:00 p.m. after a business dinner, and he went to bed straightaway.
After I refilled the coal and was just about to leave my husband's bedroom, he suddenly got up and started holding me; this made me jump. He hugged me and started saying sweet words to entice me, and I could smell alcohol. I knew that drinking alcohol can make one irrational. I thought that my efforts would be in vain this time. I wondered what I should do. I thought that six months had passed, so maybe I would just do it this once? But my righteous thoughts immediately denied it: What's the difference between one time or one hundred times? It could ruin my six-months of cultivation on this issue!
I immediately asked Master to help me. I said that I was uneasy making love, having removed my desire and lust. I didn't want to ruin my previous efforts. Master, please rescue me. As soon as I had this thought, my husband suddenly said: “You can go.” I didn't waste time to consider his words and left his bedroom quickly. I went out and pressed my hands together (in heshi) to thank Master for helping me.
The next four or five days, every evening while I was lying in bed, I could feel my hands full of strong energy. I could feel Falun rotating fast in my lower abdomen with strong energy that circulated over my entire body. I truly experienced the beauty and mighty power of the Fa.
Later I shared this with other practitioners. One practitioner said that Master requests that we practice cultivation while complying with everyday people as much as possible. She still had normal marital relations. My understanding is that Master's Fa doesn't mean we should hold onto desire and lust to comply with everyday people. Master clearly taught: “Desires, lust, and things of these sorts are all human attachments, and all of them should be given up.” (“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun)
Some practitioners said they treat these things lightly, and so whether you stop or not makes no difference. However, I don't agree. I think when one can truly treat it lightly, it means one can completely let go of desire and lust. As long as one has a single thought of desire and lust, one hasn't treated it lightly at all. In addition, if one really acts on lust, but claims they treat it lightly, isn't that fooling oneself?
Eliminate Lust, Truly Obtain the Fa, and the Fa Principles Will Manifest
After I removed my attachment to lust, I read the Fa again, and it manifested in completely new meanings. I felt I was being purified from the top of my head to all over my body. I could understand Fa principles clearly at my level. The layers of the profound meanings of the Fa manifested for me. Once when I read the Fa, I noticed a paragraph: “Lao Zi pointed to this practitioner and said to Buddha Amitabha with a smile: 'This kid is teachable.'" (“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun)
I was awakened at that moment. In the past I repeatedly read this paragraph, but I had no special enlightenment. After my attachment of lust had been removed, I read the same paragraph again, and it had another meaning. Without getting rid of lust, I was not teachable. If I was not teachable, how could I obtain the Fa? I couldn't obtain it. The profound meaning behind the Fa wouldn't manifest to a person that is full of lust.
A practitioner who was over 60 years old had a dream one evening. She saw a boy who had huge genitals; she got scared and woke up. She enlightened that it was related to her attachment of lust. Master gave her a hint in her dream. In her life, she encountered many hardships, and her feelings were never comforted. She always missed her first boyfriend. Although she never had sexual relations, this single thought and the attachment to lust had never been removed. She often failed the lust tests in her dreams.
I asked her, “Master has taught us in Zhuan Falun about things being created in other dimensions. Do you remember?” She said she didn't know. I said that when you have an attachment and always think about it, it forms a brain in another dimension. Master has explained the details regarding this; once you think about the attachment every day, it emits bad thoughts and it will form a body in other dimensions. In the end, there would be a complete life created, but it is something demonic. You are a cultivator, and you have energy; so you reinforced it. It exists in your dimensions constantly interfering with you. The boy in your dream had been created by you. Only by completely eliminating lust and desire, and no longer giving it energy, can this created life be removed.
After I shared this, she awakened. She said that she thought it was just demonic interference, but never thought she created it.
Cultivation practice is very serious; each single thought needs to be rectified by the Fa. We have come to the last segment of our cultivation path, we need to make our minds clear, seeing how many attachments haven't been rectified by the Fa.
Husband's Changes
Without my noticing, one day I suddenly found that my husband, who had a bad temper and was impatient in the past, had now changed. He was very busy with his business, and he had many odd things to deal with. I used to hear him cursing someone every time he was on the phone. People who worked for him had all been cursed at by him. Now he had changed, and he no longer cursed and was very patient.
In the past my husband was an inconsiderate man, and it always made me sad. Now after I removed my attachment of lust, his impatient temper disappeared.
This surprised me. At the beginning I always asked myself: Is this real? I told myself many times that it is real, and it has truly happened to me. Just as Master taught:
“If you are free from this sentimentality, nobody can affect you. An everyday person’s mind will be unable to sway you. What takes over in its place is benevolence, which is something more noble.” (“Lecture Four” in Zhuan Falun)
I had a further understanding that without sexual relations between husband and wife, life can become purer and more beautiful.
I still have many shortcomings on my cultivation journey; I still have many ordinary people's attachments. Master has undergone suffering for us and paid debts for us. I wrote my experience sharing in the hopes that we can improve together, not letting Master down and not letting sentient beings down. We must cultivate well and walk well the last leg of saving people.
