I Discover My Fundamental Attachments
My Home Life Before and After Dafa Cultivation
Before I began to practice Falun Gong, my house was a battlefield and abuse was routine. My husband once threw a glass bottle at my head. It broke and cut my head, which started to bleed and I needed eight stitches to close it up.
My in-laws looked down on me after I married, and I argued with them all the time. Our altercations even got physical. My husband goofed around and didn't have a regular job. He drank and gambled. He once took out a loan at a high rate of interest to pay a gambling debt. Several armed people came to the door and demanded payment.
I worked during the day and took care of our young child at night. I had a mental collapse and suffered from depression. I was not able to sleep and my life was miserable.
In 2005, I was fortunately able to start cultivation. I then understood that the real purpose of life was to return to my true self. All hardships are arranged to help us improve. I was determined to do everything according to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and to be a good person. I corrected any wrongdoings.
I apologized to my in-laws whom I had not spoken to for years. I took care of them and told them about the goodness of Dafa.
Last winter, my father in-law was hospitalized for two months. My husband and I took turns staying at his bedside day and night to keep him clean and feed him without complaint. My father-in-law was very grateful and said to me, "You are like my own daughter.” My mother in-law told me she often repeated, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! ”
When I first began to practice, my husband really interfered with me. He did not let me do the exercises, beat me, and destroyed my Dafa books. He also threatened to report me to the police and to divorce me. I was unmoved and did everything according to the Fa and as Master said in Zhuan Falun :
"..as a practitioner one should not fight back when being punched or insulted..." (Lecture Four)
Nor did I give up on him. I got rid of hate and tried to tell him the truth about Dafa, how good it is, and how it has been embraced around the world. I explained to him that the Tiananmen Square self-immolation was staged. I also asked him to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
After several years back and forth, he finally quit the CCP, wrote a "solemn declaration,” and published it on Minghui. He then found a stable and relatively high paying job. A few days ago, he went hiking with his colleagues. Before he left, I reminded him to be careful. He replied, “You said that Master will protect us, right?” This life is finally on a right path.
My Fundamental Attachment
Now, I have a happy family. I am very close to my in-laws, and they treat me like a daughter. This was only a dream before I practiced Dafa, and now it is a reality. I know that this happy life is given to me by Master and I am thankful to him.
This good life provided by Master is for me to be able to cultivate and be involved more in Fa rectification activities. But I begin to enjoy the ordinary "good life," and I slowly began to develop attachments to lust, fame, comfort, and dependency. I knew I was slacking off, but I couldn't find the root cause.
Reading a Minghui cultivation experience sharing article helped me to dig into my biggest attachment of pursuing human happiness and enjoying a normal life.
Our Master has great compassion and does not give up on me. He enlightened me through various approaches and woke me up. I bow to Master and also thank Minghui for sharing articles that led me to discover my attachment. I will try to remove it and persistently and diligently practice Dafa and do the three things Master has asked us to do.