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My Wake-up: Diagnosed with an Incurable Disease
Shortly after the new year of 2012 I began experiencing pain and I was always out of breath. At my husband's urging, I went to the hospital to have an examination. The diagnosis was late-term ovarian cancer which frightened my husband and our friends. The cancer had already spread to my lymph nodes, abdominal cavity and to my chest. The doctor told my husband that no treatment would help and that I should just go home and enjoy my remaining days.
My husband almost collapsed. He and our friends discussed what we should do, and that our son, who was studying abroad, should come home to see me one last time. According to the doctor I only had one or two months to live.
My Sister's Words Woke Me Up
Years ago, at the end of 1998 I was lucky enough to begin practicing Falun Gong but I did not truly cultivate. I knew Dafa was good and I always told others that it was good.
However, after July 20, 1999 when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began persecuting Falun Gong, I lost the group cultivation environment and I allowed myself to take it easy and behave as an ordinary person. I was fond of eating good food, drinking, amusing myself, and in general I enjoyed myself.
My sister tried very hard to encourage me to practice but I was deeply stuck in everyday people’s life and I refused to listen.
As Master said: “Some people are just obsessed with this place and have forgotten their own homes.” (Lecture Nine in Zhuan Falun)
After my sister heard about my cancer, she was very worried. Upset, she harshly criticized me.
However, her harsh words woke me up. When I remembered the last ten-plus years, I felt deep regret. I took out Master’s photo from the drawer. When I looked at Master’s merciful expression, I could not help but cry.
While I wept, I looked up and saw Master smiling at me. I was shocked and thought that I was imagining it. But taking another careful look, I found that Master really was smiling at me. I understood that Master saw my regretful heart and hoped I would come back.
Master Held My Hand
I spent every day studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. I read all of Master’s lectures six times and watched Master’s lecture video tapes many times. Master helped me and purified my body. I felt light without any illness. It seemed like every day Master was holding my hand and pulling me along.
With a deeper understanding of the Fa’s principles, my mind became broader, and my attachments were gradually reduced. I felt my mind becoming more and more broad, and I also felt a deep sense of responsibility.
Master encouraged me by letting me see my gong column in a dream which greatly increased my confidence in my cultivation. Many times I felt that Master was doing guanding for me (a reinforcing method for purifying and further cleaning up your body).
Passing Through the Sickness Tribulation
In addition to the cancer, I also encountered other illnesses. I used to suffer from severe constipation and I always kept medicine for that condition. After I started to practice Falun Gong, I still kept the medicine in case I needed it. After I studied the Fa, I realized that previously I did not completely trust Master. I then threw away all of the medicine.
After that I did not have bowel movements for several days. However, I did not feel constipated. I thought it was Master helping me dissolve my karma. But my mind was not stable and I still worried a little.
When the condition went on for 17 days, my abdomen suddenly hurt a lot. My whole body was sweating and this lasted several hours. I began worrying: Maybe I should use some medicine. However, I also thought: This is not right. Practitioners do not have illness. It was Master who helped me to resolve my karma. Just like that, my thoughts changed again and again.
When I felt that I was nearly ready to pass out, I thought about Master’s Fa:
“When you feel very uncomfortable, it indicates that things will turn around after reaching the extreme point. Your whole body will be purified and it must be completely purified. The cause of your illness has been removed, and what remains is only this bit of black qi that will come out on its own to let you suffer some and have some pain. It is forbidden for you not to suffer even a little bit.” (Lecture Two in Zhuan Falun)
I made a decision: No matter how much I suffered, I still needed to endure it. Therefore, I kept reciting Master’s words: “When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Lecture Nine in Zhuan Falun)
Finally, I had a bowel movement but it included lots of blood. The good thing is that I was not afraid; I knew Master was helping me cleanse my body.
Later, this condition occurred again and lasted over 24 days without any bowel movements. Since then, the condition has completely disappeared.
My Husband Appreciates Master
My husband witnessed the improvement in my health day by day after I began to cultivate. He was very glad and very supportive of my cultivation. He often told me sincerely: “Your life was granted by Master and by Falun Gong. You should thank Master and truly cultivate diligently without wasting any time.”
He was fond of saying: “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!”
My husband started to read Zhuan Falun. After he read it two times, he said, “This book is great. Everything that the Master said is correct.” He usually told people that Falun Gong is good, and that his wife practices Falun Gong and her illnesses were healed.
In the evening when I went out to put up truth-clarification posters, he would come with me and help. With his help, we were able to put up posters in all the communities around our house.
If I needed to go out and mail truth-clarification letters, he would drive me there. He normally would observe which roads had postal boxes and would tell me after he came back. I used to drive my sister to go to the suburbs to hand out truth-clarifying materials and post informational posters. When I buy groceries, I use the paper money bills written with Dafa messages.
One amazing thing I have to mention is that whenever I go out to save people, no matter how cold it might be during the winter, I do not feel cold. Also, no matter how hot it is in the summer, I do not feel hot. I just feel happy. That happy feeling is beyond words.
A Good Thing Happened to My Son
My son studied and graduated overseas but he did not find a good job after he came back home. Earlier this year, I went to see him. The day after I arrived at his place, I immediately told him the truth about Falun Gong and helped him quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) organizations.
Soon after he quit the CCP, he received an interview notice from a company. He had very much wanted to work for that company and had gone for their interview before, but was not hired. This time he successfully got the job. Our family members experienced once again that believing in Dafa will bring the person good fortune.
Conclusion
During my short cultivation, great and merciful Master has protected and taken care of me. A thousand words cannot begin to describe our entire family’s appreciation for Master. No matter how far the cultivation road I need to walk and how tough it will be, I shall listen to Master, do the three things well and save more people!
Let me quote Master’s poem “Plum Blossoms” from Hong Yin Vol. II: “In the chaotic world, like pure lotus flowers— plum blossoms, a hundred million Cold winds only accentuate their beauty The interminable snowfall and rain are the tears of gods, Who look longingly for the plum blossoms’ return Never, ever get preoccupied with worldly things Steel your righteous thoughts For all [that you have gone through] since ancient times, Was for none other than this time around.”
